I sometimes doubt myself.
I procrastinate.
I smile when I'm afraid of the outcome.
I smile when I'm happy.
It's hard to tell when I'm afraid or happy.
When I see a person who is not whole or in pain I instantly become sad on the inside.
I sometimes speed.
I feel the need to be accepted always.
I shadow my inconsistencies with arrogance.
I am confident in the the things I am good at.
It's hard to tell when I'm being confident or arrogant.
I fear I will die young.
I have sacrificed all that I know to chase my dream.
I sometimes get weary of chasing.
I'd be lying if I said that I treated every girl I've ever been with the way she deserved.
I love my friends and family with a love that is unconditional.
If I tell you that I love you I mean it always, even when it doesn't benefit me.
I don't hate anyone.
I can't turn my back on a person in need.
No one has to gain my trust, you have it until you lose it.
I've been taken advantage of.
I have taken advantage of another.
I strive to be a good person when no one's watching.
I think children are the best reminder of how good life can be.
I worry to much.
I would rather have fun than money.
Money and fun would be a nice treat though!
I miss those that I have lost.
I have the ability to annoy people.
I don't eat as much as I should.
I think youtube is awesome.
The one I love the most doesn't question whether it's them I'm referring to or not.
I have bent the truth before.
Is any of this true?
It is.
Why tell anyone anything that could be perceived as a flaw?
I believe that having the confidence to trust the real you to others is the greatest honesty.
Is this confidence or arrogance?
More of a venting.
Anyone can say how good they are, who will say how good they aren't?



If your not afraid of the outcome, repost your own honest portrayal of yourself.

Maurice-

Many things can break a persons heart but cancer breaks the spirit. With no spirit what good is a perfect heart? Band together and give spirit back to those who fight cancer so that they may use their hearts to the fullest extent.

I wrote this as a song for my cousin whose mother passed away. My hope is that others will find some comfort in these words as well. Feel free to post your memories and lost loved ones on this page as well. Where there is a thought of a name, so too shall that name be present.

Even Trade

I loved a girl with a heart of gold.
She'd never harm a soul.
But cancer knows no friend or foe.
The doctor's tried everything they knew,
As all my fears began to come true.
I still hate myself for what they put her through.
Then an angel came to me at night,
Told me to dry my eyes and tell him the one thing I wished for in this life.
An even trade, my life for hers. No questions asked.
As the fleeting seconds of a waiting room clock passed.

Then I walked away and found it all to be the truth,
You were there but your cancer was gone.

As time wore on her smile did fade.
Laughter a distant memory.
She began to give in to the pain.
I won't pretend it didn't hurt,
But my love would never waiver.
Knowing deep inside, it was still her.
Then the angel came back to me,
And asked me why I still sit and weep.
I gave you the one wish you begged of me to deem.
An even trade, your time for hers, no questions asked.
As the fleeting seconds of her life began to pass.

Then I walked away and found it all to be the truth,
You were there but your cancer was gone.

I'll be waiting, give me all of your pain.
Yes I'll be waiting to take it all away.
I'll be waiting, give me all of your pain.
Yes I'll be waiting to see your smile again.

I woke up from my dream.
Found that I too had wings.
I fell to my knees in a heartbreaking fall.
I didn't change the world at all.

But when I walked away and found it all to be the truth,
You were there but your cancer was gone.

For my cousin Kelly, I love you and will see you again.

-Maurice

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This is actually a song.  I usually don't allow people to know that I'm writing about myself when I am but I decided to not hide it this time.  It's a little insight about me and my childhood and how certain things in your earliest years shape the way you are.  I love my parents and my family and I say that so that you don't confuse my adoptive mom (mom of the present) with my biological mom (mom of the past). This song is about the mother that gave me life, not about the one who gave me a chance in life.  It's also about the girl that will never know.  I hope you all enjoy this for what it's worth.


I wish I could tell you, "your beautiful" in your t-shirt.
Hold your hand for no reason at all.
I wanna hug you when your sad.
Tell you that no day with you in it could be bad.

But you won't ever know cause I won't ever say.
I don't want to give you a reason to go away.
Cause even my momma left me,
But that was too much love and it's different this time.
I will keep my distance and never let my love show,
I don't want to ever let you get too close.
Cause even my momma left me,
But that was too much love and it's different this time.

I wish I could walk you home in the dark.
Kiss you on the cheek and brush back your hair.
Sweep you off your feet,
And one by one carry you up the stairs.

But you wont ever know cause I wont ever say.
I don't want to give you a reason to go away.
Cause even my momma left me,
But that was too much love and it's different this time.
I will keep my distance and never let my love show.
I don't want to ever let you get to close.
Cause even my momma left me,
Bu that was too much love and it's different this time.

I guess sometimes people love you so much they've got to let you go.
Atleast thats what they say.
But I don't understand what I did wrong,
I was only 2 years old. 
But I promise I'll be good if you let me stay.
And thats the last thing I remember as they drove away.
Without me.

But you won't ever know cause I won't ever say.
I don't want to give you a reason to go away.
Cause even my momma left me,
But that was too much love and it's different thits time.
I will keep my distance and never let my love show.
I don't want to ever let you get to close.
Cause even my momma left me,
But that was too much love and it's different this time.
This time.

-Maurice M. Davis

"When you love somebody it's easy to forgive them.

But the sadness is unbearable."  

When I'm sad I release it all through lots of music.  This song came from a hard time thats still hard and will probably always be hard, but I'm still hopeful.  Enjoy.

Maurice

                                            "I Won't Be Sad If I'm Not Here"

Words and Music by Maurice Davis

1^st Verse

I'm good advice but I won't take me.

I'm over done but I won't pull me out.

I've got one more agenda to complete if they don't get to me first.

I've got to put a blanket over my sweetheart,

Cause no one else will help her.

 

Chorus X's 2

I can't let you down if i'm not in the way,

A chance for me to put a smile on your face again.

I'll go you stay.

 

2^nd Verse

I waited all my life to let you in but they won't let me love you.

I did my best to overcome these sins but I know they still crush you.

I've got one more agenda to complete cause you won't sleep without this.

I know you'll blame yourself but it was me and I forgive.

 

Repeat Chorus

 

Bridge

What did you hope to find here?

Where everything has changed and nothing is familiar that you see.

Take your hand off of my body, you know that I"m not in there.

Close your eyes and wait for it, now I'm your memory.

 

Repeat Chorus

 

From the Heart of my highs,

How they bring me good memories.

I miss being a child,

My worries were less.

I'd spend hours in my sand box,

Hoping no one knocks it over.

Now I'm just sifting through the sand,

Looking for a half piece,

How my ignorance was a beautiful father.

Do you wish you were yellow? 
Or some other color?

Why do the blues get all of the reds?

Are you still in your sleep shirt?

Waiting for comfort?

Trying to just start over?

My mind was different then,

If she just walked away,

I've got lots of friends,

Or I can just make one up with a cooler name.

Some thing's are the same,

But some have changed.

I've still got my friends,

But now my heart aches when she don't wanna play.

Do you wish you were yellow?

Or some other color?

Why do the blues get all of the reds?

Are you still in your sleep shirt?

Waiting for comfort?

Trying to start over?

When your hardest decision to make is,

What shoe goes on what foot?

And how long will my momma let them stay?

If daddy lets them stay?

Do you wish you were yellow?

Or some other color?

Why do the blues get all of the reds?

Are you still in your sleep shirt?

Waiting for comfort?

Trying to just start over?

Maurice Davis

I Said Hello To Say Goodbye

Words and Music by Maurice Davis

 

 

1^st Verse

If death gave you a warning with a phone call in the morning,

At the ring do you think that you would answer?

Would you give your name?  Would you say hello?

Or when they asked for you,

Would you pretend you didnt know.

 

Pre-Chorus

Cause I know just what Id do if I got the chance to choose.

Id take the lies and give it all up.

Cause somethings in the way thats been there everyday.

And this is bigger than I ever thought.

 

Chorus

Hello, its me. Im ready to leave,

But what should I wear?  I feel so unprepared.

Hello, its me. Im ready to leave,

But should I pack a bag?  Ive got more than I planned.

And Ive got just a few goodbyes to say,

Then Ill be on my way.

 

Outro

And just before I go I should leave a note so,

When it rings.Say hello.

 

Chorus

Hello, its me. Im ready to leave,

But what should I wear?  I feel so unprepared.

Hello, its me. Im ready to leave,

But should I pack a bag?  Ive got more than I planned.

And Ive got just a few goodbyes to say,

Then Ill be on my way.

 

"In Memory of Aaron Allen, we'll miss ya bud".

"CONTENT WITH THIS"

You surprised me from day one with a "Yes".
So set on a no, I couldn't believe it. You and me together?
I remember that next day, I woke and couldn't wait to see your face.
From the moment my feet hit the floor from my bed,
I knew it was all different.
You were sick that morning but to me you were amazing.
I thought I would make you smile and comfort you to good health.
How was I to know you hated soup? 
But you didn't tell me til later, we both laughed.
I always wondered why you ate it,
But you said you didn't want to hurt my feelings.
You never did. I'll always love you for that.
But there are a hundred other reasons for the love I tried to show you.
Scared of making mistakes I must've made a million and one.
But every time you just smiled and killed me with your quick forgiveness.
You never raised your hand to me or your voice with an angry word.
But you always raised my eyes in your ability to be so beautiful.
You watched tv and I watched you.
You would blush and hide your face in my shirt,
Tickling me with your laughter.
I missed every show but I still dont miss them.
Cause in my mind,
Why watch something less than what your surroundings offer?
You made sneezing cute and thats a great accomplishment.
You use to love the mall and we joked about the first time I took you.
I made you stand on the table in the center of the food court.
You were so good and cooperative.
Just smiling while I told everyone that,
No mall could give me more than what I had.
Some clapped as I carried you to the car.
You made me carry you back for the shirt we came for in the first place.
What a work out, haha you said that not me.
If you'd let me I'd never let you walk again and carry you everywhere.
You wanted people to believe you were independent.
But we both knew that we needed each other to really make it.
You use to laugh at my ability to celebrate everything.
But just being with you was worth a celebration.
First day on the job or first day of our new car,
Or first time to eat at a new place or first kiss.
I remember how surprised you were that I remembered.
I wasn't though,
I must've played it in my head over and over again a hundred times a day.
Something that I never told your dad,
Even though he threatned me to never leave him out.
You and your mom,
So coniving to leave me in the living room with him alone.
He must have planned that speech for many years.
But I dont think he planned his reaction for my words.
You should've seen his face when I asked him if he wanted a son-in-law.
Never figured out if he was more surprised that "I" asked him,
Or at the fact that anyone would ask him at all.
I'm just glad he said yes.
I'll admit though I was alot happier when you said yes.
I remember flying you out to where the snow was fresh.
As we built a snow man you talked as if it was an everyday thing.
I sent you to look for a nose for ol Frosty,
And sat nervously as I placed the box in the center of his face.
You came back and I smiled,
Knowing that you'd never leave my side again as less than mine.
We cancelled the rest of the trip,
Just so you could get back and show mama the ring.
What an experience planning that special day.
You didn't let me do much but I didn't want to make decisions,
I just wanted to be next to you.
You let me pick out your dress for the after party.
Well sorta, you picked and I approved.
I remember looking at you as you modeled each one.
I never thought any dress made you, you made the dresses.
But my favorite part of all that was not the dresses,
I know you remember too.
You rolled your eyes when I asked you to dance with me,
Right in the middle of the store.
But everytime we went shopping you wanted to glide the floor,
So I guess you learned to like it.
You were good at that, learning to like things that I wanted,
I did the same for you, like when you just wanted to be silent.
Nights we layed there just looking at the ceiling.
I always wondered what you were thinking about.
I thought about what God thought when He looked down at you.
Like a builder must feel when he builds his greatest creation.
The way that I feel when I look back at all that we went through together.
We made memories that many minds ache to borrow or be a part of.
Too many smiles that you gave me and not enough paper to write them on.
So I sit here as every face we ever encountered together,
Hugs me with words of encouragment.
I can only smile at their respect for you,
Another example of the impact you've made.
And as I return to the life we made I sit in your seat to keep it warm.
No, you wont be back but keeping you alive is all that keeps me alive.
I'm only a few steps behind you,
So let me get her ready before I make you my company again.
She looks just like you but I think you did that on purpose.
Just another reminder that you always did take care of me.
Thank you baby, it really does help.
I dont mean to ramble but I hope you dont mind. Of course you dont.
Days change but we never did.
For now, I love you, see you soon.
.