Hey everybody!! I know I haven't been online a lot lately, I have been super busy in the studio!! I stayed in Los Angeles for the holidays (and missed a badass blizzard in Seattle) to get more work done while the city was quiet. Can't wait for you to hear what I've been up to! More on that later. For now, you can hear and watch me singing my new song, "To Find You" (which is sometimes known as "Fireflies") and an oldie but goodie "Trouble" on CSI:NY this Wednesday at 10:00pm on CBS!! I play a subway street performer in New York City, so I get to perform two of my original songs, and as an added bonus- I get murdered!!! LOL! I had so much fun with the makeup and costume department on this. Everyone was so sweet and fun to work with on set, so it wasn't too terribly scary to play dead haha. :) If you read my earlier blog about the whole experience, you know that I had to teach myself to play guitar in about a week, so I am very excited to see how it turned out!! Now, CSI is not exactly known for the music, so there was a lot of confusion throughout in the musical department... When I read the script, it was an electric guitar my character was playing, but when they called me they insisted I record the songs acoustic. I double and triple checked with them that they for sure wanted acoustic, and then when I got on set, they handed me an electric guitar! hahaha!! So after all the hassle I went through to record the acoustic stuff, they had to go back and play electric over what I filmed. I haven't seen or heard what they've done to it, so I am very curious as to how they synced everything and a little nervous!! But more than anything I am very excited to be on TV again!! When I did American Dreams and played Janis Joplin, and had my videos on mtv and stuff,I had a big parties and all my friends came over and watched it with me. This time I don't have TV so i might have to take over someone else's living room!! Haha. Well hope you all enjoy!! Don't forget! :) Love you all!! <3 Bonnie

Last sunday, in the midst of trying to get my shit together for the CSI filming, I had a little teaser show, and it was a blast!! Several of my online friends showed up and it was such a thrill to meet you all!! Thank you so much for coming out and being a part of debuting my new songs!

It was the first time I had ever performed my new material! It was a bit nerve wrecking, especially given the circumstances.... I was so swamped and pre-occupied with the CSI filming that I didn't have time between filming till three in the morning every night and recording the acoustic songs to get a band together. I thought about canceling to get more time in practicing for the shoot, but had already posted the show on myspace, and I promised my roommate I would perform for her benefit, so I decided just to dive right in and do it.

I got all the sessions of my new songs together and just took out the lead vocals and decided I was gonna do it "Talent Show" style. I have seen plenty of other artists I respect sing to tracks before, and I figured fuck it. There has to be a first performance eventually, this one might as well be it- ready or not!!! haahaha

As some of you who came to the show may have noticed, the newer stuff is a bit different from the old album. I have injected a bit more dance into my songs... Although the singer songwriter in me is certainly not gone! This particular show I didn't have access to a piano or band (and my guitar lessons aren't QUITE up to pr for a real performance just yet! lol), so i wasn't really able to do my more organic material. Luckily, though.... People really liked it!!

The location was really awesome, in the heart of China Town. It's a two story club with beautiful red lighting and old skool decor downstairs. High cielings and rad sixties tiled floor. There was a bad ass little lounge upstairs where my friend Jerry and his fellow hairstylists from Barracuda were giving free haircuts, with red velvet couches all around and plush carpet, and then.... there was the "stage". For some odd reason, the room in the bar that you would think would be the "vibiest" (lol) was so sterile and scary!!! It was just a small concrete room with white walls and like... Dentist office lighting. Now, I was already a little tentative about doing this show-with no band and without a soundcheck or rehearsal- in the first place, but now I have to get up in "Momma said to knock you out" lighting!? Yikes!

So as I'm pacing back and fourth lookin at this horrible stage situation trying to figure out what the hell I'm gonna do to keep this show entertaining, who do I see milling about? Ryan fucking Gosling. Awesome. This is gonna be great. Like what the hell am I supposed to do with that? He's gonna be standing like three feet away from me while I'm conducting this musical experiment before his eyes. Maybe I'll run and jump into his arms at the end of a song? In my freakin pink and blue outer space outfit?
Yeah. Or maybe not.
It was less that R G is so scary or intimidating and more that everyone else thinks he is, and that everyone else now perceives the pressure as being higher. Now everyone's watching him watch me. Rad. What they don't know is that actors don't scare me. It's the scrutinizing musicians that are terrifying. I've been in much scarier situations with Jack White, and that was just waiting at the airport. (check the blog hahahaha)

So my wonderful beautiful talented room mate whom I love so dearly, had never thrown an event like this before, so it was a liiiiittle bit disorganized. It was getting late, on a Sunday night, and there were four acts supposed to be playing. It started out slow, so we were waiting for more people to show up- and they did, there was a pretty good turn out considering the last minute organization of the whole thing! but for some reason I couldn't get her to announce that the bands were going on.

There was a DJ downstairs and I asked him to announce for everyone to go upstairs and he was like "ok". turned down the music for literally like three seconds and quietly stated that the show was starting upstairs and then turned the music back up. Of course none of the noisy drunkards at the bar could hear him at all, so I went to my hostess and told her she should announce that the show was gonna start. She agreed and then continued drinking and socializing for another half hour. To her credit, there WERE a lot of cute guys there that night. Then I came up to her again and was like "Dude, it's getting late, people wanna hear the music and the bands are getting antsy! Tell the dj to turn down the music so you can make an announcement!" and she was like "Oh yeah, I'll tell him to turn it down!" as if I had told her the music was too loud or something. I was like, I-yi-yi and decided to take matters into my own hands. So I marched up to the DJ, turned the knob down myself and screamed at the top of my lungs "SHOOOWWSS STARTING UUPPSTAIRS!!!" and then trotted my costumed little ass upstairs and got on stage.

Like I said, I've never performed to tracks before, and because of my busy week, i didn't even have time to get the tracks together till about an hour before the show, so I never even got to rehearse the songs! But I figured what's the worst that could happen? The CD skips and I find myself in a Milli Vanilli situation? Yeah.

So I got the soundguy who also doubled as a bar tender guy to set up this janky little stereo system thing, and away I went!

I started out with my song, "Thunder" which I wish I had saved because the beginning of the show was a little rocky. The track wasn't loud enough and it sounded like I was just singing by myself for a good several bars! I was on ground level with the audience, there wasn't really a stage other than a four inch wood platform that was filled with the other band's equipment, and a broken assed microphone stand that I wasn't aloud to touch or it would fall over. So I just grabbed that mic and went into the crowd.

I think everyone was a little nervous that this was gonna be an awkward show, and I hate having my audience feel uncomfortable, so I just made the best of a very strange situtuation. I shook my ass and sang my little heart out... I was wearing a little blue onesy with pink and gold tule and white pumps, so I at least kept everyone visually entertained while I worked out the kinks!! hahaha! It turned into a very casual performance with me dancing with the audience like a madwoman. And you know what? It was fucking great!! I had such a good time, and people were dancing along and loving it!

The second song I did, which i absolutely can't WAIT for you all to hear, was "Stars In Your Heart". It is a slower, beautiful beatles esque little outerspace love song. And people really seemed to enjoy it. It's funny, everyone was totally silent when I was singing this one, except for my room mate/hostess, who I could hear yelling throughout the whole performance! I almost kicked her in the middle of my pretty little love song, but it seemed a little out of place...hahaha She was just having so much fun!

Then the last song was called "Infatuation" which is a very early Madonna sounding track about being obsessed with someone... one of my personal favorites!! Then-the unthinkable!! The CD skipped!!!! HAHAHAHA!!!!! GIRL YOU KNOW IT'S-- GIRL YOU KNOW IT'S--- GIRL YOU KNOW IT'S--- GIRL YOU KNOW IT'S Fuckin Milli Vanilli up in this shit!! Luckily it got itself back on track- just a hiccup- but i made the best of it and we all laughed. I got a really good response from this song, I had several people tell me they loved the melody.

I was supposed to be "Hosting the night" for my friend, and singing in between each band. So after the next band played, I played another song called "Met Your Match" and had a good time doin it, too. After the first three songs and the initial shock of the dentist lighting, it was a lot easier and freer to do my other performance. I think everyone was a little nervous for me at first. A friend of mine said it took a lot of balls taking a potentially awkward dentist office situation and turning it into a good time. I guess you gotta have balls for something like that. Especially when Ryan Gosling's judging you with his eyeballs.

I did a bad ass little photo shoot outside of the club with my personal photog Job Piston. I'll post those soon enough.

So anyway that was my half disastrous/ half super punk rock DIY show at Mountain Bar Club!! I think my wonderful room mate pulled off a pretty badass little party, and she's throwin another one soon!! Don't miss the next one!!

Thanks to everyone who came out to witness my make-it-up-as-you-go-along show, and I can't wait to see the rest of you at my next-better put together-performance! hahaha It's so great to have all of you supporting me while i'm working it out.

Oh and now that I'm performing these songs I guess I might as well start Posting them..... Guess you better keep comin back to hear them!!!

Love you all!

<3 Bonnie!!!!!!!!!!

I did it!!WOOOOOOOOOO!

So I kinda sorta took the role of Eleanor Rivera, a street musician who plays GUITAR without telling anyone that I don't, in fact play guitar at all. Woops! I knew it was wrong and I did it anyway! haha....

I have taken minimal guitar lessons throughout my life. Once when I was fifteen in Seattle with a hunky guitar teacher that made my hands shake too badly to even hold a chord. Or it could've been the meth, who knows? LOL Those only lasted a few months... and then I gave it another shot when my ex bought me a guitar and showed me a trick or two. But I always kinda felt like "Why the hell would anyone ever want to play an instrument that fucking hurts so bad?!!" and I always gave up before I even had the chance to build up the calluses to numb the pain.

But this time, folks... I didn't have a choice!! I knew it would be a great opportunity for me to finally buckle down and master this guitar thing i've been wrestling with my whole life. So I dusted off my old guitar and got to work! I had about ten days to figure it out, but they didn't know which songs they wanted me to perform yet. I sent them 8 songs and then immediately was like "SHIT!! Why did I do that? Now I have to learn 8 fucking songs in ten days!!!" Luckily, I tend to write in the same keys so as long as I knew the chords, I knew I'd be okay.

They narrowed it down to two songs, and I was so excited because it was two new ones!! "To Find You", which is my newest posted song you all know, and "Secrets" which is an even newer one that wasn't even finished when I sent it to them!! So I slaved and slaved over these two songs, practicing till my fingertips were purple, and then on Friday they decide that they wanted "Trouble" instead!! AAHH!! I had to film on Monday!!

I was freaking out because I remembered when I went on my radio tour I had an accompanist playing with me and he was always like "Fuck i fucking hate this song!" cause it was so hard to play. It's a lot of rhythmic shit and when we played it acoustic we always sped it up cause we didn't have all the beeble bobble background noises to fill in the spaces. So I was like, "Great, my fucking professional guitarist guy can't even handle this song and now I have to fucking learn it in two days? Awesome."

So I strapped that guitar on and didn't take it off for two days. I went to my studio and all of my musician guy friends were helping me with crash course guitar lessons. My room has a big window where you can look in from the other studio and they all saw me in there for literally like five hours constantly walking around with this fucking thing, pcing back and fourth. They said every time they'd look in it was like watching a fish in a tank. haha! Then night came, people started showing up for a studio party, and i just kept on playing. People would come in and hang out and I'd talk to them while I practiced so I could try to learn to multitask. Everyone had a different technique to show me, and everyone pitched in to help for the cause! The cause being me trying not to humiliate myself in front of Sid Hammerback and thirty extras. haha!

The hardest part for me was singing and playing the rhythm at the same time. Once I got past the fingers hurting thing, remembering the chords was easy. It was just trying to do percussive guitar stuff while singing a completely different rhythm. But I hammered away and it felt good. I can't tell you how thrilling it was to be able to accompany myself on "Trouble", a song I wrote when I was fourteen, for the FIRST time!!! I'm telling you, this whole guitar thing is gonna open up doors for me, I am so excited!!

Anyway. So in between filming my dead scenes, I had to magically produce all these acoustic recordings for the show. Obviously, CSI:NY is not usually a musical show, so they were a liiittle on the unorganized side of things. I had to record, engineer, play guitar, comp, edit and bounce five acoustic songs somehow while simultaneously being dead in a bathtub on the other side of town. I don't think they realized how much work goes into recording even just a broken down guitar and vocal track! Seeing as I realize what a huge opportunity this was for me, i tried to keep my complaining to a minimum, but I gotta say, they're lucky I know how to do all this shit. It's not every singer songwriter bitch you meet that knows how to do the dirty work.

So I miraculously got the recordings done, and then when I get on set- they gave me an electric guitar to play!!! Hahahaha!! So now this week I'm going back to re-record all the guitar stuff. Oh, television.

So I made it through the day and I think I did a pretty good job despite my lack of skills. You may be asking, why would you ever say that you could play guitar when you can't?! and I'll tell you why.... I auditioned for highschool musical, the first one, and got two callbacks!! They loved my look, they loved my voice, they loved my acting... but when they asked me if I was a trained dancer, i told the truth- no. I can fucking dance my ass off, but i don't have choreographed dancing experience. Well guess what, it cost me the role when all I wouldv'e had to have said was a simple "Yes" and then gone and taken dance classes every day till we shot. My point is, When they asked me if I could play a guitar, I said yes because I knew that I could. Somewhere inside me I knew that I could. and I did. So don't ever underestimate yourself, it's all about discipline and determination. Can I run a marathon? Not right now. But give me a week. ;)

I'll post when I know the exact date of the CSI episode. Can't ait to hear what you think!!!

Thanks for reading, thanks for listening!!

Love you all!

Bonnie

Fellow Americans,

I know from many of the comments I've seen you leave that you are not all Democrats, and so I have shied away from my political views. I love you all and respect that there is more than one way to see the world.

However, I can not hide my elation that Barack Obama is our new president!

I have always been a fairly political person, and as you may have noticed, pretty liberal. When Bush was elected into office I was too young to vote and I remember feeling powerless and sad, before even knowing the damage he would quickly do to our country. Four years later, I registered to vote and got my voice out there, only to sit at home and watch each state, to my amazement, turn red, drinking the champagne I bought to celebrate his leaving the whitehouse to drown my sorrows instead of toasting the end of four bad years.

This year, when I first heard that Obama was running, I felt a new sense of hope. There was something about him that genuinely inspired me. Sure, he's good looking and has the sparkliest smile on the planet-- but seriously, the way he spoke, even when he stumbled, he always had something to say. I wanted to listen. I wanted to help. I wanted to see what he could do for us, and now I get to find out!

I am so proud to be alive to witness this monumental event. I always heard our parents telling stories about the sixties and how everyone came together and flooded the streets and fought for what they believed in. Now for the first time in my lifetime, I know what it feels like to be a part of something big. I feel like my vote counted, and I am proud of that.

I woke up yesterday morning and people were still waving Obama posters out their car windows, beaming. The footage I saw of people all across the world crying and celebrating in the streets was so breathtaking, I was tearing up all morning. It feels like a great weight has been lifted off of America, and a long needed change of consciousness seems to have swept over the world, and for the first time-it's very strange to me- I can feel it. I feel like it is affecting me, personally. My future, my destiny. My hope. I feel like it's a new era for me, after these last dark years, that the universe is re-arranging, and I can't wait to watch it all unfold!

I have to say, I feel bad for McCain. Watching his defeated speech was hard. I know a lot of people worked really hard for him and believed in him. I really actually like him as a person. He wasn't your average stuffy Republican, he did have a fresh attitude. I believed he probably could have done a good job. I'd like for him to be my grandpa and sit me on his lap and tell me all about being a prisoner of war. That shit is dedication!!

Fuck Palin. That's all I have to say about that.


One of the hardest parts about this election was Prop 8. I am really shocked. I understand that it's a hot button topic, and guess what? You don't have to be comfortable with homosexuality. But what the fuck does what two grown adults who love each other choose to do in their private lives have to do with you? Your voting against gay marraige is like protesting vegetarianism. It has nothing to do with you! If it's not hurting anyone, who gives a shit what other people do? For fuck's sake! I thought we had grown out of this homophobic bullshit.

I had a very unusual election night... I spent it dressed as a corpse, lying on an operating table!! haha I got to play dead on the set of CSI:NY. What a riot. They bruised me up real good and gave me a fat lip. Plus they made a fake head piece thing that made it look like I had a chunk of glass stuck in my head!

Everyone kept running into the makeup room giving updates on the election, and it was pretty clear Obama was takin' it. Then, as the night wore on, Prop 8 was not looking so good for our same sex couples... One woman on the set started talking about it and burst into tears. She told me she had just gotten married two weeks ago to her long term partner, and she was just crushed. I hugged her and tried to encourage her and then I realized I was made up like a dead person and realized I wasn't the most comforting sight on set.

That happened several times where I would be having an in depth conversation with someone and completely forget that I looked like a had the shit beaten out of me! ahahaaha! I went to get lunch and the awesome old mexican caterer guy turned around and nearly had a heart attack when he saw me!! He grabbed his chest and kind of gasped at me, and I was like "What!? What's wrong, are you okay?!!" and started coming towards him and he jumped back like he had seen a ghost!!! Then I remembered the autopsy stitches on my chest. And the fake fat lip. And the bruising all over my face. and I was like, "Oh... sorry..... I'll just have some.... rice."

So... Shooting has been SO MUCH FUN!!!! This was the friendliest set I've worked on thus far, and I met so many wonderful people... I am playing a struggling singer songwriter that sings in the subways of NY. I have shot three days of being dead so far, and tomorrow I'm shooting all the music scenes. The makeup department is really amazing. I couldn't believe how real it looked! No wonder mexican chef man was freaking out!

It's funny because on Halloween I had a bit of a rough night... I was "I dream Of Jeanie" for Katy Perry's Hollywood Halloween birthday party, and I has this long chiffon skirt. We were all getting ready in the bathroom and I tripped on myself and fell backwards into the bathtub!! I have a sliding glass door on my shower so there's a steel metal track on the edge of the tub and I hit the back of my legs on the side of the tub and my arm on the freakin soap dish. I was literally blackened all down the back of my legs and had an impression of a soap dish--ridges and all-- on the back of my arm... when I came in to the makeup department to get "dead" they were like "WOAH!! Those are amazing bruises! Can we take pictures for references? They're BEAUTIFUL!!!" HAHAHA!! I was like well at least I'm in character, right? Plus, ironically enough, I die in a bathtub in this episode!! LOL I have a strange gravitational pull towards bathtubs I guess...

I shot two autopsy type scenes and then the coolest ones of all.... the crime scene! They find me in a bathtub in my loft. The set they built was incredible-- it's supposed to be an old church that was converted into lofts (which is common in NY) . There were beautiful stained glass windows that reflected in the bath water and angels pained on the walls... a vintage gold vanity, claw foot bathtub, and a spiral staircase... if it were a real apartment in NY it'd cost about 2 mil... a little much for a "struggling musician," but that's the magic of television for ya. At least I get to go out in style, right? haha

The whole scene I had to have my eyes open, which was fun. Playing dead was fun! Then I had two detectives (Hill Harper and Robert Joy) come and poke at me and talk about me like i wasn't there... it was pretty surreal. Every time I've ever shot anything i'm always cracking up inside. I know I'm supposed to be in the moment and being a great actor and all, but when you're dead, you don't really have any serious acting to do except not blink and stay floppy. So I stayed floppy on the outside and was laughing so hard inside! In one of the scenes when I was on the autopsy table, Robert Joy who plays Dr. Sid Hammerback was supposed to be examining me, and in between shots I kept hearing him very quietly under his breath do a little "hhhhMMMMmmm" like he was having a revelation. I'm sure he was just warming up his voice to talk, but I kept giggling and everyone was asking me if I was okay... it was so quiet and I was the only one who cold hear him doing it so noone could figure out why I was laughing, which made me laugh even harder! He was very sweet to me, it was a lot of fun working with him. :)

Anyways. So tomorrow is my big music scene! Let's see how it goes! It should be an interesting day because I am supposed to be singing and playing guitar.... except that I don't fucking know how to play guitar... Haha! They called me and offered me the part assuming I could play guitar and when they asked if I could I sorta kinda said yes. Which is a lie.

Wish me luck!

Love you all!

X Beeg Keess, x leetle keess, X beeg Keess, o leetle hug, O Beeg Hug
Bonnie

Hey everyone!

I gotta tell you I have some crazy assed karma.

As you all know, i have been working tirelessly on my new album, and keeping it under tight wraps... but somehow, through some cosmic laser beams shooting through space, word got about what I've been up to, and I got a very exciting phone call!!

My wonderful kick-ass agent, Erin Culley at CAA called me and told me that I have been cast as a main case on CSI: NY!

I am playing a singer songwriter named Eleanor Rivera, who is a subway performer. That means I get to perform 3 of my own songs on the show!! Woohoo!! They have not gotten back to me about which songs I will be performing yet, but I am super excited to see which ones they choose.

Also- added bonus-- I get to get murdered! Every episode of CSI starts out with a body and works it's way back to the scene of the crime through flashbacks and forensic evidence. It's funny, I always watch those shows and when they show the body on the table and stuff I always try to see them breathing or flinching... Now I have to be the one playing dead!!!

I called my mother to give her the big news and she was very excited for me. Then she called me in the middle of the night and was like... "Um... are you sure you wanna get raped and murdered on national television?!" haha!! She was so cute. I tried to explain to her that it's all make believe and that it's actually a very good thing for me, but i'm sure it'd be hard for a mother to see her little girl like that, even if it is pretend. Plus, most of my screen time is me being alive and performing... I was telling a friend in this episode i'm either alive and singing or dead in a bathtub, pretty much my only options in real life too. LOL

Anyway, so I start shooting on Tuesday! We're starting with the dead scenes and then we shoot the musical stuff later in the week. I will be blogging updates on each day that i shoot to share all the gory details with you as I go!!

Thank you so much for all of your continued support, i think all of your good mojo has been paying off, so keep it coming!!

I love you all!! Tune in tuesday night for a CSI update!!

xoxoxoxoxoxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Bonnie

Ladies and gentlemen, the time has come for me to get out of the cave i have been dwelling in and shine some light on this music I've been slaving over!!

I am playing a show

November 9th 9:00 pm
Mountain Bar Club
475 Gin Ling Way
Los Angeles Ca 90029
$10 at the door
21+

If you're not 21 i am officially encouraging you to go get a fake id and come.

My dear friend and also roommate, Genevieve Howell, is throwing this event to raise money so she can put on a play that she wrote, is directing, AND starring in! She is one talented motherfucker, and she's throwing a kickass party to get her project rolling.

On the line up for the evening are Haim, a fiesty trio of hot chicks with great songs who can SING!!! The Young Whiskey, a group of talented and also "really really good looking" Indie boys with a great energy that'll keep you watching, Face Lazer, which, as the name suggests, will laser your face off, Oragami Gunstar, a Badass rock/electro band to get you on your feet, DJ Cody Allen to get your dose of electro dance fun-ness.... and then there's me!

This is my first show in a while so I am anxious, but very very excited to be performing my new material! You should come so you can say you were there when I debuted these songs for the first time ever!! It is gonna be more of a dance influenced set, so don't expect the girl behind the piano.... but do expect sparkles, dancing, big hair and big fun!!

I'm going on early, so get there before 9 to see me play, make sure to let them know at the door that you're there to see me, and don't forget to come say hi to me! :)

I'm looking forward to seeing all of you in person! Come support the arts!! :D

Love you all!

xoxo Bonnie

Hey guys!

I am so sorry I have been neglecting my blog and all of your beautiful comments! I DO read them, but I don't always have time to respond to everyone!!

I have been SOO busy and I am super excited about my new material!! I know I have been evasive but I am holding out until I have all of the artwork done so that when you come and listen, you get the visual to go along with the sound. I know you all love the visuals... hehe ;)

I am happy to say that I just signed a publishing deal with Check Your Pulse Recording! I am now under the wing of some incredibly talented people... Scott Cutler and Anne Previn, (Natalie Imbruglia "Torn", Beyonce "Listen", and several Miley Cyrus songs, as well as writing with just about every big name in the business) It has been a wonderful experience so far, and has given me a new burst of creativity that has kept me on my toes!! I am just working tirelessly so that when I finally get this project done, I can reconnect with all of you and give you more interesting updates. My life has been a little less exciting lately, I mean as far as shinanigans go. Is that how you spell "Shinanigans?" haha. I've literally just been in the studio all day and night, and then on the odd night I get done early enough, barely making it to Blockbuster in time to get whatever retarded ass movies they're peddling that week.

If I've already seen all the decent new movies that have come out, I'll just randomly pick something and hope for the best. So the other night I found a movie called "August" (right next to "August Rush", of course ;) ) and it had Josh Hartnett in it, so I figured, what the hell. He was great in "The Faculty" right? (Along with John Stewart who gets stabbed in the eyeball with a pen full of drugs and falls to the floor foaming from the head) So I get this random ass movie, and it was fucking terrible. I mean like not even so bad it's good, i mean boring as fuck except for the gratuitous clotheless scenes of him meandering around his "Loft". I guess if you put a hot lonely shirtless guy in a loft, you don't really have to have a plot. Anyway it was stupid. Don't see it.

You know what else is stupid? "Street Kings". It is honestly such a blatant, poor man's rip off of "Training Day" It's embarrassing.

Also "One Missed Call" was pretty horrible too.

In fact, don't rent these movies:

"The Felon." They try to trick you by putting Val Kilmer on the cover, but he does little to enliven the retardedness.

"Smart People." I know everybody thinks Ellen Paige is a genius, but there is only so far a good actor can take a terrible script. I couldn't even finish it, it was so annoying. Oh everyone's just sooo sarcastic, how hilarious.

"The Last Winter". The scariest part was when the guy fell through the ice and his friend tried to save him. Not a good look for a movie about... invisible alien spirits that are seeking vengeance for humans polluting the earth? I don't get it.

Here are some good ones I wasn't expecting to be good:

"Expired." Amazing acting, heartbreaking story, just really fascinating movie about lonely people and what they'll do for love.

"The Babysitters" Awesome guilty pleasure. Great acting. A group of highschool girls decide to make a little extra cash by starting a prostitution ring with the fathers of the kids they sit.... Love the lead actress, she was great. Plus creepy yet hot sex scenes.

"Baby Mama" Everyone hated it, but i thought it was hilarious!! I love Tina Fey. Especially her "Sexy Sara" impersonations on SNL lately. But I guess that's stating the obvious, right? Brilliant.

Anyway I'm procrastinating... Gotta get back to work!! I'm gonna be posting my new song very soon, I just have to get a few details ironed out and then it's all yours, bitches!

Oh by the way, speaking of movies, if you rent "August Rush" I have a deleted scene in the special features thingy, so that's pretty awesome! It's the scene I blogged about where I had to back a car around a corner in two feet of snow with two huge camera guys in the back and Kerri Russel crying in the passenger seat. First day of shooting with no rehearsal. Always ready for a challenge!! haha

So anyway, if you're like me and totally work obsessed and have no time for anything but Blockbuster movies lately, check out "August Rush" and watch my deleted scene, too! It would have tied the movie together a lot better if the had left it in, cause in the movie, the last you hear of my character is that I ran off to get married and then Kerri calls me freaking out and I tell her I'll come home and help her find her son. But then I never show up again. This was the scene where I came back and we went to the orphanage. Stupid they left it out! My hair looks great! haha :)

Love you all!!

Stay tuned, I'm so excited!:)

<3 Bonnie

So as you all know, last night was the VMA's, and I have a few things to say about it.

Number one. I remember growing up, the VMA's were like a major awesome big deal. The stages were huge and the performances were spectacular. It was rad because it was totally unpredictable and you never knew if someone was gonna roll around on the floor or climb the rafters... but MTV has really blown it the past two years in a row now.

Last year was in vegas, where everyone was in a different room and everything skipped from one stage to another to another... all of the performances were chopped up and you had to go online to see the full shows. I suspect that the interns they hired to put it on in must've been partying as hard as the audience cause it definitely left me with the spins. It was choppy and riddled with technical difficulties, and in the end it seemed like the only full performance I saw was the cruel joke that MTV played on Britney in the beginning.

This year, the awards were held on the Paramount Lot, down the street from me, where I attended the VH1 "Big in 05" awards a few years back. Don't get me wrong, VH1 is a lot of fun, but the "Big in (fill in year)" awards are no match for the magic of the VMA's, which have introduced us to incredible new artists, spawned pop culture moments that have entertained us for decades, and gone down in history as the most fun, spontaneous awards show out there. So it was kind of strange to see this historical show on such a tacky little set. It was like watching a high school prom, or an episode of "Who Wants to Be a Millionare?" except without the suspense. Judging from the cheap overall look of things, it seems the entertainment industry isn't exempt from the terrible economy right now.

I guess I just feel like all the magic is gone. Everybody lip synched, and it was all so safe and predictable. There was no "What's gonna happen next!?" feeling, except wondering who would be participating in the next "In Show" advertisement. At least at the Vegas show everyone was wasted and Justin Timberlake pleaded with MTV to "Play more music videos!" and hated on the cast of "The Hills".

I hate all the jumping around from the outside lot to the stage to the weird little cubby hole where they crammed the Ting Tings, Lupe Fiasco and Katy Perry. Part of the fun of watching the VMA's is the irony of seeing all these crazy artists in a formal awards ceremony setting misbehave. Plus there are less opportunities for technical difficulties and confusion for the audience at home.

In case you didn't notice, Katy Perry got JIPPED!!! First of all, she had the number one single of the fucking summer and beat ALL those motherfuckers out, and we didn't even get to see a full performance?! Retarded!!

Plus, beaten out by Tokio Hotel?! Who the fuck is that?! A goth Anime character, a dreadlocked raver, a poor man's Bert McCrackin, and a jock playing outdated emo crap that noone will ever hear agian. Sure, Katy's lyrics can be gimmicky and trite, But at they are pop gold-and she can actually sing! She has earned her spot as a breakout artist and she deserved that award!

Also, while Britney DID look incredible and carry herself like a sane person with a full head of hair, everyone knows that video was crap. Featuring terrible special effects, cliche' Paparazzi footage, and half baked dance moves comparable to a sober sorority girl's, her glazed over eyes give away her self-doubt and make for an uncomfortable performance that seems to say "I give up" more than "You want a piece of me?". And by the way, 2002 called, it wants it's jeans back. Did she really have to win 3 awards? Why didn't she win when she was awesome like three years ago? These were pity moonmen. Although if you're gonna lose the Best Female Video to someone, Brit Brit aint so bad.


That aside, Katy looked incredible, as usual, and for fuck's sake, two nominations is nothing to sneeze at!! I am so happy to see her succeed after all she has been through. She is an inspiration to stay persistent, and an incredible talent. There will be more moonmen in the future for her I'm sure. :)

Christina, who is in my opinion the best voice in the industry today, was lip synching for much of her performance, which was a disappointment, but I still love her, and I can't wait to hear more new shit from her. Even though she did totally rip off Lady Gaga, who by the way if you haven't checked out, you should.

Hmmm... Rihanna was cool. Never loved that song to begin with, but decent performance...

Oh yeah! Paramore kicked ass!! even though Homegirl totally stole my hair (I kid, I kid...) That girl is the shit! Singing whilst headbanging? I'm impressed.

Lil Wayne. Ok I really hated him at first. When that song first came out I was like, are you fucking kidding me? How depressing that this is what is considered "music" right now. But that's just the brainless single. When I listened to his other material, I was really blown away with his creativity. It's nice to hear someone rap about outer space and eating pussy instead of the usual cars and money. Although if I hear the word "Shawty" one more fucking time on the radio I'm gonna croak.

I haven't had a TV for over a year now, so I rely on online information only... so who the fuck is this presenter guy, what is his deal with the jonas brothers, who does his hair and did i read somewhere that he's a sex addict? I like this guy. Plus he was pushing Obama, which was totally inappropriate for a "neutral" awards show, but I'm glad he did. Obamaaaa!!

So there's my little VMA rundown for ya. Since my opinion is so very important and you all care so much.

New music... so close! Maybe next year I'LL get to lose a moonman to Britney. :)

Love, Bonnie

Update:
So my whole recap of this show was based on what I could get online, so I didn't see all of the clips of the "comedy" this bedraggled pirates of the caribbean host doled out, but when I went back and watched it I noticed how crude he was... there is always room for a little blue humor, but sometimes there has to be a line. A good example of comedians pushing the limits of taste would be when Paris Hilton's sex tape came out. She was clearly humiliated and people were way too hard on her. But in that case, if you're stupid enough to let someone film you having sex when you're a celebrity, you're kind of asking for it- but this guys remarks about Madonna and the baseball bat were not only in bad taste but totally misogynistic and border line violent... At least the Paris Hilton stuff from Sara Silverman had some element of truth behind it, but this is shit he came up with all on his own. I mean what kind of a sick fuck thinks that fucking Madonna, or ANYONE with a baseball bat is funny? It's just disgusting. Plus the Jonas Brothers obsession, it was creepy. He's just a charismatic ringmaster- Not a comedian. But he is admittedly hot.

Also, I love Britney and I'm glad she's making a comeback! The show was definitely lacking without a dose of Brit's performing... I was only commenting on how the video sucked.

OK those are my updates. :)

Hey!

So I have been working reeaaally fucking hard lately!! I am just putting the finishing touches on my first new song I'm gonna post... "Thunder".

I am doing all this shit on my own, so it's not like the old days when I could just go in and have a week to finish shit. I am driving all over LA to different studios.... Doing vocals at one place, making beats and sampling old Dracula vs Frankenstien vs Werewolf records (for reals) at another, and mixing at yet another studio, all on opposite ends of the city, of course. This is a labor of love, so you better fucking like it! lol

I co-wrote "Thunder" with my dear, talented friend Ted Bruner (Katy Perry, Mily Cyrus) and Oligee produced a crazy bangin track for it. We started it about a year ago, just melody and structure, and then when i finally got around to writing all the lyrics, I realized what a piece of magic we had captured. I couldn't be happier with it! It's like an old James Bond theme meets Fiona Apple meets your face melting off cause it's so fucking rad!

So. I am going to need all of your help spreading the word on Bonnie Mckee!

Meanwhile.... What else do I have to report?

My collection of stretchy pants is growing.

Uuuummm.... I accidentally doubled my dose of Welbutrin yesterday and spent the whole day rearranging my room. Now it looks like a Moraccan whorehouse.
Instead of just a regular whorehouse.

Oh yeah! I went on a -literally- 10 DAY FISH TACO KICK!!! I went to Baja Fresh EVERY SINGLE DAY for TEN DAYS STRAIGHT!!!!! I don't know what it is about them. They're So.
Good.
I put jalepenos on them and squeeze extra lime... that smoky brown salsa.... That shit is fuckin ZESTY.

I think i've told you this before that I go on food kicks. It's like a weird obsessive thing. Sometimes it's waffles, sometimes it's stuffed grape leaves, sometimes it's sushi. The sushi one sucks because the good places always keep weird hours and aren't open on sundays, so when I'm really fiending I end up having to buy shitty california rolls from Ralphs... but Baja is always there for me. All white and fresh inside. The atmosphere really dose reflect the name. Shit. Now I want another fish taco! Maybe Katy Perry has a fish taco she could offer me? haha! Had to say it.

Anyway. Nothing too interesting to report cause I'm workin all the time. Stay tuned. I really am gonna post some music soon.

Thanks for listening!!!

Love and cilantro.

Bonnie



Side note... I just googled "Cilantro" to check the spelling and found a whole community of people against cilantro!! hahaha check it out it's pretty hilarious. http://ihatecilantro.com/