The Pussycat Preacher will be at the Roxie theater!

 Please come out and see the movie if you are in the area. I lived in the Bay area for awhile and I know  this film can have a great impact in the lives of many,                                                                       http://www.roxie.com/events/details.cfm?eventID=FC2D175A-B54A-A997-70B498E6B396BC3B
The Burning Fuse Film Festival presents The Pussycat Preacher

“Pussycat Preacher” A lapsed stripper becomes an evangelical minister, but her ministry outreach to sex workers stirs her congregation’s prejudice and doubt. The film presents a mesmerizing and at times hilarious portrait. Produced and Directed by Bill Day. Winner: Audience Favorite Award, CineQuest Film Festival.
Fri, June 5 at 7:45pm
Sun, June 7 at 7:45pm
Mon, June 8 at 9:30pm

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Ht: 5'5"
Wt: 130
Short medium brown hair - bright blue eyes.
Date of Birth 10/25/1994
Last seen wearing black pants, black hoodie and black sneakers
Last seen 7:10am Feb. 13, 2009 on North Broadway in Escondido, CA - walking toward Escondido HS (believed to have been on west side of street)
CONTACT WITH ANY INFORMATION:

missingamber@yahoo.com

or call the Escondido
Police Department at

(760) 839-4722
Please pray for Ambers return. If you have any media connection to help get the word out please send a email to the abouce address.

For some reason I dont share much about my friends here on myspace but lately I have been so thankful for the true friends I have in my life. Awhile back I was talking about my past with my friend MT of x3 and I found myself crying over how great my days with all of my old friends were. To be honest I had the most love and true friends before a became a christian. But there is one friend that deserves the title of my closest friend.... Its Joy. Joy and I met when I was 21 and she was 19. At the time I was a very bad girl and she was a sweet girl that took a risk and became my roommate. At first we didn't know how things were going to work because I was sooo bad and she was pretty good when compared to me. Also I was a very lazy and messy girl who hated to clean up after myself. So one day I go to get some food and I see there are no clean forks or spoons so of-course instead of washing one I start digging around in the utensil draw and pull out a spatula and figure I could make it work somehow. I sit down in my living room to eat my meal and when I look over I see Joy is sitting there eating her dinner with a gigantic serving spoon. Both of us looked at each other and burst into laughter. We knew from that day that we were meant to be together. From that day on Joy and I grew closer and closer. We became such good friends that we shared all of our money. If one of us had money and the other didn't it didn't matter because we loved to give to each other. We went everywhere together and we loved to go dancing. Joy was always so tolerant of my lifestyle. I was very mean to men at the time and was a predator to any man or woman that came my way. Joy often got stuck disposing of the guys or girls when I was done with them. She was so sweet and would be nice to them but also stood by me even though she knew I was so wrong. But I do have to say Joy had her naughty side. She knew that I was very protective of her and she loved it. So joy being shorter and a chicken at the time would pick fights with gigantic big girls knowing that there was no way I would allow anyone to touch her. So that left it up to me to protect her. The crazy part about this is that after I became a holy roller Joy became a pro wrestler??? I could not believe it! My Joy? So now we have reversed rolls in a sense and now I am the wimp that is has to control myself and resist getting in fights.So to wrap this up I couldn't be more thankful to have Joy. She has been a mother to my son,a faithful friend, and now one of the few people I can be myself without risk of any rejection. I just love her with all my heart!
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Sixteen Candles - Final Scene - Movie Ending - A funny movie is a click away When I was a teen I could only dream of a moment like this. I have always loved this movie. I used to image my life to be like the lives of the teens on this movie. But in reality a girl like me could have never had the classy, handsome ,successful guy. I always settled for the bad boys or the crazy artist type guys. I guess I though that that kind of guy was a right fit for me. But life is so different now. Strangely now I have found my Jake Ryan in the middle of so much craziness. Every time I watch this scene I realize I have the type of man I have always dreamed of now. My Ike is a true gentleman. He treats me like a princess and respects me more than any man ever has. I am so blessed to have found him and I cant wait to turn old and gray by his side. I found a true friend and partner and I that God for bringing him into my life every day.

I think often those we feel are farthest from God have the most honest ways of expressing there fall into sin. As christians we are so afraid to even speak of our own sin in our lives that we fear even putting the experience to words. Our rightful fear comes from being afraid that those who we know and love would no longer love us if they learned the truth of the depths of our hearts. I absolutely love this nine inch nail song. I find myself comforted by its raw honesty. I love how in the beginning it talks about sin as "a tiny little dot that caught my eye" then continues to say" I watched it way to long it was pulling me down". For me thats usually how it starts. Something will catch my interest and I will let it sink into me until it seems to late. There is another part that I feel like so many of us fall into. The part in the song that says "everything I never liked about you is kinda seeping into me". Man if that is not true? I find myself hating qualities about others. And through my disgust for them I begin to become just like them. I want to attack and ridicule them just as they do me. Or there are times in my past that I would look at others in sexual sin then years down the road be involved in the same sin. I think there is so much to learn from this song. There is only one thing missing from it... GRACE. Thank God for grace! Thank God that unlike this song it is never too late. With Jesus we can always get up again and be truly forgiven. I love God so much for His grace and patience with me. I know I will mess up again and again in life but I pray He will always get me back into the race and on the right path. BTW please pray for Trent who sings this song. He is sober now and I know that God has a big plan for his life. He just needs to know how much God loves him . I thank all of you who have stayed by me through all of my ups and downs. God bless ....................................................................................................................................................................... Here are the lyrics.. "Down In It"Wimp. Wimp.Kinda like a cloud I was up way up in the sky.And I was feeling some feelings you wouldn't believe.Sometimes I don't believe them myself and I decided I was never coming down.Just then a tiny little dot caught my eye.It was just about too small to see.But I watched it way too long.It was pulling down.[Chorus:]I was up above it.I was up above it.I was up above it.I was up above it.Now I'm down in itShut up.So what what does it matter now.I was swimming in the hate now I crawl on the ground.And everything I never liked about you is kind of seeping into me.I try to laugh about it now but isn't it funny how everything works out.I guess the jokes on me, she said.[Chorus]I used to be so big and strong.I used to know my right from wrong.I used to never be afraid.I used to be somebody.I used to have something inside.Now just this hole it's open wide.I used to want it all.I used to be somebody.I'll cross my heart and hope to die.But the needle's already in my eye.And all the world's weight is on my back and I don't even know why.And what I used to think was me is just a fading memory.I looked him right in the eye and said "goodbye."[Chorus]Rain rain go away.Rain rain go away.Rain rain go away.Come again some other day.[Chorus]Na na na na na na na na.

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Well I haven't really wanted to share much of anything here on myspace about the happenings of the ministry. But I feel like I need to start sharing what we are doing with all of you so that you can pray and hopefully help out at times when we need your help.
So.. Here is a wonderful update!
Last week JCs Girls and the woman of Central church got together and threw a BIG christmas party in the strip club dressing room! We had been planning for months and it was awesome! We asked the women from church if they would donate money and there baking skills to be able to reach out to the dancers and the other employees at the strip club. Well the women of Central really showed there hearts and they gave there own money and time during this very hard time of the year to show real love to the dancers. We ended up bringing in hundreds of gifts. We had gifts for the Dancers, waitresses, managers,bouncers,male dancers, and house moms. And on top of that there were tons of baked good for everyone to take home. Also we had a catered meal brought in :)
All of this was great! But even greater is what took place in that dressing room. Well leading up to the outreach I had been going in with gifts with 4 different women at different times. Allowing to women to feel comfortable and get to know the space we were going to throw the party at. Every time it went well and the ladies from church felt more and more at ease with the upcoming Party. So when the day of approached I was nervous that we were going to be having more of a gift give away and less of a party. But the coolest thing happened. We came in and at first I think the girls were a little shocked by the amount of stuff and that was brought in. But after awhile I looked around and it was a REAL party. I was able to see what I would typically think of as "church ladies" totally having a great time talking and eating with dancers. The dancers were so happy and couldn't believe that they were so loved by there local "church ladies". I have to be honest I really wasn't sure if the two worlds could really be in one room and truly enjoy each other. But with God and the power of love I saw it with my own eyes. It was a wonderful sight to see. ... ohh and to let you all know... We did not load the girls down with religious material and condemning brochures. We just had a tag on all of our gifts stating " we love you just the way you are at Central Christian Church" .. btw we do! That gives girls the opportunity to come and check out God and see what He is about without us shaming them or forcing them to change when they are not ready. It allows God to do all the work and get all the credit! So please keep us in your prayers we are doing regular outreaches and we have big ideas on how we can love these girls even more! God bless you all!

I was talking to a good friend of mine MTx3 and I was really thinking about how much I have grown as a leader in this ministry. At first I was kinda like a crazy teen ready to take on the world. I was willing to do any and all media. But lately God has matured me and helped me to focus more on real ministry. Often when I would do some tv show the mission I was on would soon become a performance and less about really reaching people for Christ. It would put so much pressure on me to succeed and not allow me to put the pressure on God. I knew if somehow if I failed the world would laugh at me and my God. So the whole time I am focussing on making sure that I was giving out a great product and that everything looked great from the outside world. Now dont get me wrong.. for some reason God did bless my efforts and so many people have grown to know Christ through this ministry. But for me as a leader my heart has become so much more humble. I am no longer worried about showing off or proving to others that this ministry is successful. I have found that when you trophy girls from the sex industry you are setting them up for huge attack from there new christian family. Many girls cant live up to the standards others are requiring from them,or are greatly attacked when God is not transforming the quick enough for the approval of others. I have been concealing our outreach times and places over the past several months. I have many people who would like to sabotage or even piggy back on my outreaches and allow others to believe that I am in support of them. Many of these people come in the name of judgement and dump piles of religious material on the girls. This might be what God has called them to do but it is not my mission. So to all those who wonder if this ministry still is active the answer is YES! I have a big event planned and I have received so much amazing support from my new team of women from Central Christian church. They have truly come along side of me and helped bring stability and wisdom to this ministry. I have grown to love the women of Central and I believe God has so much in store for us as a team . I ask that you would keep JC's Girls in your prayers and that God would keep my heart on track as well as protect all who are now apart of the ministry. I am thankful for all of you on myspace. Many of you dont know that while living threw some of my most hurtful and bitter times your prayers are what kept me from quitting. So once again I truly thank you and love you all. Heather

I want to be truthful about something that has bothered me ever since I have become a missionary to the sex industry. I feel like my voice has been stolen from me. I find myself running to music in order to express my true feelings. Every time I open my mouth my every word is picked apart. There are days I just have wrong thinking. I could be hurt,worn out or just feeling defeated and my every word is thrown back at me for years to come. I have made so many mistakes and grown through this process but through it all I have lost my freedom to feel or express myself. I have to hide and choose each word I put out there. Maybe this is just part of the job God has called me to ... but I cant help but feel trapped and boxed in. There is so many happy times in my life but so often I wish I could be loved through my short comings and not only when I give out the appearance of perfection.

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LIFE!


I thank God so much for my life. I thank him for every minute that he allows me to be here.

I was thinking about my life and how wild the whole thing has been. I feel like I have experienced so many different ways to live. Often people feel sorry for me because of things that have happened in my life... but.. Really I don't want any to feel sorry for me.

I have been given a amazing opportunity to experience all sides of the fence.............. I have been poor. I have been rich. I have been fat. I have been skinny. I have been hated. I have been loved. I have been rejected. I have been accepted. I have been hurt. I have been healed. I have been raped. I have been made love to. I have been hungry. I have been full. I have been desperate. I have been secure. I have been afraid. I have been safe. I have been a sinner. I have been a saint.

I can truly say I know how it feels to be in all kinds of situations. And you know what.. I actually feel sorry for those who have not been giving the opportunity to really live. Many people don't know how sweet it is to be so far in the dark and be rescued and brought into the light. They cant look at others and feel true compassion for them. Or sadly many forget what it was like to be in the dark.

Also through all my ups and downs there is one more thing I am sure of.. I am going to make it. I know that with God I will always make it. He made me.. He knows my flaws ... He loves me anyways. I wont leave Him and He wont leave me.

remember when...

I think it is important to remember how we once though and felt before we became Christians. I have a song on my myspace from the sex pistols and it reminds me of how I once feft about the world. I remember being so angry about how thing had turned out for me and I sought out friends, music, and events that expressed the way I felt. I think often we are afraid to look back and see what we were really like. The sad thing about this to me is we forget and then we judge others for living there lives in the exact way we once lived ours. I think through my christian walk I have now been in many diffrent places. You know I once was one of those people who looked down on others and just couldnt get why they couldnt change like I did. But now I see just how foolish it is to think like that. I like how the bible tells us not to judge others because we might fall into that same exact sin. I can say that I have had to learn my lesson the hard way. I dont regret it though... I am glad that my eyes have been opened and I know that I am not the perfect person I once though I was. I now know how to love others without judging them for there lifestyle.. although I do hope that God can help them and free them from the sin that they are trapped in. I am glad that I can look back and remember the way I felt and thought when I was in a place like they are in. It helps me to understand and have compassion for them. Then I can honestly pray for them with a loving heart instead of praying for them out of judgement.