Misty, Misty
What friends we were
crazy and spastic, that never did deter
We talked about everything, through every waking hour
Our fears and Our joys, We knew each others well
Whether for a Birthday or her anniversary with Brad, We always meticulously planned
Thoughts and ideas would always bounce around
Misty, such a friend you are to me
Such a friend I will miss
Your loss scars the depths of my soul
to think that such a wonderful friend and sister is gone
These words will never truly tell
The depth of my anguish, The depth of my Hell
No more rhymes, no more pretty words
Your loss, I will remember
for my soul will never forget

Lost in the background, Lost in the noise
Slowly beating into my mind, In this fog i can't seem to find
Words, expressions, hopes, they mean nothing here.
Where control is everything
there's everything to fear
So thoughtless to my mind
to my feelings, to my time
tearing inside me
you destroy me from my mind
drugging me until there's nothing left
except the tears, Where did they come from?
don't ever justify the control you stole
free will that was forsaken from you
and torn from me
I'll hide that from all of you
Deep inside my heart
lost to eternity
until my heart opens to someone
or until my heart breaks someone

You casually not care
to the innocence you took
as it solidified my love
and made the pain greater to bear
to a hardened heart, it seems not fair
I cried in bed every night, trembling with loss
hoping to wash it away, it seems tears aren't enough
I remember the stars still, little lanterns in the sky
reminds me of the euphoria of uncontested love
It remains lost to the midnight sky
I remember when the days were brighter
When the sky was bluer
everything seemed more clear
When that was lost, I threw myself away
everything blurred in a foggy haze
I dragged myself down faster and faster
mourning as i went
casting my hollow heart into stone
until the Love of Christ pulled me up and away
freeing my heart from the cold, hard stone i built
His Love is the reason i still exist
His sacrifice set me free
When i depend on Him, my soul is at ease
Now He is with me, now I see
His Love is the top priority to me 

1. I'll respond with something random about you.

2. I'll tell you which song or movie you remind me of.

3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle you in.

4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.

5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.

6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.

7. I'll ask you something I've always wondered about you.

8. I'll tell you my favorite thing about you.

9. I'll tell you my least favorite thing about you.

10. If you play, you MUST post this on yours.

Death inside
you'll never know

muwahahahahahahahaha........the power of a blog........and my sexiness......and my coolness.......... anyway, don't know why but i guess i will post a blog......I have made changes in my profile......I probably will put precious in my top ten......In the past couple of months I've gained alot of insight about love and relationships and that sort of thing.......and yet, I am still looking for a girlfriend.....that i can get along with and won't cheat on me within a week......cuts down that number......alas the great quest continues..........i just now noticed that i use alot of dots......to the dots!!!!!! reply or feel my wrath.......maybe not.......

its kinda of cool how much stuff i can learn about life and about myself in one day...I so do love to learn....

Hi every body...

 

How are all of you today?

coolness

*moshing*

I am tooooooooooo hyper.......woot......

 

*moshes  more*

good day to you....