If you were to listen to me and talk calmly with me about this then perhaps we could resolve the matter in a more peaceful manner. I still do not understand just what has made you so angry with me. Is it something that I wrote, or do you still think deep down I was something that I was not? If I have offended you in any way I truly am very sorry. If you wish to hate me then that is okay. Perhaps I do deserve it, but I would at least like a good explanation to go along with it. No, I don't appreciate having someone saying things in print so that some people I love and respect gets upset and also deletes me from thier pages because of a foul word being printed with what appears to be a spirit of sarcasm and I don't like for my family to inquire about what kind of friends that I have. I deal with those who are my friends and if you have something to say it is polite to at least say it personally and not publicly. Perhaps I shouldn't bother. If this is your decision then fine. If your brother wishes to threaten me and call me names again, that is okay too. I am neither hurt nor afraid. But it shouldn't have come to this. I still don't understand. I am sorry for your loss and wish that I could be s friend, something you said that I was not and I apologize. I have been an idiot to just open up to you like I have and I now see what has festered deep within you. Don't you see that I am apologizing. But it is alright. I have experienced loss before and if you even bothered to read this and care, know that I will move on. Sure, I am as your brother said, a jerk. I am a "holier than thou" because I have heart and conviction that deep down something is bothereing me about myself. I keep losing people and friends. But again, I go on. I don't stop caring because they do.

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