It's been a meesly week without Preston being home and I am completely lost. In the past two years I have learned to (pretty much) do things on my own. And by that I mean like work and the stuff like that. There are times I want him to come and do stuff with me because I don't want to do it alone, and he says I need to start doing things by myself. He isn't always going to be there to hold my hand.

It's pretty pathetic that the past week I have been nothing but a mope. I have no desire to do anything with anyone. And when I do do something my health is not on my side. I am realizing that I really REALLY depend (for lack of a better word) on him for a lot. It kinda of scares me to think if I can't even tolerate a fucking week without him, how will I be in the future if time calls for us to be apart longer.

I really need to change.

And I really miss you. Things definitely are not the same without you. And it's only been a week. I have become the whiney vag I can't stand.

Shit hurry home so you can do the dishes.