In the rain that afternoon our eyes met again.  It's been quite some time since I have seen the beauty of them, and quite some time since I have been speechless.  As I tripped over every word my heart realized how much I had missed you. Your smile, your persona, and all the funny things you do, I have missed for so long. I have grown to change since I fell in love with you. I have a wonderful boyfriend, two kids, and I am quite the head case now. That day it rained your hair, I begged you so long ago to grow, drove me nuts. Gosh I just wanted to say so much, but i couldn't bring myself to mess up what I have now. I feel so unaccomplished now that I won't see you again for a year or so. Nevertheless I have no guilt in walking away with a heart full of friendly memories and smiles. Thank you (and you know who you are) for sheltering me when i was homeless, Thank you for being a friend when I needed you most, and mostly Thanks for being you all these years. I will Miss you Eeore!!!

There u sit same yesterday and days since past

I want to grasp ur hand

Lead you to the back room

Tug ur hair

Whisper u name softly

Again loudly

Demanding u put it on me

1st slowly

Faster

Faster

Harder...

Till finally...

BLISS

day by day  as time grows faster

i lie here lost in thought

wondering what might have been.

i miss you stern stare

your devious sarcasim

i miss you papi

ive counted the days youve been gone

anticipated the day we will meet once again

ive ponder what it will be like...

what will you look like

have you aged at all

wings???

dressed in white?

i miss you papi

youve been missed by many

for so long now

we all cant wait to chill again

to sit and remeneis

of what was

what became

and create whats to come

we've missed you papi...

"To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world!"

father i killed my monkey
i let it out
to taste the sweet of spring
wonder if i will wander out
test my tether to
see if i'm still free
from you

steady as it comes
right down
to you
i've said it all
so maybe we're a bliss
of another kind

lately, i'm into circuitry
what it means to be
made of you but not enough for you
and i wonder if
you can bilocate is that what i taste
your supernova juice
you know it's true i'm part of you

steady as it comes
right down to you
i've said it all

so maybe you're a 4 horse engine
with a power drive
a hot kachina who wants into mine
take it with your terracide

we're a bliss
of another kind

 ~Tori Amos~

"I've been beaten by the blood of the law,

Raped by Temptation, and

Slaughtered by my Soul"

Take me down

Turn me away

Feel my pain

Touch my day

Kiss my lips

See my torment

Smell my fragrance

Hear my scream

    ~There are things inside

                 Hidden and Unseen~

 

Lines and Stars of Freedom

That's what "They" say they mean

Lines and Stars of  Theft

That's what they are to me

"Beyond these Walls of Shadow

My soul awaits freedom"

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