After awhile I've begun to notice things that I don't want to notice. What I mean to say is my own flaws. Things I've known for years but I've never acknowledged. Things that have been my character flaws for years and things that I have hated to see in other people. These things that have destroyed relationships, and these things that have constructed more hardships. These are things I know how to fix in others, but things that I have not fixed in myself.

   I could tell you exactly what you need to do in order to make yourself happy, but, I can never figure out to how to make myself smile. I can criticize your laziness all day long, and tell you it's your fault  that your not committing to what needs to be done, but I'm not showing up to class because I'm tired. I can tell you everything is a piece of cake once you set your mind to it, but I myself complain about having to go to work and commit to a job. I can tell you to save money and buy what you need, but every Friday I go out and drop my check before it ever hits the bank. I can tell you honesty is a virtue and that you need to be straightforward, but I am a master at the craft that is deceit. I can tell you to be selfless and do good deeds unto others, but I always look out for my selfish desires and trivial pleasures first.

   Self realization is a harsh road, because I have no one to finger as the villain other than myself. It's like a bad dream that I don't get to wake up from, but I still have the chance to reshape my future and amend my past. As I think of a way to wrap this up my ego is all inflated. It shouldn't be, these are things that need to be done. I can't feel accomplishment for something that should've been fixed a long time ago.

Our love for each other is not something that can be defined with words. Emotions are the only thing that could help someone outside of our union understand what we feel for one another. Too bad that trade can only be done between us. Even in the midst of our conflict there is nothing but love in our insubstantial insults. While at times I think our love might seem a little macabre to others I know that between us it could be no other way. You're my voodoo woman and I'm your hellspawn angel. Walking through the graveyard at night holding hands and kissing on cracked tombstones is our idea of romantic. Sneaking around the mausoleums and making out on tombs is our idea of naughty. There can be no one out there better for me than you. The pair of us, pistol-toting lovebirds being together embracing the moments we have together until we move on into the next realm of existence. Sex addicts for each other and only one another is the way love ought to be and goddamn it that's the way it is between you and me. Your lips are mine and mine are yours. I love you so much I can listen to your silence. I love you so much that even with my eyes closed I can see your beauty. I love you so much I can conjure your taste days after our lips have kissed.  I love you so much nature reminds me of your scent. Other romantics would say love is a vibrant color. Our love is a paradox then, a brilliant darkness. Baby, darling Simone, I wouldn't have it any other way.

Did God create everything that exist? Does evil exist? Did God create evil?
A University professor at a well known institution of higher learning challenged his students with this question. "Did God create everything that exists?"
A student bravely replied, "Yes he did!"
"God created everything?" The professor asked.
"Yes sir, he certainly did," the student replied.
The professor answered, "If God created everything; then God created evil And, since evil exists, & according to the principle that our works define who we are, then we can assume God is evil."
The student became quiet & did not respond to the professor's hypothetical
definition. The professor, quite pleased with himself, boasted to the students that he had proven once more that the religious faith was a myth.
Another student raised his hand & said, "May I ask you a question, professor?"
"Of course," replied the professor.
The student stood up and asked, "Professor, does cold exist?"
"What kind of question is this? Of course it exists. Have you never been cold?"
The other students snickered at the young man's question. The young man replied, "In fact sir, cold does not exist. According to the laws of physics, what we consider cold is in reality the absence of heat. Everybody or object is susceptible to study when it has or transmits energy, & heat is what makes a body or matter have or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-460F) is the total absence of heat; & all matter becomes inert & incapable of reaction at that temperature. Cold does not exist. We
have created this word to describe how we feel if we have no heat."
The student continued, "Professor, does darkness exist?"
The professor responded, "Of course it does."
The student replied , "Once again you are wrong, darkness does not exist either. Darkness is in reality the absence of light. Light we can study, but not darkness. In fact, we can use Newton's prism to break white light into many colors & study the various wave lengths of each color. You cannot measure darkness. A simple ray of light can break into a world of darkness & illuminate it. How can you know how dark a certain space is?
You measure the amount of light present. Isn't this correct?
Darkness is a term used by man to describe what happens when there is no light present."
Finally the young man asked the professor, "Sir, does evil exist?"
Now uncertain, the professor responded, "Of course, as I have already said. We see it everyday. It is in the daily examples of man's inhumanity to man. It is in the multitude of crime & violence everywhere in the world. These manifestations are nothing else but evil.
To this the student replied, "Evil does not exist, sir, or at least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God. It is just like darkness &cold, a word that man has created to describe the absence of God. God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold that comes when there is no heat, or the darkness that comes when there is no light."
The professor sat down.
The student's name--Albert Einstein