I received an official looking email from myspace suggesting someone added me as a friend.  I would have been more critical, but the name used in the email happened to be familiar.  Clicked the link, signed-in, nothing.  Realized I had phished, changed my password immediately, but you never know.  If you’re here because of sh!t spammed from this account, its probably that, and not really me - apologies in advance.

Kelly.

 Hi.  I just wanted to offer my music to you at this time with my compliments in the hope it might brighten your day.  I don't write as much as I used too, and instead of letting hours of music fester unheard on my hardrive, it pleases me to know that it may create enjoyment for others, so be my guest - enjoy.  Hopefully I'll find my inspiration again and whip up a new batch!

Wow, apparently my airsoft kit is too hardcore for your eyes.  Yes, I got warned and my pics deleted of me in my army gear and bb gun.  uhh... haha . .  ha... thats just too bad.  I didn't realise the care bears ran this place.  I'll be sure to put more pink and frilly in my next batch of photogs just for you sweethearts out there.

*kiss kiss*

 My dear Baba is tired and wishes to rest.  I love her as much as any person in this world and I don't want her to go.  I regret that the children I do not yet have will be unable to experience her kind, nuturing soul.  I will pass her gift through me to them myself, as best as I can.

 Its so tempting to believe that she will be watching over me.  She told me she would.  My practical mind cannot reconcile physical spirits, but I really need to know shes ok somewhere else and that I can still count on her to be in my heart and mind when I'm lost.  I guess in knowing that she was a part of my life and her impression left upon it, I must trust in what she has instilled in me to come forward when called upon.  When she goes to sleep, she will become a part of me, and I will make myself a channel to her experience.

 She loved with all her heart, as I shall do my best to follow.  Thank you my dearest Baba, the tears I will cry for you when you move into infinity will be only the overflowing of the all the love you gave to me in my heart that I cannot contain. 

 I was just reading an interview with Lucky Diamond Rich (worlds most tattoed man) and realised I shared many intrinsic values with him.  At first as I read his views, I wondered how much of them would have come into sharper focus as his body had become more visibly different, or if going along with the idea to begin with was set in motion possessing the requisit frame of mind.

>Were you always prepared mentally for the stresses and strain’s of >social aesthetic non-conformity?

>I don’t really agree with the question only because the stresses and >strains are created by us as individuals, society is not responsible for the >emotions and feelings I choose.

Too right.  Frankly, someone could walk up to your face and spit in it.  The clear reaction is obvious... or is it?  Really, there is a way people would expect you to feel and react by having done this to you, but the choice is always yours.

 With regards to intelligence, or our perception of it.  Does not change fundamentally what it is to understand our place in the universe.  It is simply a higher resolution of a picture we still don't understand.

...point here?  Well, lets make up some morals of this little story just for fun!

...so, be nice to dummies since - although we may be able to convince them otherwise - no one really knows any better.

...so, stop pretending to be so smart, I already know you don't have the answer.

...so..  . THERE!

...hey, post some more if you think of them below.

 Actually, it was a little liberating to release the mantle of expectation on myself there.  I might try to do that forever.  Its weird how (and this may not come through in print) a little train of though can sometimes open a space in ones mind... little Eureka!(tm) moments that give elbow room to considerations besides the day to day thinking. 

 I think this is what is meant by enlightenment.  For me it goes like this:  You don't have answers unless you have questions.  You don't have questions unless you have concerns.  You don't have concerns unless you have needs.  As we cover our needs, we bring peace to our lives.  The trick is discovering what your needs are and either letting them go, or making sure you have a long term solution for meeting them.  To discover the needs you have, you must honestly analyse your actions to see what they were ultimately designed to accomplish, then conciously deal with the root need.  Eventually you will understand yourself thoroughly and have a strong grasp on wht it is to be you.  Take care of yourself!  wow.  Its usually after some extended thought process that I stumble on the backside of a cliche.  They are like little sign posts saying someone has already been here and thought this already.  Probably been considered hundreds of times... worthy to keep in mind though. 

 I might add that any solution that infringes on the ability of others to equally meet their own needs is a bad solution.  It is in this quest that the human race will need to take more personal responsibility for what is happening around them.  It is not until every human being is equally able to meet their own needs that this world will experience true peace, not some enforced version down the barrel of might.