Wow back in K-town. Nothing ever seems to change here. People grow older, learn more, have babies, but it all stays so home-ish somehow.
My how I am looking forward to this week of frolicking with my humble lady friends. But it is cold. My, my, is it cold. I did not come prepared for the Canadian Chillness. Love it, but coats really screw up my outfits. *sigh*
Never mind, let the fun begin (like it's ever ended...).
XOXO

The moment I have been waiting for the last ten  months is finally upon me. In one week I travel to vancouver for a fun couple of nights with socialite friends and, of course, the Sex and the City opening night complete with cocktails and cocktail dresses. And then on May the 31st, 2008 at 8:45 pm, I fly to the UK on a settlement visa as the spouse of MR. T P Crampton.

WHOOHOO!

It doesn't feel like it is only a week away, nor does it feel like I am permitted to live, work and play for the next two years. It feels as if Tom and I are just planning another holiday; another one or two week tryst. But this time it's for good...well, almost.

xoxo

    Tom and I have been married about 3 weeks, and already he’s gained about 15 lbs, and I’ve gained at least 10! Crap! Well it’s nice to feel accepted whatever shape I’m at....<3

WOW a week can go by amazingly fast!

Tom has come and gone and time ticks on until I see him again in March.

Holy crap.

TWO MORE SLEEPS TIL I SEE MY TOMMY! YAY!

Tom will be in Canada in NINE DAYS! Whoohooo! Orgasms here I come!  It's amazing what 3 months without sex will do to a girl once she is used to having a man in her bed every night....ooooh my and what a man he is! *siiiiigh* Can't wait.....

Wedding planning coming along....I feel like I'm behind but I can only do so much at one time without going crazy. And I don't wanna go crazy. Uh-uh. Nope.

xoxo

Blah. It's sicky season.  I'm nursing a chest cold. Starting to recover though.

Man, did winter come early this year, or is it just me? Jess tells me that it is just getting cold out in Montreal, but that last week it was still u p to 30C...what the..?..is going on? Well, I imagine that it's the rising temperatures and changing climates that is causing it all, but still; WTF! I am so not ready for the cold! Especially not when I walk to work for 7am every day! It's already dark at 630am! Yeesh...

Oh well. 1 1/2 months til Tom visits! YAY!
X

What's that Jack Johnson song called? There's a few lines in it that go:

"...they try to tell you love fades with time
but there's no such thing as time.
It's our time, it's our time."

I love that song. Somehow it makes me feel better about being so far away from my love. It's only time we have to deal with right now. We love each other, and are healthy and generally happy, and things will work out.

I am discovering every day that things will work out for me if I concentrate on them enough. Jobs, money, housing, love; everything! And since I don't believe in luck, it must be happening for a specific reason: I am meant to succeed. And even if it isn't a set path for me, I believe I am meant to succeed; if anything that is what will make it all happen for me, my manifestations, and the ability to walk through that door when it opens for me. I think I just realized that although it is not perfect, I love my Life.

How did this happen???? How did I get back to Canada? I know I flew; don't give me the easy answer. How I made myself get on that plane remains a mystery to me. I half wish that I hadn't.
Also why is it that when I need Tom near me, other shit happens? Family discordances, money issues etc....Or is it that it's just way worse without having him near me? I mean, i dealt with some stuff while I was IN England; and it sucked, and I felt sad...but I didn't feel despair.
These last couple of days I've felt despair.  Like nothing would get better and I should just run away like a pissed off ten year old with her backpack but without a toothbrush...for a couple of hours.  Well I've tried to run away before, but it doesn't help. Maybe for a short time it feels like it helps. But not for long.
BAH I'm just babbling now.
Mostly i just miss Tom. I know this will make us stronger and more able to deal with things; especially on our own. But WHO CARES about that? I just want him around. I miss his scent and his movements; the way he clacks his teeth and twitches before he falls asleep.  I miss his beautiful sleeping face, where he looks like a kid who's happy just sleeping. I could just stare at that face....hmm well. I guess I really am madly in love with this man.
Sweet, we're getting married!!!!!

ERM! As the day get closer and closer I become more and more sick at the thought of getting on that damned airplane and going home. I hate flying, and I hate being in airports alone. BOO.

Pleas don't let anything bad happen to me!