Hey Guys!

Hey everyone!
Just so you know, you can buy "Hope of a Little Green" on iTunes, rhapsody, napster etc.. pretty much ANYWHERE they are selling digital MP3 songs.
Also, if you'd rather have a hard copy- the real CD with the artwork and stories behind the songs you can get them at
www.cdbaby.com
just search "abbi walker" and both albums will come up.
Hope all is well!
Holla at me if you like what you hear...

over the last 2 years I have walked and processed a great deal... It seemed that as soon as the last album was released, that all hell broke loose in my personal life...
It's an odd thing, especially when you feel like you are risking everything to follow Jesus... and put your heart, your journey, your struggles out there... in song, and in word. But....
Sometimes the Lord's way of doing a great and deep work in our hearts... in our very will... is sculpted by the sharp edges of our God bringing, sovereignly, people, circumstances, or disappointments that we thought we would never know in our lifetime. Whether it feels unmerited, completely unfair, or totally unlike the God that we think we know.... It is never in waste... nor is it ever, ever a mistake. I most certainly did not feel this way in the midst of heartache, betrayal, and total disallusionment...
But I could not seem to be able to get away from a "fight" that wars in my soul... the fight that I have a relationship with Jesus, and His Words says that I can approach His throne.... the fight that was so strongly and beautifully depicted through the story of Job. I have to ask "why".... I have to ask, "Jesus, WHAT is this really about?" I also will be honest enough to say an equal part of those prayers was "What the heck? What on earth did I ever do to deserve to be betrayed, lied to, and treated like this?" He hears our hearts... and He knows what is truly in them whether we put it into words... I have opted for just getting it all out there in prayer right off the bat... the good, the bad, the ugly.... even the really ugly... "Lord, THEY deserve this, not me!!!!"
I have found that He does not answer the prayers prayed out of a place where we think we ought to be... nor where we want to be... or where we think He wants us to be...
But He answers the prayers that are prayed from the most honest, truthful, sometimes terrifying places of our souls. Right where we are, mad or happy as we are... Everything else is just pretense... and wasted time. I have found, that He can, in fact...handle all of your honesty. All of who you are. And it is that person, that He delights in.

The thing about pain, unforgiveness, offenses, fear, and hatred is that they are never fully healed until the are first fully felt and acknowledged...

These songs are just a sampling of what has come out of my heart these last 2 years... Some of them very "spiritual", and others just an honest song out of an honest place out of my heart... I never have understood why "Christian Artists" never write songs about heartbreak, relationships, or deep longings... Maybe that's why our marriages are no more successful than those who don't claim to know Jesus. So here they are... these are just rough cuts... done in my living room and closet... give me a little grace here... the point is the songs... not the production. i'd love to know if anyone connects with them.
In many ways they are a progression of my heart..
Am I A Fool
Watch Me Walk Away
Learnin to Let Go
Tragedy

This is the most honest I have ever been... and I have to say... it just feels right.
Let me know what you think.

Okay, I know...
everyone is like WHY should I go out and buy this CD?
abbi, do you KNOW how expensive gas is right now?

YES, trust me I do... :)

But there are several really great reasons to invest in this CD.

1:These people searched through THOUSANDS of artists on myspace... to find the "future sound" of Christian music... I have no idea how I got on here, but I'm okay with signing it off as the Sovereign Will of God!!! :)

2: IT IS FRESH MUSIC! It doesn't sound like everything that is cranked out of normal labels. It has been written out of real life, and it is our ministry and our calling.

3 : This is a HUGE opportunity to be a part of something, I like to refer to it as the INDIE MOVEMENT- and that is to prove to the music industry that you don't have to be signed to a record label to be able to share your music and your heart to large groups of people! If you have some "inner hippie" embrace it, and help the Christian Music Industry GROW!!! No, I don't mean help them make more money and increase the prices at Lifeway, BUT to help CHRISTIAN MUSIC GROW!!! We can get in a rut people!!!

4: This Record Label has taken a huge RISK to give us all a chance. This is our dream, to be able to sing and write out of what is IN our hearts and our struggles with the Lord... true to the integrity of who He has made us.

5: We can't do it without you...


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If we get enough support behind it, "Save Me" can get national radio play!!!!

BUY THE CD MAY 27th when it comes out!!!!


you guys amaze me...
thank you so much for all of your help and encouragement...
you have no idea what it means!
abbi

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Hey everyone!!!

We have TWO, yes TWO national releases in the works.

The first is Top20 Indie 2008 with Indelible Creative Group AND Indieheaven. Both amazing organizations. This was released a little earlier this spring, and it has some great artists on there! I actually know several of them, and they are all amazing! I met Jen Webber at a coffee shop on some random week I was in Nashville visiting my sister. Next thing I know, we're on a stinking compilation CD together. All kinds of crazy. God has an amazing sense of humor.

"Top 20 Indie 2008 features 20 of the most talented emerging artists from Indieheaven.com's stable of independent Christian artists on one CD. Artist and songs from the album were selected from members of Indieheaven.com by a panel of music-industry experts from Indelible Creative Group and Indieheaven.com based on song quality, artist exposure and web traffic, among other criteria. "

The SECOND CD is one I am really, really excited about. NuSpring Records has put together an indie artist compilation CD called "Underground Sound" with 15 of what they call "the hottest up-and-coming acts in Christian music today". They started out with over 1500 artists, and narrowed it down to what CCM calls "the top 15 songs that represent the absolute best independent Christian artists in music today". There is a great article in CCM... and let me tell you, I never, EVER thought I would ever get to be in CCM. God continually surprises me.  Check it out at

http://www.ccmmagazine.com/news/headlines/11566236/

The CD, called "Underground Sound" will be available EVERYWHERE May 27th, 2008. This is beyond exciting for me, and they have some great plans for what they'd like to do with this project.

Anyways, that's what is going on for now... :) hope ya'll are somewhat as blessed and excited as I am!!!!

Thanks for all of your support... and encouragement.

It means THE WORLD to this heart.

abbi

okay everyone...
here are the lyrics to all the songs on the album... these also include the stories...
this is exactly what is on the CD cover... so this should help!
chord charts aren't currently available, nor are there "tracks"... but the music should be pretty simple to follow... :)

SAVE ME*
MUSIC AND LYRICS BY ABBI WALKER, ARRANGED BY ALFRED GALLGOS
THIS SONG HAS A FLAVOR OF GOSPEL SOUL, AS IT IS A DEEP CRY FOR HELP AND CLEANSING. DESPITE MY GRAND THEORIES AND HIGHEST OF INTENTIONS, I WROTE THIS IN THE MIDST OF A SEASON OF JUST REALLY MESSING UP. FACE TO FACE WITH MY DEPRAVITY, I KNEW THERE WAS NO SAVING WITHIN MYSELF, SO ALL I KNEW TO DO WAS SAY "HELP ME LORD JESUS!" HE IS FAITHFUL TO ANSWER… PSALM 51

Overwhelmed by all that is within me/A raging sea that I can't calm/In all my trying/I am dying/Guilt and Shame feed my fear/How did I get here/How did I get here?
Jesus Save me/By Your Authority/You're the only One who can fight for
This life/God I'm weary /From this storm in me/Would you wash me deep and
Make me clean?

WADE*
MUSIC AND LYRICS BY ABBI WALKER
ARRANGED BY ALFRED GALLEGOS
"WADE IN THE WATER" IS A WONDERFUL OLD AFRICAN AMERICAN SPIRITUAL MIXED WITH SOME TRUTH'S I LEARNED FROM MY DAD: THE LOWEST PLACE IS WHERE THE RIVER OF THE SPIRIT FLOWS.

Wade in the water/Wade in the water children/Wade in the water/God's gonna trouble the water….
In the lowest places, Your river flows
In the deepest valley, there I know
That You meet my soul
And Your river flows

HOPE OF A LITTLE GREEN*
LYRICS BY ABBI WALKER
MUSIC, CO- PRODUCED, AND ARRANGED BY HECTOR GALLEGOS
ABOUT JANUARY, I FIND MYSELF REALLY DOUBTING WHETHER OR NOT SPRING TIME WILL ACTUALLY COME. IN THE MIDST OF A WORLD OF GRAYS AND BROWNS, IT IS AMAZING THE POWER OF ONE LITTLE LEAF, ONE LITTLE SPOT OF "GREEN" THAT FILLS ONE WITH HOPE THAT LIFE IS COMING AGAIN! I HAVE ALWAYS LOVED THE LIFE SEEN IN SUMMERTIME…. THE GREENS, THE WARM SUN, THE SENSE OF FREEDOM. JUST AS THERE ARE SEASONS IN NATURE, THERE ARE SEASONS IN LIFE. THIS SONG IS REFLECTIVE OF A "SEASON" I HAVE WALKED FOR THE PAST 2 YEARS. A TIME WHERE I WAS UNCERTAIN OF WHERE LIFE WAS HEADED, AND WHAT JESUS WAS CALLING ME TO.
THIS SONG IS SIMPLY THIS: ALL THAT WE SEE IS NOT ALL THAT IT WILL ALWAYS BE. HE ONLY BRINGS DEATH IN ORDER TO BRING MORE LIFE… DEEPER LIFE… GREATER FREEDOM. REVELATIONS 18 HOLDS THE PROMISE THAT HE DOES INDEED, "MAKE ALL THINGS NEW"… EVEN THOSE WE THOUGHT BEYOND RESURRECTION.

FACED WITH THE DEPTHS OF ME AGAIN/ THERE'S NO LIFE I FIND WITHIN/ WINTER HAS SET IN ON MY SOUL/ EVERYTHING AROUND ME SEEMS SO COLD
WHERE IS THE SPRING/WHERE IS THE LIFE/ I YEARN FOR THE WARMTH OF YOUR SUNLIGHT/ EVEN THE HOPE OF A LITTLE GREEEN/ CAN MAKE THIS DREARY HEART SING
RAIN RAIN ON MY FACE DON'T YOU EVER GO AWAY/ DON'T WANT YOU TO COME ANOTHER DAY
YOU MAKE ALL THINGS NEW/BRILLIANT COLORS BRING INTO VIEW/YOU BRING TO LIFE ALL THAT I THOUGHT WAS DEAD/REMINDING ME YOU SAID
"YOU MAKE ALL THINGS NEW"…


OFFERING*
MUSIC AND LYRICS BY ABBI WALKER
THIS SONG IS THE HEART BEHIND EVERY SONG ON THIS ALBUM. THEY ARE MY PERSONAL OFFERINGS TO JESUS AS I WALKED THROUGH LIFE, AND I PRAY HE MEETS YOU IN THEM AS HE DID ME. THEY ARE HONEST, AS JESUS DESCRIBED THE TRUE WORSHIPPERS THE FATHER DESIRES: THOSE WHO WORSHIP IN SPIRIT AND TRUTH.

this is my offering /no other one can bring/you are worthy of my praise/Right where I stand today/tho it be joy or pain/I will lift my voice and sing/This is my offering/I bring it to you my King/You are worthy of all praise/Right where I stand today/Acknowledge your Sovereign ways/I will lift my voice and sing
Hallelujah…

RUN*
MUSIC AND LYRICS BY ABBI WALKER
ARRANGED BY HECTOR GALLEGOS
I WROTE THIS SONG WHILE WAITING IN SEVERAL AIRPORTS WITH MY FAMILY DURING SPRING BREAK A FEW YEARS AGO. THIS IS BASICALLY A LOVE SONG ABOUT THE RISK OF A LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP AND THE ADVENTUROUS UNCERTAINTY. NOT SUPER-SPIRITUAL, BUT A FUN SONG.

So many people walking/Hurrying by/So many things that can run/race through my mind/Like how long since I've seen you/Does your love for me still run true/How will it be when I finally see your face again?
My heart it is racin/These feet won't quit pacin/I catch your face in the crowd and I run/My heart it is racin/These feet won't quit pacin/I catch your face in the crowd and I run/And I run to your arms/I choose to risk my heart/No one knows how this will end/But it's not enough to keep me from you..


LOVESONG
MUSIC AND LYRICS BY JASON MORANT
© 2002 SHADOW SPRING MUSIC AND VERTICAL WORSHIP SONGS
USED BY PERMISSION

Where can I go/ Where can I run from You/ You're everywhere/You know all my thoughts/you see through my ways/And still You come to me/So I sing a lovesong to You/So I sing a lovesong to You/ From heaven above/to earth down beneath/your love rains down on me/You know all my thoughts/You see through my ways/And still you come to me/You walk on waves/You run with clouds/You paint the skies for me to see/Your majesty/Your majesty/is why I sing.

WHO IS THIS FRIEND*
MUSIC AND LYRICS BY ABBI WALKER
I WROTE THIS SONG FOR MY DEAREST FRIEND, JEN RIGNEY. THE LORD GAVE ME A FRIENDSHIP IN HER THAT I HAD NEVER KNOWN BEFORE AND SHOWED ME HIS HEART FOR ME THROUGH IT. THERE IS SOMETHING SO DEEPLY PRECIOUS AND HUMBLING WHEN YOU REALIZE SOMEONE LOVES YOU COMPLETELY, BECAUSE THEY KNOW YOU COMPLETELY AND STILL LOVE YOU. IT ALSO SCARED ME OUT OF MY MIND. PEOPLE CAN LOVE YOU IN SPITE OF YOUR BAD, BUT IT IS THE HEART OF GOD ALONE THAT CAN LOVE YOU IN AND THROUGH IT. JENNY'S FRIENDSHIP WAS GIVEN AS A REFLECTION OF THE AMAZINGLY DEEP AND LOYAL HEART OF MY GOD, AND I AM A DIFFERENT WOMAN TODAY BECAUSE OF IT.

Love unconditional/Prayer unstoppable/Loyalty undeserved/Tell me how did I get here?/Who is this friend I've found who loves me towards You?/How did I come to stand on such ground/To be fully known/And yet, still loved too…/Your gentle smile reassures me of myself/I look into eyes that draw out truth and freedom from my mouth/ Who is this friend I've found who loves me towards You?/How did I come to stand on such ground/To be fully known/And yet wholly loved …/Sometimes I want to run away/So much of me that causes me shame/Sometimes I want to run away/But then You remind me that it's there You know me/And I rest/Oh but then You remind me that it's, it's there You chose me and I rest..


LOVELY*
MUSIC AND LYRICS BY ABBI WALKER
THE SONG LOVELY IS BASICALLY WHAT GOES ON IN MY HEART WHEN I AM HONORED TO STAND IN THE AMAZING PLACE OF HIS PRESENCE. HIS GLORY, HIS BEAUTY IS BREATHTAKING AND MORE THAN ONE CAN BEAR.

With one glance, you have captured my heart/With beauty that tears my world apart(repeat)/Oh and You, You've captivated me/Yes You, You've captivated me/I sing lovely, lovely are You/With one glance, You've set me free /Filled me with songs I'll forever sing/Oh and You, You've captivated me/Yes You, You've captivated me/I sing lovely, lovely are You(repeat)
Your beauty takes my breath away/So much that I can barely stand to say/You're everything I've ever wanted and so much more..

LONGING*
MUSIC AND LYRICS BY ABBI WALKER
THERE IS NO HIDING HERE: THIS SONG IS PROBABLY THE MOST TRANSPARENT OF MY HEART AT THIS POINT…THOUGH IT REFLECTS THE HEART OF A WOMAN AT ANY STAGE IN LIFE, THIS IS VERY HONESTLY MY HEART AS A 24 YEAR OLD SINLGE WOMAN. HE MEETS US IN THE MIDST OF THE CIRCUMSTANCES HE HAS ORDAINED, AND WE CAN'T HIDE OUR HEARTS FROM HIM. FOR THAT IS WHAT HE IS AFTER, AND THAT IS WHAT WE AS WOMEN HAVE TO OFFER OUR KING, AND THE WORLD AROUND US.

My heart is not a problem to be solved/but an offering to give/longings I can't fill/ longings I can't kill/ Thought I had buried them/ But you pull them out again
I offer my heart to you/ I won't protect/ Even the deepest place/ Where I have hid my face/ I offer my heart to You/ I won't protect/ Even the deepest place/ Jesus I need Your Grace.
Would you meet me here/ Would You calm my fears/ you are Good…
I long/I yearn/Hope is such a scary word/ Lord I believe/But help my unbelief…


LORD I GIVE YOU MY HEART
Lyrics and Music by Reuben Morgan ©1995, Hillsongs Australia, US & Canada by Integrity's Hosanna! Music. Used by Permission.

This is my desire: to honor You.
Lord with all my heart I worship You.
All I have within me, I give You praise.
All that I adore is in You.
Lord I give You my heart,
I give You my soul, I live for You alone.
Every breath that I take,
Every moment I'm awake,
Lord have Your way in me.

SOVEREIGN HAND*
MUSIC AND LYRICS BY ABBI WALKER
THIS SONG CAME OUT OF ONE OF THE DEEPEST SEASONS OF STRUGGLE WITH THE LORD I HAVE EVER KNOWN. LIFE AND ALL MY CIRCUMSTANCES SEEMED TO DICTATE THAT GOD WAS IN FACT NOT FOR ME, BUT DEEP DOWN I ALSO KNEW HE WAS ONLY MY ONLY HOPE. I PRAY THIS SONG MINISTERS DEEPLY TO HEARTS THAT ARE STRUGGLING, THAT THEY MIGHT BE ENCOURAGED TO TRUST, DEEPLY, THE HAND OF THE ONE WHO CAUSES ALL TO WORK TOGETHER FOR OUR GOOD, FOR HIS PURPOSES. Romans 8:26

In this life/I've had hurts and pains/Wounds of my soul/I thought would never heal the same/So I took to healing myself/I thought there was no one else
The risk to love/cost me all that I had/What am I to do with this heart of mine?/It burns, it yearns, yet it must be blind/But oh to stay under Your Sovereign Hand/Would you help me to trust Your unseen plan?/Oh God of intimacy/how am I to trust again?/When I close these eyes/all I see is only lonliness ahead/Father give me eyes to see Your Face/Give me strength to walk just one more day… just one more day…/In Your hands You've taken this heart of mine/You've broken, healed, and made it wholly Thine/Now Your ways I can still not explain/But from this heart/From my heart… rings this claim/praise…

You're still worthy Jesus/You're still worthy oh my King/You're still worthy oh my Father/Of my everything/I will trust …

*ALL SONGS © BY ABBI WALKER MUSIC (BMI)

NEW CD BABY REVIEW!!!

just in case you didn't know, you can NOW buy the CD, yes the real deal- not just the digital "song by song" version through CD baby... just click the "buy now" button, or the visa/mastercard/paypal one... OR visit

http://cdbaby.com/cd/abbiwalker

ALSO, they wrote a new review for the album, "hope of a little green"... w hich is awesome because, this is a review written by unbelievers....

here it is!!!

"Expressively ambitious in both her musical craftsmanship and her
spiritual devotion, this is an artist who has created an album that
not only shuns all the common stereotypes associated with Christian
music, but does so in a way that is remarkably honest, personal, and
refreshingly unpretentious. Thematically, the lyrics unite through a
common bond of faith over the course of the 11 songs offered here, but
the musical styles are diverse, making this album tough to broadly
classify. It's from these varied approaches that these songs derive
their greatest strengths. Some tracks are slyly rooted in the blues,
while others lean towards the smoothness of soul or the subtle,
controlled twang of the poppier side of country. Her voice is up for
the challenge of carrying the weight of these stylistic switches, and
her lyrics follow suit just as appropriately. These are far from being
songs of blind faith. She seems more interested in searching for the
answers herself, and some of these tracks reflect both that quest and
the revelations that may or may not clearly follow. It's an
intelligent approach, and it's one that is sure to appeal to those who
are looking to broaden their horizons when it comes to spiritual
music."

Brad with CD BABY

i thought it was pretty stinking encouraging...

:)

abbi

"Offering" was written a little over a year ago...
in the middle of the recording process ...
i was worn out... scared out of my mind about anyone hearing anything I had written... especially "artistically".... and really just seeking "WHY" i would try such a thing... why on earth I felt God had called me to this.... what did I have to offer?
it is one thing to be a worship leader and sing and lead other people's songs... but it's a totally different ball game to approach a stage and open the door for people to see straight into your heart- to invite them into your struggles, your fears, your loves, hopes... into truly what is your most intimate place of worship...
thus, this song wasn't written for corporate worship at all... but rather as a confession of what the heart behind this entire album was...
it was a place of honest, true worship... vulnerable, real, and scary!!!

as a worship leader, you don't always "feel" like worshipping... you don't always feel super spiritual... rarely do i feel super spiritual to be honest... but worship is NOT a feeling... it is a choice to say, "
here in this place... with my feet planted right in the midst of these circumstances, relationships, and troubles- I choose to call out to to You, to call on You, and to bless You!"
worship isn't about imagining yourself into some really emotional place where you just "feel" love and adoration... it is an ascent... the Psalmist wrote "who may ascend the hill of the Lord".... we end in a different place than where we began... as we choose to focus our eyes, hearts, and minds on Him... not in blind emotionalism, but in conscious decision of the heart and will... we find ourselves in a different place... reminded so often of who He truly is, How much bigger He is than our circumstances, and with a more humble heart to trust the hand and heart of the One ordaining it all...
for those circumstances DO exist that we might seek Him.... always! My Dad has taught me my entire life... "the highest praises come from the deepest valleys"...

Thus, this came from that heart...

"This is my offering
No other one can bring
You are worthy of my praise
Right where I stand today
Though it be joy or pain
I will lift my voice and sing
(repeat)

Alle, Alle, Alle, Alleuia....
(repeat)

This is my offering
I bring it to You my King
You are worthy of all praise
Right where I stand today
Acknowledge Your sovereign ways
I will lift my voice and sing...

Alleluia, Alleluia... (repeat)"


Many people do not understand the incredible place that artistry should have in the life of the beliver... art, creativity, and expression are an overflow of what He is doing so personally in the artist, and it is a window... an invitation, to see Him in a new way... and to worship Him there as well...
May we worship always, from "right where we stand today"... and may He call us forth to a higher place in the ascent of knowing Him...
abbi

my life is such a strange collection of things... seriously, you have no idea... and just last night, while serving an interesting dinner of fish and macaroni and cheese to my youth kids, it hit me in a new way... (come on- you try and say "would you like some fish?" and not feel like you should be rockin a polyesther uni, some support hose, and a really sweet hairnet that ties at your eyebrows!!!)

Part A of my life:

i am a full-time, and i mean FULL TIME girls director for my youth group here in San Antonio... and what that translates into is really just "MOM" for about 60 kids... i order the pizza, i clean up the spills, i make sure they've eaten, i get onto them when they're acting like crazy little hellions in the church hallway... and i laugh... i laugh every day with the beautiful faces and lives God's so graciously allowed me to be a part of... i also have the awesome opportunity to love on them day in and day out... to speak into their lives, fight for them, pray for them, teach them, and i get to to hug them when they think no one else will...

Part B:

and then, when i have the opportunity, i get to go play music on the road... even if just for 20 minutes, i get to sit on a stage, play and sing my heart out to the One who called me to do so... i get to minister to students, parents, and other people in ministry... it's amazing... and i just can't ever get enough of it...

and then, there's this other "part" of music.. which is nothing short of awkward and hilarious to me... questions like... "will you sign my arm?" or "will you marry our youth minister?... or "can he take a picture with you?".... or my favoritie, "are YOU that lady who sings on stage?".... i regularly get embarressed for myself, as these things come up... and then i remember my youth kids at home... and how stinking grounded they keep me... and how ridiculously funny they would think it was to to see anyone... ANYONE asking me to sign anything that wasn't a permission slip...

never in my life have i felt so challenged... stretched... pulled... or blessed....

being grounded is beyond necessary for anyone in the ministry, or in any form of artistry... otherwise we forget who we are trying to connect to... :) and, though it is always a humbling and humorous form, i am so grateful God has placed it so strongly in my life....

i love you alamo city youth kids!

ab