"I dance to a beat inside my head that only I can hear"
- An Interview with writer/director M.A. Littler -
Q: Filmmaker, poet, spoken word artist, concert promoter…what the hell are you?
A: I reckon I'm a delusional jack of all outlawed trades. A patient suffering from the worst disease out there, the g'damn truth!
Q: Let's try to summarize your activities in the past 5 years.
A: I wrote a bunch of screenplays and two books of poetry, made a few documentaries about underground music and art and a moody feature film deemed too slow to watch.
Q: Why the rush?
A: I feel I've been working real slow.
Q: You always work with your peers; you never cast so called professional actors.
A: No. They're all professional performers. The fact that they're not actors doesn't bother me. To the contrary it intrigues me. They're rare, strange and beautiful creatures. I'd be a fool to cast anyone else.
A: Let's talk about your new project THE FOLKSINGER. Is it a documentary or a fictional film?
Q: Both. The film will follow real life folk singer Possessed by Paul James on tour from Texas to Kentucky. Embedded into the documentary style footage of the tour we will incorporate a fictional narrative revolving around the singer's struggle with doubt and anger as well as his religious upbringing and his relationship with the almighty.
Q: Those are autobiographical issues that you will capture on film?
A. Yes.
A: The obvious question that comes to mind is the issue of trust.
Q: He trusts me and I certainly have to trust him. The success of the entire film is solely dependant on his authenticity. We're kindred spirits. That will have to suffice. It's a risky but pure and sincere undertaking. I like to say we're god's wild children, a bit like Kerouac's holy fools.
Q: What other performers have you cast and what role to they play?
A: All the people play themselves. Scott H. Biram is played by none other than Scott H. Biram, Col. JD Wilkes is played by Col. JD Wilkes etc.
Q: What is your main objective, your main goal…what are you trying to achieve with the film?
A: It's about raw human emotions. Let's not hide behind the suave, the hip, the cool. It's a film about men with bloody knuckles, anger, fear and a relentless spirit that drives them on.
Q: Let's move onto your writing. There are a lot of references to mental health in your work. Have you had experiences with mental health issues?
A: I've come across many people who told me they thought that there was something wrong with them but upon spending time with them they seemed very healthy - emotionally healthy.
They conveyed their fears verbally and many told me that they felt detached from the world and somehow out of place.
I soon realized that they were simply not in accord with society, or rather mainstream society. Because of that they had been led to believe that there was something wrong with them.
A lot of my writing that deals with the issue could be considered portrait work. I portrait individuals who feel outside of the world.
Q: They feel alienated?
A. They feel alone. To be alone is worth than death. If you consider yourself to be a freak but can exchange your thoughts with other so called freaks you feel a communion of the spirit. If you feel isolate and alone your spirit shrivels up and dies. Fact is mainstream society has regimented rules to live by and many fall by the wayside. I feel drawn to those people.
Q: You use "big" words in your literature. Death, world, love etc. Have you been criticized for being presumptuous?
A: All the time. But what should I do? Those are the issues and themes that penetrate my brain and rather than trying to find cutesy metaphors, I write straight from the gut. I'm not concerned with good or bad literature. I concern myself primarily with the question of authenticity. Do I believe what I write? If I do, I feel I have succeeded. If not, I have failed. It's all very subjective. My friend the photographer Miron Zownir refers to it as "radically subjective". I dance to a beat inside my head that only I can hear.
Q: I have also discovered a fondness for hobo folklore.
A: I am interested in people living transient life styles; travelling preachers, hobos etc. But not only individuals who travel physically but also mentally - inner emigration.
Q: The hobo folklore has become a cliché.
A: So has the travelling preacher, Jesus and the devil and most everything in between. Due to biographic facts I relate to those issues. That's what I was raised on and that is until today the thematic structure of my writing.
Q: Speaking of structure. Do you adhere to concrete structural guidelines?
A: Not consciously but there is a structure to all my writing which has evolved over the years. I don't follow historic poetry structure or structures defined by literary critics.
Q. Do you see your writing as a continuation of a journey begun by beat generation writers?
A: No, I don't see my writing as any continuation of any sort apart from a continuation of my own journey. I do feel very close to a lot of Kerouac's writing…not really the adventures on the road, the drinking and travelling part. More the religious quest - the spiritual journey and the frustration of trying to figure out the world and ultimately failing. He's a writer who has been read on superficial level. Few have done justice to the material. I also enjoy Burroughs every now and again but that's about it.
Q: What relevance do publication and positive criticism have?
A: None what so ever. There's no money in poetry. And if I require adoration or praise I talk to my wife or buy someone a drink who really needs one. You get a helluva lot more appreciation from a man who needs a drink than from the literature quarterlies. Art is not on trial therefore why should it be judged? Give it away. If someone can relate to the idiosyncrasies of your mind, than that's a good thing. If not, I'm not all that pissed of either.
Q: I've come cross plenty of drugs in your poetry.
A: Drugs sedate and make you forget the world and your solitude. I don't write drug literature. I focus on the solitary aspect not the drugs. They just happen to be a reality and lost souls seem to be drawn to them.