So I promissed some of you that I'd post some old poetry of mine. Some is good, some sucks(imo) but I thought I'd post most of them. Here you go.
depressing poem
The mask you wore descends and shatters
Its jagged shards tear my wounded flesh
Your facade of truth led me to believe a lie
My heart spews forth hateful words
Only to be subdued by the burning in my soul
Will I ever be free from the tears that kill me?
Does my fate rest in your hands... Let me go
Let me sleep in peace... knowing no more the
shadow that once tortured these hands
My place of suffucation devours what's left
Tomorrow never comes... yesterday's ashes
have smoldered too long
Why.............
The love I never knew manifests mistakenly
Did you ever really care... Were my dreams enough
I spent them foolishly on things only sorrow can attain
Now, as I drown in my own painful remorse
Will you shed a tear... will you feel what I feel
Clouds darken my days ... A mist hangs above my head
Nothingness spreads it's wings and flys as my spirit
Crushed and damaged gazes out a stained window
Seeing the rest filled with joy and gladness as I watch
As I dream... dreaming emptiness forever... forever
Burned remains leave an angered sadness
Bitterness disolves into hateful invectives
A sadistic melody plays inside my head
At what price is freedom gained?
I stand alone bearing the cost
Abandoned as my heart aches in vain
in autumn
In autumn the leaves free themselves to die
This tree remembers the past and things of it
Forsaking a tear time after time
Longing to join the leaves on their journey
Agony mixed with remorse waters the soil
Withering limbs contrast summer's reign
In autumn winter's jest lay at the door
It's chilling winds a vice holding in the cold
The chirping of the fowl seem like empty words
The only warmth rages in forgotten lands
Clothed in desperation no one understands
Broken branches, bitter evidence on the ground
Watching as my fading autumn ends
A weeping mask covers stone and grief
Healed wounds still bleed sorrow and self
Underneath the smiles lay hidden scars
Tragedy erodes summer's failing grasp
A rotten tree replaces all that's left
Crowned with sunshine on a cloudless horizon
When the roots were strong and binding
My heart changed as the seasons passed by
One lonely tree sadly soaks in the shame
Reminded of the aches buried yesterday
Reminded... that spring is so far away
retrostpect
sometimes i reminisce with the showdows
back to the days when clouds meant smiles
when you see the sunrise my morning's reposed
your dimming sunset means another sleepless night
in winter's wake the wait is worthwhile
Silence
Broken... silence...
Frost takes it's place on this weathered tree
Angered... alone...
The ocean's mighty roar can't be heard
Remeberance... Residing...
Illness and solitude creep toward me
Too dark... Too cold...
Another black moonrise casts shadows deep
I'm waiting... I'm dying...
Winter has allied herself with sorrow
Forsaken... Forgotten...
All my dreams end in a thousand tears
then the rain turned to snow
(this one is my favorite ever)
i looked up through the leafless branches
hoping for just one glimmer of sunshine
i looked up until the clouds wouldn't let me
then the rain turned to snow
a few clung to the limbs desperately for life
their ambitions were everything
but when it's cold the leaves die
then the rain turned to snow
blue skies and a black heart
the gray clouds resulting sent rain
i thought it would cleanse my soul
then the rain turned to snow
i can't remember how to be warm
it's so dark.. so quiet.. so cold..
a final glance in that direction
then the rain turned to show
we wrote this song together... but i finish it alone
the words were always right
we played it a million times
i pledged my heart's song to you
held nothing back and then i fell
you showed me that place
took me there before i knew
you told me that you'd sing forever
that our song would never fade away
wandering from somehwere to lost
the trees wall me in as you plant the hate
remember how i loved to listen
how could you ever forget
hear the silence thunder
watch the sun drown in bloody tears
perhaps someday you'll realize
i finished the song... alone