Life is good what can I say...the year hasnt been a dissapointed so far. My probation lasts until November but im on non-reporting now so it doesnt really effect me. I get my license back in about two weeks and I will be able to get a better job since I will have reliable transportation. Joanna gave birth on march 10th to my beautiful little niece Milly. She is so adorable and Im very happy for my brother and her. I’ll be turning 21 also in a couple weeks so that could be a very good thing or a very alcoholic inducing factor lol, j/k. IMO I spend just enough of my time properly with family and friends and sticking the rest of it to my priorities. Spring time is upon us and it can only get better.

On another note I’ve had a revelation of sorts some would say, but it has left me wondering and asking more questions, and driving me to WANT to further my education and do something proactive in my life. Millions of citizens living in the US think so highly of themselves and that they know it all when they fail to realize what is going on right under their nose. When you start to really think about what matters in the long run its children and the futures of every one of them. Before everyone realizes it the leading nations of the world will combine into one forming the first world government. This is the result of decades of planning on part of the League of Nations which evolved into the United Nations, and will soon become a one world government. Before you realize it the US, Canada, and Mexico will be combined to form a borderless community called the NorthAmerican Union, replacing the currency of these three countries with the Amero.

 Its real people, and its unfolding right under your nose. Take your eyes off of your bullshit reality shows and your CNN headlines news always informing you with stories of celebrity mishaps as if that is soooo important to waste minutes that could be used informing you of major issues such as this. Some people do understand what is going on and their response to it is either "What can we do...Im just one person" or " I dont care its not going to effect me". We have to try to do something before we can say that we can do nothing. It may not affect you in the first degree but your children, your grandchildren, your family in general that will surpass you in life.

The bottom line is that the concepts for what this country was founded on are slowly becoming null and void. Eventually the constitution will be worthless and unenforcable. If you dont believe what Im telling you than you need to put your mind to use and research the Bilderberg Group. Maybe even watch this video http://blip.tv/file/448917 . You need to realize that there are people out there that do not give a damn about you, and you need to WANT to do something about it.

Well i turned 20 a few weeks ago and i was excited because its one year closer to being able to finally go into a bar and drink a beer. That weekend was great, partied friday and saturday then spent sunday in atlanta for the chevelle concert. Hwat wasnt great was driving home that night and getting into a wreck. Not only did i fuck up my front bumper of my car and one of my wheels, but when the cops showed up I went to jail for dui. I knew that i was done for seeing as how I violated my probation. When i went in front of the judge 2 weeks later she sentenced me to 10 days incarcerated at the CCADC...a new drug/alc eval...a mandatory MADD meeting...Report to CCADC every sunday for the duration of my probation(until aug8th) for a breathlizer test, and I also have to see the judge every month so she can check the status of my progress of my probation. Its going to be a long summer. While i was in jail all I had was time to think about everything ive done and what i need to do to get myself back on track. Ive realized that if you tell someone that you love them and care about them that youve got to stick by them no matter what and be supportive...you cant just say "well it doesnt seem that youre trying to hard to help yourself so I cant try to work this out anymore". im sure of this. Also...what HAVE i accomplished since graduating almost 2 years ago? a whole lot of nothing besides parties,drugs,drinking, and work....not anymore. I think ive finally realized what it is I need to do in order to better myself. After doing my time ive come to the conclusion that i never want to go back there again and only I can do that by doing what im supposed to and start acting my age. i still have many years ahead of me, but i never saw it that way...ive always lived for the moment and put my priorities in the wrong order, and ended up only hurting the ones close to me that love and care about me. i dont want to do that anymore...i want to be able to lay in bed at night and know that im on track and doing something good for myself. no more bullshit...its time to grow up and do something with my life...im not a kid anymore

When the winter comes

and you are so cold

dont worry about your clothes

I'll keep you warm

lay you in my bed

hold you close

and tell you things

which you cant ignore

I'd gladly give

up almost anything

to hear your voice

and kiss your lips

to hold you in my arms

all through the day

until the sun

fades away

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so nothin new recently, but the fact that Circuit City blows and I must leave there asap...life is good other than that...i really wanna try to start a new band maybe collaberate with D. Cox on that one, and well trippin is fun. I fucking hate it when people dont answer their phones...it is soooooo lame, and you shouldnt not answer your phone. hopefully moving out soon in to a house with peeps. damn im bored as hell right now...peace

If only you could watch me fall
I cannot feel it anymore
The soul you cut, the soul you adored
Cannot feel you anymore
Cause you've run through me like a fucked up force
I think somehow I gotta get it straight
I gotta get you out of me
But I cannot get through you

See me I'm down and I get deeper with every breath
See me I'm over the edge, farther with every step
See me I'm down and I get deeper with every breath
Standing over the edge - I’m taking my last breath

How I feel like I’m starless
I’m ready to fade now
And how I feel like I’m starless
I’m hopeless and grayed out
Somehow I feel like I’m starless
I’m ready to fade now
And now I feel like I’m starless
I’m ready to burn out

I can transcend you and mentally bend you
But I can’t handle the shit that I’m into
I have been blinded, I'm always reminded
Of the things I’ve wanted but I never could find
I am a part of a world that I hate
I wish the end would come faster, my world's a disaster
Can’t you see that I’m down and I’m drowning
And I can’t keep my head above my wake

See me I'm down and I get deeper with every breath
See me I'm over the edge, farther with every step
See me I'm down and I get deeper with every breath
Standing over the edge - I’m taking my last breath

How I feel like I’m starless
I’m ready to fade now
And how I feel like I’m starless
I’m hopeless and grayed out
Somehow I feel like I’m starless
I’m ready to fade now
And now I feel like I’m starless
I’m ready to burn out

I gotta get you out of my veins
I gotta get you out of my blood
I gotta get you out of my scene
I gotta get you out of me

What I’m really trying hard to get down to words
Is the way I fit into this world
I think I’ve survived
Pushed me to the darker side
Because of life as it was
The life that was yours should've been mine
But I never could take anymore of this
Cause I’m always gonna get down to the floor
It’s a cold gun that I kiss
Cause I cannot break anymore

Somehow I feel like I’m starless
I’m ready to fade now
That’s how I feel when I’m starless
I’m hopeless and grayed out
Somehow I feel like I’m starless
I’m ready to burn out
Now I'm starless