I'm impatient and bossy, but I'm never judgmental and I do not feel hatred.  I have a heart, but more often tend to use my brain. I've developed a very thick skin. People can criticize me all they want but it just doesn't get to me like it used to.



I'm not as serious as this about me makes me sound, in fact I could probably make you laugh if I tried. I love laughter, I do it frequently and with ease. My humor tends to be a little mean spirited and if that doesn't fly well with you, then we probably won't get along very well. I'm not outrageously mean, and I give everyone a chance, but it doesn't mean I won't speak my mind and rip you a new one if given the chance. It's in my blood, sorry.




I'm a straight-shooter, I speak the truth at every opportunity. When asked to be honest, I deliver. I can be crass and crude and often times speak with a sharp tongue. This is just who I am.




I never apologize. I hate saying sorry. I may apologize for hurting your feelings (although I'm never really sorry) but I'll never apologize for what I say. I rarely say things I don't mean. I also don't like it when people apologize to me. I move on VERY quickly, and I expect everyone to do the same




I am confident in many ways, but I'm not stuck up. I do not think that I am better than anybody, I'm just sure of my abilities as well as I'm certain of my flaws and imperfections (there are many).




I'm very easy to get a long with. I am however, very, very irritable. My mood is dependent on your mood. If you come to me in a bad mood or act really stupid, I'll be frustrated and little rude. But if you're happy and upbeat and aren't acting a fool, then I'll reciprocate. I just simply have little tolerance for things that don't go my way. I don't take no for an answer. I make things happen. I shut it down, I do things for myself. I don't whine, I get things done.



I hope to go to Perth, Australia one day. One of the most amazing people in the world lives down there. Sadie Black is one of my best friends. She moved there this summer and school is not the same. Needless to say her absence may be part of the reason why I've not been my usual jovial self this year. Luckily I'll see her again this summer!


I know this all sounds so serious, but I feel that in order to know me, you've got to know the serious side. And now that that is all out of the way, you can get to know the fun side of me.



*UPDATE: I will be going to WSU in the fall of 2009. I got accepted!*

Thanks but no thanks Bellingham.

After foolishly attempting to convince myself that I actually enjoyed my time at Bellingham, I came to my senses. Western, while a gorgeous campus and a good school, is so not for me.

The people were friendly, quiet, reserved. I'm looking for loud, outgoing and full of life. Now, I only saw a few people when I'm there, and it's not wise to make assumptions about 13,000 people after meeting just a few of them, but I'm sure I got the gist.

I went on a true campus tour of WSU, and that's all it took. I fell in love of my idea of Western. I fell in love with the WWU that I had created in my mind and I found out that the real Western wasn't at all what I had dreamed of.

WSU was full of life, full of energy and excitment. The people were beautiful and friendly. The school is huge, absolutely massive and the little town of pullman has that energy that a big city has. I love it there. Plus it has Hospitality Business Management, something I've wanted to major in for a long time but gave up on since Western doesn't have it. I get what I want now.

When I visited WSU (which I'd been to many times to see my sister, but this was my first actual campus tour), it had everything I'd dreamed of. It was my dream school and more.

Morale of the story, visit your "dream" school before you make a decision. Also visit other schools you aren't sure of, you never know they might just turn out to be perfect for you!

Now that I've been accepted to WSU, I'm prepared to have the BEST and most EXCITING AND FUN four years of my life!

After that, I'm moving to vegas.

As far as my future career goes I'm still very much torn between following my desires to be a realtor and maybe get into house flipping, down in LA of course.  ORRR just majoring in computer science which could get me a good nice paying job as computers seem to be where all the money is (or so says my father)

But you know I've really be thinking about where I want to live when i'm older and I can tell you it's not Seattle.  I'm really thinking about Las Vegas.  It's big and full of excitment and yet it's very affordable to live there!  Well, affordable compared to most other big cities. But LA just has so much more especially if I want to be a real estate agent earning comission....(even just like 3 or 4 percent commission on a multi million dollar home, HELLO!)

What to do what to do.

As much as I love the state of washington I won't be living here for long.  After college, well a few years after college I'll be gone. Most likely in LA or Las Vegas....we'll see.


PS. again to those who doubted me, I still want to go to WESTERN WASHINGTON UNIVERSITY! I'm more excited than ever! I'm going to B-ham real soon (I hope people call it that because I will no matter what...even if only losers call it that, I'll make it cool again)...anywho i'll be up there soon I really hope I love it.

I think I forgive too easily.  If not forgive, I forget too easily also.  Recently some drama went down and I just don't really know how to react.  I can't speak too anonymously without giving everything away.  All I can say is, after a long time of leaving my problems behind and learning to forgive/forget, something new has come along and really hurt my progress.  I want to say that I won't be a part of the drama, not letting my progress be ruined, but by doing that I'd be hurting someone close to me.

It's all just so ridiculous.

Graduation isn't coming fast enough!  In about one year and two months i'll be outta here.

That is such a long time.  I am so over high school and i'm only a junior.  This year has gone by really fast so hopefully next year will go even faster.

 

All I want is to be sitting in my dorm at western enjoying my life. 

 

For all of you who thought surely my plans would have changed again....well they haven’t...still as excited as ever at the prospect of going to western washington university!

Oh, and i’m learing to drive a stick shift right now...and well it’s difficult, but i’m getting the hang of it.  It’s kind of fun once you get it.

I change all the time, but for the first time, I feel incredibly happy, and excited about the recent decision I've made.

You may think (If i've talked to you about this recently) that I'm referring to a decision to go to Central.  Well, actually, no.  As I always do, i've changed my mind.  I want to go to Western.

Central was never a choice I made because I had a passion to go there, it just seemed like a really great school that I knew my parents would be happy with.  I still think it seems like a fantastic school, but the only problem I have with it, is that it's not Western.

My parents don't want me to go to western, this i've know for quite some time, and because of that I never bothered to do much research on it, I figured it'd be a lost cause.  But recently, (really just about a week ago), I decided to check out Western's website.  I fell in love instantly.  As if the gorgeous picture of the campus on the home page wasn't enough, everything from the housing situation to the shockingly affordable tuition, made me realize that this school is the one for me.

Within just a few days, Western went from a college I had no plans to go to, to a consideration on my list of possibilities but below central, to my absolute number one choice.

Every day since I checked out that website, my desire to go there grows stronger.  Just thinking about going there, makes me so happy, and almost makes my heart start beating faster in excitement. 

Through my research I discovered that the total costs for attendance at western for one year was only one dollar more than that of Central.  This includes, housing, tuition, books, transporation expenses and about 1300 extra for miscellanous and other costs...the whole thing, only one dollar more than Central.

Western is a liberal college, and my parents are both very conservative.  I see myself as being a moderate who tends to lean towards liberal, so therefore, I really don't see western as being a problem.  However, it is my parents money, and they may not be willing to pay for a liberal school (not to be confused with liberal arts school, which it is, but so is central, and just about all the other public universities in washington). 



That was the photo that won me over.  The moment I saw that picture, I knew.  I knew this college was the one for me.  Every time I visit the website I discover something new that only strengthens my desires to go there.

Bellingham is about 5 and a half hours away from the tri-cities.  That's a long drive.  I've been on longer though, but still, it's a long one.  I know that's far away too, but it's still in Washington.  It's also close to family.  Many of my family members have moved to the west side of the state and with my sister graduating from WSU this may, chances are she'll be moving on over to the west side as well.  This means, whenever my parents are to come visit me, they can see my sister and other relatives at the same time.  I may be far from my parents when I'm there, but I'll never feel far from family. 

Also, I should have my car (the honda) when I go up there, meaning I can come home when I want, and only I will have to deal with the long drive. 

It's like rediscovering a long lost passion, because this isn't the first time I've said I wanted to go there.  Back in 8th grade I believe it was, my sister's friend Sarah (who also happens to be the older sister of one of my good friends), went to Western.  I had heard of it before, but really knew absolutely nothing about it, I don't think I even knew where it was other than just somewhere north of or around Seattle.  When I heard that's where Sarah was going, I went to the school's website and then and there, I thought, "wow, that school looks awesome".  Of course I told my parents that I wanted to go to Western, but of course they immediately laughed and said "no" because it was a "hippy school".

I never so much as considered the school after that moment.  IF my parents wouldn't let me go there, there was no use in pursuing the school any further.

Now I don't want to make my parents sound like monsters, I mean it's quite understandable, would you want to be spending a ton of money on a school that represents many things you disagree with?  Maybe not, but on the other hand if it's the school of your son's dreams, maybe you should be willing to give them some of your money, especially if they're making your child very happy.

My mother has a myspace, and hopefully will be reading this...and afterwords wanting to discuss this (hint hint mother).  I have been afraid to mention this to my parents because I've been soooo worried of their reactions!  I know it's not their favorite school, but it truley is a school of my dreams, and I think they should happy that I'm so passionate about one school..

Western Washington University is my dream school.  My parents may fight it, but I know that I will go there.  I have never felt so much excitement over something so far away.  Something that won't be happening for well over a year from now.  Mom, if you're reading this (which you better be!), know that I don't want to go to Western in spite of Dad's and your wishes.  I don't want to go because it's not what you want, I just want to go because it's everything I've ever wanted in a college, and then some.

Now, I don't hate this girl, but I just have to say she's a loser.

She's a loser because she thinks she's something special.  She may have been the first to start wearing tiger stripes in her hair, but I don't find that impressive, saying as, that's one of the most god awful trends since teased hair with thin weaves (which is so hilariously hideous...girls think they look hot in it, but they are so far from it).

Kiki, I'm sure you have talent in something, and if you start singing or acting, and you're good, then I'll no longer think of you as a loser.  But the fact of the matter is, you really aren't anything special!  You are nothing I haven't seen before, although the "tiger" stripes...which look more like raccoon stripes, are new to me, I wish I never would have seen those completely tasteless things.

Kiki, please realize you are a untalented liar, who won't go anywhere in life, because once you're older, you'll be old news...and you've got so many people hating you and you aren't even old enough to drive yet...so chances are, by the time you're an adult, you will have done something to get even more people to dislike you. And no one will be interested anymore, because to be honest, I think i'm the only one of my friends who know's of you.  Kiki who they say?  And I'm not a loner...I know many people.

Your hair is ugly, your attitude is ugly, you're completely tasteless and have no style.  You truely are a fake as they get, I have no respect for you at all, and while you might like all the attention, I wouldn't be so proud of the fact that more than half the people who actually know who are you, can't stand the sound of your name.

It also makes me laugh at the fact that she cannot even stand up for herself...she obviously isn't a good liar, because whenever you say anything that questions her truthfulness, she blocks you.  Shows that she can't even stand up for herself.

If she started doign something truely remarkable, or impressive, I wouldn't dislike her so much, I'd actually have some respect for her.  But the point is, she's just like every other emo/scene myspace loser out there, and that doesn't make her a unique person so much as just another emo/scene conformist.

AKA Marc Jacobs to Sadie and me.

Sometime during this summer, I was hanging out with Melissa and we went to this park in Hills West and saw Courtney and Sadie...anywho we hung out with them, and I was telling Sadie about this new leave in conditioner spray that I got from nouveau.  I wasn't as good as my old leave in condish but Nouveau stopped selling that brand, Kenra.  My new brand is Paul Mitchell...pretty well known...but not really the best hair products I've ever used...much better than most, but still.

Nouveau's salon is a paul mitchell exclusive salon now, so i'm stuck with it, but that's fine with me I suppose.

Now back to the story, when I was telling Sadie about mah new hair curr product, I accidentally referred to it as a Marc Jacobs product....Marc Jacobs is a fashion designer, not a hairstylist.  So from now on Sadie and I refer to anything Paul Mitchell as Marc Jacobs.

Because of nouveau's switch to Paul Mitchell products, my entire arsenal of produck is all Paul Mitchell....my flat iron (which is incred, $190 at nouveau, check it out), my shamp and condish, my leave in condish, some weekly repairing treatment, hairspray, anti-frizz serum...etc.  It's kind of awesome having all these products, hopefully my hair will soon stop looking like crap!  I still have a lot of John Freida and Sebastien Laminates that I use...but it's pretty much all Paul Mitchell/Marc Jacobs...

The Paul Mitchell Flat Iron...let me just say is the best produck ever.  It gives me the smoothest straightest hair in the world, and I got it for 90 bucks less than retail because of all my sweet connections to Nouveau...

It's gotten to the point now, where even if I have new messeges (which means new comments since everything has to be aproved by me first), I don't get excited.  I looooove people sending me things, but I hate having to respond. I got all crazy upset with people who didn't respond to me, but now i'm doing the same thing.  There...I admit i'm being quite hypocritical, but i guess I just understand why people don't respond....we don't want to.

I hate being responsible for having to respond...omg sorry...off on a tangent, but response and responsible...do you see the connection?  Is there a connection?  Wow I love words.

Anywho...I'm tired of myspace...but don't worry I won't be deleting my profile..  It's too good for just getting in contact with people I need to speak with, and not to mention I have many a family member on my friends list.  Many of those members I don't get to see that often so it's nice.

Ughhhhh.

Friends....if you comment me, and I don't respond, it doesn't mean anything, I just am too lazy to respond. If we don't know each other very well, and you comment me, I will respond, but if we're friends...oh forget it, i'll just respond in person!