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Current mood:  accomplished
Track listing:
Pop Metal Songs
On Death and Dying: 1. Humble Beginnings 2. The Weight of the Word 3. The Fear That Remains
4. The Lie
Love Songs--
5. God Hates me 6. Love is 7. Where Dust Belongs
Religion and Philosophy--
8. Heresies and Blasphemies, or How to Pray in American English
The Ending: 9. A Statement of Being 10. Dancing in Rubble 11. Some Kind of Destiny 12. How do you want to Live?
This is an EP! The division of the songs shown above is intended to illustrate and justify the status of EP that we have assigned this record. Though almost fifty minutes, the dissimilarity of theme between the songs compels me to think of the record as 3 singles, instead of an LP.
The Three Singles
The first of which would be the pop section that fronts the disc. The Weight of the Word sat in a file of unfinished songs, labeled as Dont You Forget About Me, because of its similarity to the Simple Minds track from 1985. The SoB track resolves into the beginning of The Fear that Remains, which Justin and I wrote by accident while trying to flesh out Dont You. I was feeling existential that day, and listening to H.P. Lovecraft on my mp3 player. I think that should explain where I was going lyrically.
The Lie was actually the first song I wrote when I got my 7-string guitar. I called it the Korn song for obvious reasons. I think that this track really elucidates the EP status of the record. I like the song, J likes the song, but its not necessarily representative of what we typically do as Something Beautiful. From a musical standpoint, I think that its a very pop-oriented tune, but lyrically I think that I was able to compensate. The second single that I see on States of Being that I see is the Love Songs section in the middle of the disc. God Hates Me was written about the same time as most of Songs About Angels. There is a pronounced similarity between this song and Staring Down a Broken Dream from SAA, so initially, I was just going to dismiss the song and leave it unreleased, but Justin liked it, and we knew we were going to do a quick EP, so we threw it in.
Love Is / Where Dust Belongs are of course a bit more artsy than the other songs on the disc. Those who have seen SoB live probably know that we typically dont play our instruments for the first few minutes of our shows because we usually open with another one of my art songs, Walking Slow Into the Night (from Songs About Angels). I like these pieces especially; they set the atmosphere that I prefer the SoB music to be approached from.
The last five tracks, I think, have the most in common, as far as mood and message go, and are (while still echoing some of the ideas youll hear on Songs About Angels) individual enough to constitute their own record.
Heresies and Blasphemies was in the unfinished bin with The Weight of the Word under the name TOOL (duh) and remained there until Justin sat down with me and helped work out the rest of the music on the same night we wrote The Fear that Remains. The vocal arrangement (and supplemental lyrics) were written the night we recorded the final version of the track. Im pretty sure that it was the last thing we did before mastering.
The Ending was initially going to be the roughly five-minute song A Statement of Being. While I took the writing and arrangement of these four songs very seriously (trying to keep a logical lyrical progression was not too easy, and Im not sure I totally succeeded), but the game was to see how long I could keep it going without having an actual ending. The ending of How do You want to Live was Js Idea, its a Dream Theater moment, not to be confused with any of our Queensryche moments. That pretty much wraps up the record, there. Feels almost like a tribute record for bands we love, sometimes, but I think theres a definitely unique vibe that we bring to the table with us. I think we did a pretty damn good job with this one, which contrary to popular belief, is not something I am given easily to say about the records I had a hand in. Finally on a technical note, States of Being should be listened to at a medium-high volume with headphones on. Thats what the record sounds like to me. Hope you enjoy!
Why 002? This record is to be understood as echoes of our upcoming Songs About Angels, and not the other way around. With the exceptions of tracks 1, 5&6, the entirety of States of Being was written after most of Songs About Angels. Because of the care that we want to take in the production of a real full-length record (Songs About Angels is comprised of many of the songs that willed this project into existence), it became an issue of convenience that we release the States of Being EP first. So the catalogue should be understood as:
000 Four Song Demo (from Songs About Angels) 001 Songs About Angels (forthcoming) 002 States of Being
On Death and Dying
I. The Weight of the Word I can feel the walls caving in, closer in as I bleed, razorblade in my hand What do you want from me? Alone with my broken skin, the splitting pain from within, finally taking this life away from me The weight of the word is crushing me, How long must I wait for you to save me? Come and save me... Life and death remain far beyond everything we'll ever know, what can there be to regret? Take it away from me! Tell me what to believe, or bend my mind and deceive away the fire that lights the way for me The weight of the word is crushing me How long must I wait for you to save me?
II. The Fear that Remains
So where do we go now that we haven't been? And where did we come from - where did we begin? Tell me... If life be unending, then how does it seem That as I lay bleeding, that life was a dream? Tell me why. As I wake into that horror that waits for me As life begins to fade Before my time let the darkness come To know if it's true that we die just once For if I awake to another dream I'll know what to believe And what then for this one's morbid fantasies Terrifying landscapes are haunting his dreams Does he the shadows from another nightmare in the Blood that's calling out for freedom from its prison Let them bleed, the bodies dry, Burn them with gasoline And then burn the ashes we leave Before him the silence and darkness comes His victims lay bleeding from fatal blows And blessings forever to let them see To know what murder means Alone with my hatred Alone with my dreams In spite of the statement of fear that remains Wipe me clean, bathing my body with kerosene Soon making ashes of me The flesh growing colder I close my eyes And wade through the visions that flood my mind My life set before like a passing dream The facts were fantasy Eternity calls me into its womb And calls me up out of my earthly tomb Does heaven await or another dream I die or so it seems
The Lie
Guilty or innocent in a sense, maybe I think theres more to see I cant forget or just leave it (leave it!) all behind me, cause I cant breathe They say the lie and wash it over with tragedy Betray the lie, love dont forget, This is our destiny, despite the lie. We cannot live this way, in slavery, no matter the man of cloth may say If life is meaningless your emptiness is not enough Dont fucking treat me like an animal! Then say the lie, and close the door. Lets all just walk away Just say the right words dont forget, Were all pretending nothings wrong tonight. And play it off like theres nothing to say, listen to me wait, Dont let it all die Pretentious in a sense, isnt it that anyone judges you or me? In every saint theres a sinner buried deep, crying out, In every Christian theres a cannibal That prays and lies, and nothing more, lets all just walk away. Dont pray tonight, love, no regrets And stop pretending nothings wrong
God Hates Me
Come closer still my darling, wont you sit and talk with me? Ive been waiting for you. This evening I have been waiting for eternities, Waiting ever since the first time that I saw your innocent face. God must hate me! Time against me! Ah! Come closer still, my dear. Ive got something for you, this The end of me and of you as well! Would you not wish not but for our little deaths? Wont you taste this with me? Take my old hand. Do you not dream of this? Do you not think of this? Open up your mouth and whisper my name to me Bleed your body for me.
Love is, where dust belongs
I. Love is
She walks on rose pavement streets, and gives her smile to me And it eats away at my soul And I walk my asphalt walk, kindly return the smile And continue down the road I follow her home this night, but never does she see The shadows that are me And so Ive done for months, grown what I could call love And I almost know her completely She cries to sleep nightly, the echoes call to me As she sits in her darkened room with nothing to believe She tells me her secrets but never comes totally clean But she doesnt lie to me And weve spoken once or twice, and I see it in her eyes A place to run when Im in pain And I wake in the middle of night as tears flow from my eyes Screaming her beautiful name But if we were to die right now, Could I tell you why I feel and how? And would you feel the same? Or put this boy to shame? Would you tell me you loved me, Or that you never could Or that you never would?
II. Where dust belongs
I found you alone and lost Wretched thing, forgotten dream How could you pretend to be of any worth to me? I left you where dust belongs What became of us, my God? Once we had a chance at peace. What is left to us, discarded by those who divide this place? Our Father who art in Heaven Forgive us as weve forgiven
Heresies and Blasphemies
witness ever changing tides that span the glorious depths of time and whisper softly to yourself that you'll someday know what it felt like hanging on a tree or burning like a wicker effigy or covered in the blackest pitch that dries and hardens on your skin softly though you go through life refusing to see any likeness though when held up side by side you look just like the antichrist and though you hunger for relief from putrid animosity you stand and stumble in despair while odors rise up through the air reminding you of your decay and how you gave your life away to sadness with a smiling face your madness made you fall from grace while terror, torment and bereavement paints the social soul with fear and dyes the tongue with words and thoughts that satan spoke but we've forgotten wickedness invades your soul and rapes you of your self control injustice takes a weary mind and leaves its owner deaf and blinded to the world around it burning like a witch in Salem, turning prophets into pounds of ash ideas quelled and without passion without reason uninspired comitting treason winding wires together that would form the thread that keeps the poor ones from their bread and protect us from evil lies around each corner evil eyes to watch you live and watch you die like cattle to the butcher's knife like sheep led to the abattoir like patriots to lines of fire we give humanity away to those who would lead us astray, now do you call it blasphemy to call out your idolatry and will you charge us heresy for taking out our eyes to see that when you strip it to the bone and dry it out so it alone portrays itself as what it is betrays the wolf in human skin we creep away from shadows cast that threaten from the recent past without perhaps within as well we find and shut the door to hell but who am i to trust till then? should each one decide and defend himself to inquisition put his mind on trial for treason? what if time is out a second fall a new curse given to us all and hands that once would wipe away the tears now bring them here to stay and if the cross is what you see a christian then i cannot be when pulpits spew their bigotry they hang the god back on the tree when man can stand up and debate with out the excommunicator calling down hellfire and brimstone then will we perform atonement for the sins we bury deep beneath the dust of history in spite of fear in spite of pride renew that which was once inside call it madness call it grief but never call it heresy and call it anger sowing seed but never call it blasphemy Supplemental lyrics for Heresies and Blasphemies Holiness and emptiness waken as the end begins. As we sin, We fall away, without redemption falling Far away from what we should have kept inside this place Will we end as we begin? Waken that which sleeps within! Mother, Father, Sister, Brother, All is lost, but not forgotten!
I. A Statement of Being
I have dreams about you every time I go to sleep do you dream about me? Id never lie to you, my eyes would always give away tell me could you say the same? cause Ive been watching you, theres something there you cant deny this kind of love wasnt made to survive but its raining go look, and its raining on us. Sleep. angels fall and return they call out your name as the dawn comes I remain will you wait or me will you wait for me my frightened mind cannot find a way home to you tonight would you know my name would you feel the same holy girl, remember me with love watch me guide me, god I hope you can see me from heaven cast your gaze upon me may I go with you? As the hour approaches fast or are you leaving me at last? When I was here with you? And did I ever make you cry? Could I convince you to stay tonight? Holy girl dont lie to me tonight Know me want me, say my name and youll take me to heaven If you dont forget me Your smile is different you hide behind another mask but youre holding my hand Your eyes were once opaque but now they show me something new something I wasnt meant to see Holy girl dont hide your eyes from me Ive been watching, I know all your faces hold me now and wash it all away this is not the ending
II. Dancing in Rubble
I had no reason not to walk away in anger, but one look at you brings me back to bay I never asked for any more than just be faithful, when given any chance I would betray As any foot was made to stumble every flesh is made to rot As any rule and heart for brokenness and every face forgot We break each other down and crawl back begging baby please forgive We crush the cradle burn the home down to a cinder dancing in rubble But is there time left to seek out that which we came for? And if there is what if we seek in vain? And would you walk with me in quiet contemplation, of why we need to hurt each other while we also need each other, And why they taught us hate? When all we need is love? And why they taught us fear? and that his name was god? If righteousness be real, And holiness divine Take a look around And tell me what you find tonight This is not what God intended us to be We take pride in ignorance hatred and bigotry Judge me not lest you then be judged by me Chain them down before they realize theyre free We live in constant pain reminding us that weve betrayed He that troubles his own house will inherit the wind, or so they say(proverbs 11:29) Watchful and worried we anguish in anticipation Fearful that what weve done will never be forgiven What is left that we have not defiled that we can still call sacred? What is left that prevents us from being nothing more than animals? Is this what the gods intended us to be: Bind deaf and ignorant to any integrity? What then now, will become of you and me? And tell me now, when will we truly be free?
III. Some kind of Destiny
They set the mind into motion With their lies demanding our devotion Theres nothing left to see They say and we believe Our silent servitude Demands to be betrayed And when they go too far Were made to never know Were made to look the other way, the curtain calls, enjoy the show... Inherit, we inherit Do we sin by lying to the world? Theres always someone saying that it's gonna be alright Theres something left, you see Some kind of destiny Where we no longer live and die the way the powerful decide We cannot live this way As predator and prey I refuse to live this way We inherit the wind They taught us truth They taught us trust They taught us their right way to live They gave us proof They taught us hate They taught us everything we know We inherit the wind
IV. How do you want to Live?
Vainly we blame each other While they hide between the lines Deceive with fabrication, exempt from accusation What they? And who gave them the Right? And just where do we fit in? Lack of understanding, eternally expanding to shape your mind, keep you blind What do you want to know? Who do you want to be? What do you want to say? How do you want to live? What becomes of our lives when we conspire to rewrite the past What truth can we believe in when will we be free at last Take the blinders off and youll see the world for what it is Chained, enslaved To itself Face me and though the world may die at east we may find our selves Beneath the lies we told our children, each other, will we be clean? Man is not a means but and end unto himself I see We still use Each other as tools Find me reason to believe in any thing that you would teach. Prove that youll not use a lie and make me deny myself tonight As always man, afraid of any thing that shines a foreign light, Before beheld, he passes judgment - not on the stranger but on himself And us tonight, are we different? Look in our eyes and believe, That though our lives take us, place us, divide us and shape us, Theres something else we should be.
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