I am wrecked. I am overblown.
I am also fed up with the common cold.
But I just hate to say goodbye
To all the metaphors and lies
That have taken me years to come up with.
Say it's true. Say you like me.
(I like you.)
Just for the night.
for me, it's been eternity..
And as I gently sip this drink,
I think about my lack of future,
And all the places I could learn to fall in love.
I know I shouldn't waste my time,
Wishing I'd been better designed,
yet for some reason still think
I am wrecked. I am overblown.
I am also fed up with the fucking common cold!
When I just want to feel alive for the first time in my life,
I just want to feel attractive today.

(And today was a day just like any other)
I'm on the verge, I'm on the verge
Unraveling with every word
With every word you say, make me believe
That I won't feel your tires on the street
As I'm finding the words... you're getting away
I come undone, oh yes, I do
Just think of all the thoughts wasted on you
And every word you say, say something sweet
Cause all I taste is blood between my teeth
As I'm finding the words... you're getting away
Well I'm ready, I'm ready to drop
Oh, I'm ready, I'm ready so don't stop
I'm ready so don't stop, Keep pushing
I'm ready to fall, oh, I'm ready
I'm ready so don't call, I'm ready so don't call
I am aware, I've been misled
I disconnect my heart, my head
Don't wanna recognize when things go bad
The things that you'll accept
Except that I am finding the words... to say
I'm ready, I'm ready to drop
Oh oh oh oh oh, I'm ready
I'm ready so don't stop
I'm ready so don't stop
(I wake up to find it's another
Four aspirin morning, and I dive in
I put on the same clothes I wore yesterday.
When did society decide that we had to change
And wash a tee shirt after every individual use:
If it's not dirty, I'm gonna wear it.
I take the stairs to the car
And there's fog on the windows.
(And I'm Fighting the words...)
I need caffeine in my blood stream,
I take caffeine in the blood stream.
I grip the wheel and all at once I realize:
(And you're getting away...)
My life has become a boring pop song
And everyone's singing along.)
Well, I'm ready, to drop, well, I'm ready
I'm ready so don't stop, oh
Well, keep pushing, I'm ready to fall
Well, I'm ready, I'm ready so don't call
I'm ready so don't call, oh... oh... oh...

So I have been reading this blog for a while now, and I have been meaning to post this for a while, but I am lazy and haven't. I thought it was pretty funny. Tell me what you think.

http://jurassicpark.org/jurassic-park-4

Lets get fucked up and die
I'm speakng figuratively, of course..
Like the last time that I committed suicide.. social suicide..
Yeah, so I'm already dead on the inside,
But I can still pretend with my memories and photographs,
I have learned to love the lie.
I wanna know what it's like to be awkward and innocent, not belligerent.
I wanna know how it feels to be useful and pertinent and have common sense.. yeah
Let me in, let me in to the club, cuz I wanna belong,
And I need to get strong, and if memory serves,
I'm addicted to words and they're useless.
(In this department)
Let's get fucked up and die..
I'm riding hard on the last lines of every lie,
And the BMX bike of my life is about to explode,
I'm about to explode.
I'm a mess, I'm a wreck.
I am perfect, and I have learned to accept all my problems and short comings,
Cause I am so visceral, yet deeply inept.
I want to thank you for being a part of my forget-me-nots and marigolds..
And all the things that don't get old..
Is it legal to do this? I surely don't know.
It's the only way I have learned to express myself through other peoples' descriptions of life..
I'm afraid I'm alone and entirely useless...
(In this department)
Let's get fucked up and die.
For the last time with feeling
we'll try not to smile
As we cover our heads and drink heavily into the nights
That still shock and surprise.
I believe that I can, overcome this and beat everything in the end
But I choose to abuse for the time being,
maybe I'll win, but for now I've decided to die.
Sister soldier
You’ve been such a positive influence on my mental frame
If I could ever repay you,
I would, but I'm hard up for cash
And my memory lacks initiative.
God damn the liquor store's closed,
we were so close to scoring
it hurts, it destroys 'til it kills..
I am tired and hungry and totally useless.
(In this department)

Ok so I totally want to change my myspace layout. But I am having trouble deciding what I should do. Hit me up and I will change to make you guys happy

So it has been quite a while since I have updated so I decided to take some time from my very busy life to tell all those who read this and care (All two of you) what's up. I broke up with Deana that is really the best thing I could have done, she was just weighing me down so much, I was looseing the best time of my life and thank you to those who helped me realize that. I got a job, and not just any job a career, in the field I was trying to get into. I am a camera opperator at WJXT Channel 4 (www.news4jax.com). It isn't the best job in the world and infact I am the lowest paid person in the building, but I love it, and it's where I need to be to get the chance to do what I really want to do. I am dating the most amazeing person in the world, and now looking back I should have put that further on the list but I am too lazy to go ahead and change this whole post. She is smart and funny and I love her to death, she is the type of person that when I wake up every morning it makes me glad that she is laying next to me. With my new job and new girlfriend new friends have come into my life, and unfortunetly some have left. Not because we no longer are friends but because they have moved away or our lives just don't have time to see each other. But the total lack of DnD is killing me. Oh yeah I moved out of my mothers house, I live with my girlfriend if that wasa ovious in the statements before. Yes is it a drain on the wallet but living 15 min from work compared to an hour and a half it a great help. Hmmm that is the update on my life.... sure it isn't as great as someother peoples but I am happy, truely and utterly happy for the first time on my life.

TICK ... TICK ... TICK ... TICK ... TICK ... TICK ...

The sound you are hearing is not a technical problem. It is not a
musical cue. It is not a joke.

It is the sound of one man's mounting anxiety.

I ... am that man

 

The play I have been hoping to see for a while I have finally viewed, and it was AMAZEING. My normal complaints about live productions where washed away by the second act. The cast was good, the Lead the characters name was Johnny aka Jonathan Larson was ok, I think I could have done it better. The other leads were Michael and Susan.  Michael was good, he played a gay man really well, of course I think gay people prolly know how to act that way Susan, apparently she was sick and they didnt do a number because of that, but really I didnt know and neither did my date Kehehe. Anyways, that is not the cool thing. Boho days, my current theme song they did not perform. So after I went up the cast and asked them why, they said they didnt know. So I said come with me and we will perform it in the breezeway. AND THEY DID. Well I sang and they kept the beat. If you want a reference look up Tic Tic BOOM! Boho days to find out what it sounds like, but after when I was leaving the guy who played Johnny came up to me and complemented me on my voice HE SAID I SOUNDED LIKE JOHNATHAN LARSON. ZOMYGOD. Not to mention that all the DA prissy-pants  (That is an art school here.) were like WOW YOU ARE REALLY Good So that is my overly awesome noght, IM or call me to hear more. YAY ^_^

disreguard the last one