HEY ITS BEEN AWHILE BUT I THINK ITS ABOUT TIME TO START AGAIN. WELL AS U ALL KNOW ME AND JASON HAVE BEEN THREW ALOT IN THESE PAST YEARS TRYING TO FIGURE OUT IF WE CAN MAKE IT TOGETHER AND JUST IN GENERAL. WE HAVE HURT EACH OTHER IN WAYS THAT SHOULDNT EVEN BE SPOKE OF. BUT THREW IT ALL WE HAVE NEVER GIVEN UP ON EACH OTHER AND THIS LOVE WE SHARE. WE KNOW WHAT PAIN IT IS 2 B IN LOVE, ESPECIALY WITH EACH OTHER. JASON HAS SACRIFICED HIMSELF FOR ME, HE HAS GIVEN ME LIFE. SO TODAY AND EVERYDAY I WILL BE THANKFUL FOR HIM AND HIS LOVE. HE WILL BE GONE FOR AWHILE YET SO DO ME A FAVOR AND STOP AND THINK ABOUT MY LOVING HUSBAND AND UR FRIEND TODAY AND BE GREATFUL FOR WHAT U HAVE. SEND OUT A PRAYER FOR HIM OR JUST SEND HIM A LETTER LETTING HIM KNOW HES NOT FORGOTTEN. CAUSE I WILL NEVER FORGET HIM AND WILL BE WAITING THERE WHEN THE GATES OPEN AND HE COMES HOME.     THANKS                                          TIFFANY BEGEMAN        

 HERE WE GO, I AM WRITING GOALS 4 MYSELF. SO STAY ON MY ASS SO I GET THEM DONE.

                                                 GET DONE BY...

1 SIGN UP 4 ONLINE CLASSES 12/07 

2 GET JOB!!!!                            12/07

3 SIGN UP FOR CLASSES AT ICC 2/08

4 SIGN JAYLYNN UP FOR DAYCARE END OF 1/08

5 GET MEDS FROM TAZWOOD..ASAP 1/08

6 START COUNSLING WITH BROOKLYNN 4/08

7 START PAYING 2 GET LICENSE BACK 2/08

8 TAKE ME TIME 2 NURTURE AND CARE 4 MYSELF   2/08

9 STOP PROCRASTINATING-   2MARO JUST PLAYING 12/20/07

10 GO 2 ATLEAST 2 MEETINGS A WEEK 12/07

11 GET BROOKLYNN BACK HOME 4 GOOD 6/08 SUMMER VACATION

12 START GIVING BACK 2 MY FRIENDS THAT STILL BELIEVE IN ME.       3/08 (SORRY GOTTA FIX ME FIRST)

13 APOLIGIZE 2 ALL THAT I HAVE DONE WRONG.                             START BY 1/08

14 TAKE GUITAR LESSONS   2/13/08

15  WRITE MORE GOALS 2/08

 

               

 

 HEY THERE FRIENDS. I AM WRITING 2DAY 2 SAY THANK U 2 ALL OF U FOR BEING THE AMAZING FRIENDS THAT U R. I HAVE NEEDED ALL OF U DURING THE PAST COUPLE DAYS SINCE MY GMA PAST AWAY. SO THANKS FOR ALL THE SWEET MESSAGES I HAVE GOT AND I JUST WANT 2 SAY I AM OK, AND IT IS THANKS 2 ALL OF THE WONDERFUL FRIENDS GOD HAS BLESSED ME WITH. SO KNOW THAT I LOVE U ALL AND AM THANKFUL EVERYDAY FOR EVERY ONE OF U!!!!

   well hello again. i was just sitting here after a busy day of runnin and just being mommy and was thinking how scared i was 2 let go of some of the things that use 2 be so normal and even comfortable 2 me. its amazing how those things rarly cross my mind anymore and really werent worth my time before. the things that still do matter or the people that inpacted my life so much. some good, some bad, and some so amazing that I will never 4get. I guess my point is that i realized that its ok 2 take things from the craziest part of ur life and still move on . memories r so many parts of my life, even the worst ones i still learn from and they make it easier 4 me 2 remember why i am the person i am 2day and why i will never let myself go back 2 the way i was. i live for me and my kids everyday and even though it may e a little understimulating some times, i love every minute of it.

well of course there is love after kids and fuck up husbands. is it harder? hell yeah! is it possible yep! see iam one of the lucky ones, i was blessed with an amazing guy who not only loved me but who also loved my daughter who wasnt his just as much as he loved me. if it wasnt for the demons we let take over our lives i truely believe we would still be 2gethr and would have the life we planned. thats bsides the point right now. i am just trying 2 say there r still good guys out there that will love u and ur kids. it just takes showing them that u r worth it. and believe me if u r reading this and it means something 2 u then u r definatly worth it.  (BER)XO

 WELL ONCE AGAIN I HAVE TRIED 2 SHOW MY DETERMINATION 2 OTHERS. ONCE AGAIN THERE IS SOME FUCK UP TRYING 2 TAKE THE LIGHT OFF OF THEIRSELVES BY TRYING 2 MAKE SOMEONE ELSE SEEM WORSE THAN THEMSELVES. C 2 ME IT DOESNT MAKE SENSE 4 A PERSON WHO SAYS THAT THEY ARE REHABILITATED 2 TRY 2 HARM SOMEONE ELSES LIFE. I GET UP EVERYDAY AND TRY 2 BE THE BEST MOM, THE BEST FRIEND AND THE BEST ME I CAN B. THEN U HAVE PEOPLE WHO TRY 2 MAKE U LOOK BAD. PERSONALLY I DONT HAVE TIME 2 MAKE UP THINGS ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE. I ONLY TRY 2 HELP PEOPLE THAT R TRYING 2 HELP THEMSELVES. I HAVE NEVER CLAIMED 2 B PERFECT BCAUSE I AM FAR FROM IT, BUT I CAN SAY THAT I AM ALOT BETTER THAN I WAS AND THAT I PUT FORTH EFFORT EVERYDAY 2 NOT GO BACK 2 THE HELL I ONCE LIVED IN. SO 2 SAY THE LEAST IT MAKES ME QUITE UPSET WHEN SOMEONE GOES OUT OF THEIR WAY 2 NOT ONLY MAKE ME LOOK BAD BUT 2 INSINUATE THAT I AM NOT BEING A VERY GOOD MOTHER. I LOVE MY GIRLS MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THE WORLD AND I TAKE IT QUITE PERSONAL WHEN SOMEONE TELLS MY CHILDRENS FAMILY THINGS THAT JUST ARENT TRUE. SO INSTEAD OF USING SOMEONES IGNORANCE AS AN EXCUSE 2 FUCK UP ALL THAT I AM TRYING 2 ACCOMPLISH BY DOING THE THINGS THAT THEY R SAYING I AM DOING, I HAVE DECIDED 2 WRITE HOW I FEEL AND LET IT GO AND KEEP MOVING FORWORD WITH MY LIFE AND ONLY PRAY FOR THE PERSON WHO IS MESSING UP THEIR OWN LIFE.
THANKS 4 READING THIS AND THANK U FOR THOSE OF U WHO STILL BELIEVE IN ME.