i never fell asleep last night. i got home, sat down, got up and forgot who i was. my best friend looked like stained wall paper and my throat dried up. i ran out the house in a suit and running shoes and broke a sweat with no relief to follow me home. i took a shower and couldn't find the soap so i washed my body with shaving cream. i smelled like a man. this morning i went to the doctor and he drew blood and wrote me a prescription and now i feel sick. my vitals are top but i feel sick. i finally see the symbolism in decapitation. today i ate a delicious salad and took it easy.