September 21, 2009: It's been a while since I updated this...
*I got my ID :)
*Well, I moved out...Yeaahh...Not the way I wanted to, but I just couldn't stop seeing Joe, and my parents wouldn't allow it. They told me that if I live with them I can't see him and I said that I couldn't do that so they said that I can't live there and see him. So I left.. I live with Joe now, which is good, but we wanna move into an apartment soon. The house gets dirty cuz people don't wanna clean, stuff gets stolen or misplaced, it's just stressful.. Not to mention the neighborhood isn't that great..
*Still have no luck in finding a job :(
*Still going to Pima, but falling behind in math, due to the lack of a book. This chick, Diana, was supposed to give me copies of the pages from the book, but idk what happened to that..
*Life has it's ups and downs...Mostly downs at the moment...
August 12, 2009:
*I've decided that I wanna do something in the medical field. That seems more of a long term career than the music industry.
*I go tomorrow (Thursday August 13th) to orientation at Pima and to register.
*My birth certificate should come in the mail in a few days. Yay! I can finally get my ID when it comes!
*Life has been blah lately...Fuck it!
August 2, 2009:
*Life = shit right now...
I currently can't see the one I wanna spend the rest of my life with because my parents feel that he needs to get his life straightened out and get a job and that I need to get my life together and get ready for college and shit.
Joe and I were thinking about still dating, but we broke up last night and I was completely torn...
When we IMed each other online he told me that it's over since he can't even see his gf...
I thought it was just a silly joke at first (he jokes around about shit sometimes) but he didn't say "jk" after he told me...and I was hoping that he would say it...
He stopped by to say goodbye...and right when I looked into his
eyes I saw that he wasn't kidding at all.
He told me that he's been stressed out and hurt about this situation and that he misses me and he can't deal with this shit right now...
It's not fuckin fair!! I hate this so much!
Today my mom asked me why he stopped by last night and I told her "To say goodbye..." and she was like "why?" and I said "Since we can't see each other". Then after a few minutes I looked over and she had tears in her eyes. I asked her what was wrong and she said "Nothing". Normally I'd bug her about it but I thought "well, fuck it. It's none of my business. Her and my dad must be fighting or something" but I was wrong... After a couple minutes she told me "It just hurts to see you and Joe are upset about this."
I didn't reply because I couldn't due to a lump in my throat...Tears started filling up my eyes and I looked away from my mom. Then she said that she just wants what's best for me. I didn't say anything, but I thought "If you want what's best for me, why are you taking away from me the ability to see the guy that I'm truly in love with; the one who supports me so much and encourages me all the time to do good in school and go to college and get a job?"
He's amazing! And I wish my parents could see that...
*I'm going to Pima - West Campus. I was thinking about doing something either in the medical field or the music industry. I'm leaning a little more towards music industry, but then...well, idk what to do. If I choose medical, I might become a pharmacy technician or nurse, or something.. If I choose music industry, maybe a radio DJ, or band interviewer, or ?? I'll figure something out..
*I can't wait to get my license! And a car, of course! Ugh! It sucks! I've been waiting since I was 16! And I can't wait to get a job. I need money.
So yeah...That's basically it, for now.