i just wanna be myself... i wanna be loved... & i'm tired of feeling alone. It's been hard... to search for God even when i know he's here... but i need to keep searching for his warmth so i am not cold... God is amazing... & all i should need is his presence & promise... i  don't wanna drink anymore... i don't wanna smoke anymore... i want to reshape my vocabulary so it pleases my king... i just wanna feel alive & be free...  i don't want to feel empty while being in anothers arms... i don't want to rely on a man to feel beautiful when God thinks that i am... I pray that God shapes my heart & soul to work for him in the rest of my days... & I pray God forgives those who would judge me... he is my best friend & always has been... my relationship with God is such a gift & it's becoming so strong... I am alive because of him... & I am so thankful............ because Jesus is my best friend... my confidant... & my king... & i love God above everything....
xox
Amen

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Where should my girlfriends & I stay in Manhattan that's cheap & safer... but that is near the action... any suggestions for things or to do's out there... my first time in New York. I used to live in Pennsylvania but never made it there... alrighty then... so give me suggestions please... ;) xoxo smooch selene

…Estranged Asylum… ================== ... Estranged Asylum ... ... languish ... reprise ... solidifying vaporous gasps ... with vibrations of lunacy ... ... insolent ... sanctions ... wardens of reproach ... saturate surreal delusions ... ... tentacles of tyranny ... hold me ... ... Syringed Euphoria ... ... gripping ... prodding ... medicating dreams of escape ... lying on steel beds ... ... starving ... injustice ... becoming my sanctuary ... embracing physical intrusions ... ... a silent soliloquy ... set free ... Selene Snapp 12/8/01 Thanks for stopping by...

Flow Like Water… Born under the name of Shinnosuke in Mikage, Hyogo on October 28th , 1860 was a brother of three; later to be called Jigaro Kano. At the age of 11 he entered a private school in Tokyo where he received training from Keido Ubukata in Martial Arts. 2 years later Dr. Jigaro Kano entered into training from Native English & German teachers at a private school in Tokyo as well. He studied Foreign Languages along with Martial Arts & taught throughout his years as a student & mentor. In 1877 when he was 17 he received his first lesson at Tenshin Shin-yo in Jujitsu by Hachinosuke Fukuda. In 1881 he graduated from the University he attended; where he studied & received Degrees in Literature, Politics, & Political Economy… just a few of his studies. In 1882 he founded the Kodokan where he taught to students the form he developed… Judo… derived from Jujitsu. In 1886 he was appointed vice principle of Gakushuin; 3 years later he resigned to take on more demanding responsibilities. He then Became prnciple of a Higher school in Kumamoto & in 1889 he traveled Europe doing studies of Education for the Imperial Household Department. Then again became principle of another school in Tokyo & again thereafter at other schools within that area. In 1908 he signed a bill that would allow middle schools to teach Gekiken swordsmanship to their students. He was the first Japanese member of the International Olympic Committee. Dr. Jigaro Kano attended the Olympic Games in Amsterdam as a member of the Committee. Angel’s Will Go Where They Are Needed… A decade or so after the games in the Olympics he did some extensive traveling… to Cairo for the Olympic Games out there. When he was there he proposed that Tokyo be the next destination for the 12th Olympic Games. Dr. Jigaro Kano’s last teachings was this… Judo is the most efficient way to use one’s mental & physical strength in unity. By doing this one should be able to discipline & cultivate one’s body & spirit through practice of offensive & defensive techniques… & that each are as important. Therefor rendering the body for personal benefits & perfection… this is a way to master oneself… Before Dr. Jigaro Kano could return to his home land… he died… at sea… on May 4th. A sad loss… a divine man amongst many men… & an Angel in Disguise… by: Selene Snapp I hope you enjoyed this. My Shi-han sensei was taught by Reesie Kano, Dr. Jigaro Kano's son, so I found this a great opporitunity when my sensei's asked me to write about 2 founding martial artists...

What the hell is wrong with some people for fuck sakes...? I haven't posted any pictures with my asshole winking at the camera... nor any perverse images... I post pics with weapons & such... & I still get messages from idiots saying "so you must like to suck n fuck... what's up" & "could you send me a naked pic of you you look hot"... etc... ummm lemmee just say this now.... FUCK NO FUCKBAGS... eek gads man... I am glad I don't have to hear these things in person... I would have to kick the shit outa these dunglicks... anywhoooo... flattery will get you a long way... just make sure you flatter someone in a way they can be receptive to it... *sigh*... poor lil silly boys... be a man!!! ummm like thanks n stuff for listening to the ramblings of my mind... -selene snapp www.TriBallistic.com

OPENING MY EYE…….. ~ 3 ~ ======================== What speaks to me in my voice? “ Rejoice! “ Why…. I try to be who I am, but why…. I cry…. I feel too strong the pain I see, And hated you for being me…. I died…. So many times before you came…. I lied. I dreamed of things that came to be; The things I dreamed were scaring me. “ Don’t hide! “ What do I have to tell myself that cannot wait? “ Rejoice! “ I sighed…. My voice then said “ Start being me; I’m buried….” “ Inside. “ “ Don’t worry what they say or do their sorrow’s not for you…. “ “ Confide….” “ With script you’ll say what their lips could not. “ “ Have pride…. “ “ Within myself; behind my lids; you will see…. “ “ My Eye. “ “ Don’t hide! “ ~ Selene Snapp ~ 10-13-00

*sigh* I dunno what I would do if I didn't have a sister like mine... to me she's a lil pshycho, but brilliant I say... scary, but sexy... irritating yet intriguing... vicious and vibrant... she is yin & yang... I love the yin at the same time wanna shudo chop the yang... *sigh* but she is a genius ... if it wasn't for her I dunno where I would be right now... or if I would be... anywhooo... she rocks... just the ramblings of my mind... xoxoxoxo -Selene

I don't understand it... the last couple times I was out in the desert or forest or creek... I hadn't found any skeletal remains from any creatures... what all of a sudden things stopped dying??? *sigh* I gave 'her' my Goat's skull for her birthday... but did she really appreciate it? I doubt it... took it for granted I suppose like everything else in her world... so sad really; exquisitely beautiful... a girl gets everything handed to her... she excretes on the silver platter & shoves it back in your face... of coarse the platter is empty... anywhooo... my main point is.................. wasted remains................... thanks for listening to the ramblings of my mind... Selene