Friday, May 2nd, 2008 -- You may have reached the end of the line and what worked well for you in the past may have outlived its useful life. Don't try to hold on to memories that only bring you pain. Let the thoughts bubble into consciousness and then leave them in the past where they belong. Try conjuring up some of that famous Piscean compassion so you can judge yourself less harshly. Being kind to others starts with you first.

I feel sick and  I look sick.  I hate to know if there can be something really wrong physically, I know I have immune disorders, hell I may just have diabetes. I stress then get sick. I worry I get sick. I drink I get sick  I'm sick  ... lol

this week is hard, Manny in Rehab and I still here tossin and turnin. Trying to keep my job. Relentless memories hold me my every move and the shame I have shown. I had thoughts and revered memories of someone who affected my life and hell, still does, but we don't talk much anymore.  How I loved him so and I still do. I am not getting younger and death has been quite close coming at me several times now. To understand a heartache and a broken heart remains to oneself to understand. The emmensity of the pain can make life hard -to live. Everyday. 

The brain fights with the heart.  What is a girl to do.  For love.

Love is suicide.

afterall, I believe i conquered the pains of past love and entering a new place where love resides and future is waiting to unwrap itself and harness the inevitable.

So will go with the flow why fight it!?

Rather than dwell on what has been lost, emphasize the potential of what remains

OVERALL AFTER ONE YEAR OF TORMENT I STILL HAVE HEART MY MIND MY BODY IS IN TACT AND SPIRIT I CAN SAVE AND FIX

GOD IS WITH ME...FOR HE IS WATCHING GOOD VS BAD AND THE GOOD ALWAYS WINS

I have doubts of my destiny. As we strive to be perfect and the only way is do the opposite and learn from mistakes. That jumping into a relationship that was just coming out of one (hard) is what i need right now becasue you tend to set goalx and plans with this special person in your heart but is it in your life>destination. My heart has been mangles but saved and not sure how i will end up this time.
Goldfrapp - Happiness
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Spring Equinox is celebrated as a time of rebirth and new beginnings, but what does it mean for you?   Easter Sunday as much as my friend wanted me to spend time with her, ashamed on telling her  "it’s plan", and not be there. 

Quality time with my future partner is the utmost importance. As we both agreed on that special Easter Weekend.

REJOICE!

yeah i’m a dork!

so what!

HONESTLY

http://www.youtube.com/swf/l.swf?video_id=JyEIBdteBVQ&eurl=&iurl=http%3A//img.youtube.com/vi/JyEIBdteBVQ/default.jpg&t=OEgsToPDskIPOrnXSAxtG7zHk4PiMNAp&&rel=1&border=0

A film that screams "product of its time," The Holy Mountain was Alejandro
Jodorowsky's dizzying elegy to the sex, drugs and spiritual awakening of the
late 1960s and early 1970s -- a suitably bizarre follow-up to his El Topo
(1971). Fascinating although it only fitfully makes sense, The Holy Mountain
is beautifully shot and designed, and it suggests what might have resulted
if Luis Buñuel, Michelangelo Antonioni, and George Romero had all dropped
acid and made a movie together. A Christ-like vagrant and thief wanders
through a perverse and unfriendly land until he encounters an enlightened
one, who gathers the thief and six of the world's most powerful individuals
for a spiritual pilgrimage. If that description sounds a bit sketchy, well,
narrative isn't this film's strongest suit. But if you want to see the
conquest of Mexico re-enacted by reptiles, soldiers shoot innocent people as
birds fly from their wounds, and a wizard turn feces into gold, this is the
movie for you.

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From the Shock 'Til You Drop website:

R.I.P.: Vampira (Maila Nurmi)
Source: Various
January 11, 2008


Various sources are reporting Maila Nurmi has died of natural causes at the age of 86.

Nurmi is better known as the raven-haired horror host of the 1950s who inspired countless successors including Elvira, Mistress of the Dark. Her svelte figure and gothic looks were unparalleled; in fact, director Ed Wood didn't change a thing about her appearance when he used her for his notorious sci-fi/horror bomb Plan 9 from Outer Space.

Nurmi passed away in her sleep several days ago. According to Metroblogging, her friends are seeking to find her a place in the Hollywood Forever Cemetery.

From Wikipedia

Maila Nurmi (born Maila Elizabeth Syrj&&&035;035;228;niemi, December 21, 1921, in Petsamo, Finlandnow Pechenga, Russia, died January 10, 2008)[1] created the well-remembered 1950s character of Vampira. Her portrayal of this character as a television horror host and in films was influential over decades that followed

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Jan 12, 2008 12:28 AM

xx LOVE IN ALL DEGREES %   so why do i feel so disappointed with my partner