"incidetnally did u know that 2003 at nationals you beat michael wolf, who now rides for navigators. and steven cozza, craig lewis, zach bolian, umm i forget who else but i counted at least 3 more..all those current pros were within 10 seconds of u ....man just think"

my brother wrote this to me...and its is pretty much depressing

michale wolf, rides for navigators (one of top 50 teams in the world)
steven cozza, craig lewis, zach bolian-all ride from team slipstream (also one of the top 50 teams in the world)

as well as a few others who i beat/lost to by 10 seconds at the junior national championships in 2003

now they are all pro...and i work at steak n shake...its about the most depressing thing that i can think of

Well, where to start. I re-applied for Exercise Science, and didn't get back into the major. So, it looks like this may be my last semester of school for awhile.....I am jumping, and going for my dreams. It looks like I will be getting a job, and riding my bike and pushing my body working toward geting the professional contract I dream of having.

Now, before you all scream of how stupid this is...yes I know this is a HUGE risk. Let me say how I see it. I could just pick another major and study something else to get out of college as fast as possible. This would the leave me with a degree and I could then pursue the dream of becoming a cyclist once I was 23 or 24.

However, the greatest window of opportunity for a cyclist to make it is from 20-24 and by 26 the window is pretty much closed. So, if I know I am going to try to follow this dream later, why not just go for it now. If I still haven't made it by the time I am 27 I can go back to school and get that degree.

I will never be able to live with myself if I don't pursue my dream. And this is the best time to do it.

Thanks for reading! I would love to here any criticisms, support, questions, and just your ideas on this adventure I am thinking about going on.

Thanks again!

The people I love the most, are not people I want to date...or my family. It is the people who have been there for me at anytime, who are still there even though they don't need to be. Know the things in my life that I have done and am not proud of and are still there for me. Whether they are here for me in person, or just still hold that respect for me when others do not..they are there for me in there own way. I just want to say thank you! Thanks for really caring about me, not because you need to care about me b/c it matters to someone else, but b/c I really matter to you. Just Thank You!!! It really means a lot!

Yours,

Sam

I'm ready. Ready to fight my case, prove to doubters & the liers. Out to become the champ that I am meant to be. I can't sit and lose my friends b/c of people who want to pull me down, spread lies about me. You want me to fail? Congrats, you have pushed me one step to far...It's time step up, and while I move on and lay down the law you can fall down into anynimity. To those who are and in their heart want to stand by me, thank you so much! You will get your reward, and watch me puch the boundries of what the human body can do. It has come to this, and I am going to lose myself in the suffering and glory as I push my body to the limit. It's time to Lose Yourself!