i know im not a great catch.i never say anything funny,i rarely have antyhing positive to say, and i hardly say anything helpful. i  always think to myself"who would want to be with me??"

i first met ben around the begining of the skool year but we never really talked.Acouple months ago we accually started talking and one friday we were talkin on aim and he just asked me if i wanted to hangout.it was around 9 so i was a lil caught off gaurd but i snuck out and we took off from there.it started off as kinda a secret,forbiden love.we would spend almost everyday together.it was odd to me,i wanted nothing to do with a relationship and now im stuck on ben.

i thought as long as he didnt like me there would be no way i could get onto a relationship and thats all i wanted.turns out he really did like me wich made it worse for me.but one saturday we wer under an overpass and i brought it up to him (just wondering) and he told me he didnt want one,wich is what i wanted to hear...or so i thought.when he sed those words,i felt this pain.as if it hurt to know he didnt want to be with me,wich it did hurt teribly. all i could think about after that moment was how mad i was at myself for fallin for this guy..not only a guy...but BEN,a guy i hardly even knew. he told me he needed a week. wich was better than nothing so i waited patiently till that tuesday....i invited him over to my house to watch a movie.god what a great night. i held onto him as he looked at me. he didnt even watch the movie,he stared at me the whole time it just felt so right,it felt like we should be together,i shouldnt wait for his answer any longer!!! after the movie ended all i could think of was getting the answer from him now. my sadness and slight frustration showed in my face.he knew how i felt.but i had no idea how he felt about me.it tore me up inside. i sed in a harsh voice.."im goin for a walk if you want to come with me"i knew he heard the coldness in my words. i walked out the door,he grabbed me by the shoulder,turned me around, held me close to him and sed...."haley,will you go out with me??" 

i could not beleive the words i just heard come out of his mouth.did he really saythat?? thinking i had emagined it,i asked him to repeat his question. "will you go out with me?"He really did ask it!i couldnt beleive it! i was speachless...all i could do was kiss him. and after a very long passionate kiss i finaly got the strength to say yes.

as i said before,i know im not that great but i can tell by the way ben looks at me when i tell him i love him or even when i cook him grilled cheese....he loves me and i make him happy.

i would do anything to make him happy,i will always be loyal to him,i never think badly of him when others do.i just love ben and when i think of this i think....he is pretty lucky to have me

THANKYOU TUCKER MAX!!!