Christmas isn't as exciting as it was when I was younger. But for somereason I can't wait till Christmas comes this year. O wait I know why, I can't wait to buy my daughter everything I can think of that will make her happy. When you have a child Christmas changes your whole perspective on life and Holidays. I think most Holidays were created for children because they're the ones who enjoy it the most and now I see why parents try to sooo much for their children on the holidays; Just to see them smile! My whole life has changed and everything is sooo different for me now. Everything that I think about isn't about me anymore it's about what is best for her and my family. Thats why I'm getting my GED and hopefully going to college to make a better life for myself and my daughter.

I wish I never had to work and I could stay at home with my daughter all day!!!! But because life is shitty and everything revolvez around money everybody has to work their ass off just to make a little money to live!!! The only way you can get anywhere in life is to go to college and get some amazing degree that provez you can do a job!!! Nobody can go for their dream anymore cauz it'z all about money and alot of people dreamz don't really make money not unless their famous.

I'm so sick of the way the world is. Some day this world is going to become hell and money ain't gonna mean shit!! Only the strong and the less sinful will live when judgement day comez. How much do you think it takez for someone to really go to hell? I don't think anyone really knowz but all I know is that I don't go out of my way to hurt anybody I just try to help and do whatz right. So I think I'm ok.