Made this with cheap software.  Personally, I think it works.

Updates: I added two new songs, "Shimmer" and "Snake I Love".  Listen to them, enjoy them, hate them, whatever.  I don't care.  I like them.

I still need a guitarist and a programmer so I can do live shows by the end of this year (if I'm lucky).  Finding a venue might be a bitch because this town is infested by bad indie bands and that's what everyone wants to see.  I just like the stage.

Rant: I tried adding an artist I really enjoy as a friend, but they didn't accept adds from bands.  No biggie.  So I tried sending a message.  It was one of those "Hey, I can't add you, but I thought I'd let you know I really enjoy your music" messages.  Well damn it, I couldn't because the only people who can send this artist messages are other friends. 

I'm not blaming the artist for this.  I'm blaming the fucking spammers.  I understand being one artist trying to reach out to another artist that you admire.  It's nice to be able to pay your respects to the bigger guys out there while possibly making an actual friend out of them, and hey, maybe if you're lucky, one of the other bigger guys out there might see you and say "Hey, I like them!"  If not, the world keeps going around.  What I FUCKING HATE is when I go on an artists page and I see their comments section littered with "Hey if you like (insert known band) then come check out (unknown band)!  They rock!".  Shameless self promotion won't get you anywhere if you're obnoxious about it.

There's one artist I have listed as a friend that is probably one of my biggest influences.  I really enjoy talking to her when I feel I have something relevant to say, and I'm very thankful she replies to the messages I send when she can because 1. Holy shit, that's cool.  Someone I've been a fan of for nearly a decade is talking to little ol' me! and 2. I genuinely like her as a person (though we've only spoken via internet).  Maybe I'm not doing a very good job at promoting myself, but I'm enough of a jerk in real-life.  Why should I be more of one on the internt? (isn't it supposed to be the other way around?  Eh...)

Anyway, that's all.  I should go to bed.  I have to clean and stuff.  Shit, it's never over.

I finally wrote lyrics to the song "Sadist".. sort of.  I more of less made them up on the spot, but if anyone's wondering, yes, the whole song is about killing and enjoying it...not that I'd now of course, heh heh *nervous laughter*

Also, once I pry my MP3 player off of my head, I'll upload the other new track if myspace lets me.  It's called "Naja Naja"and it's intended for snakes, not people... kind of like the Dethklock album "Dethwater" was intended for fish... but it's 10 minutes long, and I don't have my editing equipment at the moment, so I can't degrade the quality here.  It might be too big.  Oh well, I can put it on Snocap and you lovely people can spend $.99 on it!  HAH!

Love, Me

SHIT COCK!

That's all.

I found a new weakness: FALLOUT 3.  I've been playing it non-stop.  It's a great way to get those evil, homocidal tendencies out of the way without actually breaking any laws AND I get the added perk of living in a post-apocolyptic wasteland.  The only downside is that lately, all my dreams have been either Fallout related or had that "feel" to it.

Snakes get fed tomorrow... er, later today.  Also taking sister out for food and possibly a birthday present, but that's up in the air.

My best friend, I fear, is turning into one of those "it's because of .. that I can't .." people.

I think my grandparents threw away my sracha sauce.  Damn them!  That's the only thing that makes Ramen good! >=(

My knee is scraped from a Blue Long Island and god only knows what else... don't ask.

I just watched "Encounters with the Unknown" on Netflix instant and I knew I'd scene it before, and then it hit me.  I was 7 and living in Norton, MA what I watched that, though I didn't remember the story of the hole in the ground.  Honestly, that movie could've easily been three separate episodes of "The Twilight Zone" and been a hell of a lot more marketable.

I blew up my TV earlier trying to watch on-deman Asian horror movies.  I guess my TV hates Japan.  Serves them right for their weird vending machines!

The title says it all.  I screwed myself out of getting the attention of any of the local goth kids for basically telling them all to suck it and that I was tired of being on their D-list.  The band?  No, I mean ME PERSONALLY!  And I meant it, too.  All of you elitist bullshitters can go CLIMB A WALL OF DICKS! 

I'm a dick and an asshole.  I'm not a bitch.  There's a difference.  I might be a cunt, too, but if I'm willing to get that written in big purple letters on the back of my leather jacket, I don't really think it would offend me too much.

I'm kind of tired of being nice to people who don't give me the time of day or being nice to people who smother me with false affection.  I would rather have no one in all honesty.  There are very few people in this town I still like (Alex, Megan, David to name a few) and an even smaller amount of you online-only folks (Tara...er, that seems to be about it). 

Damn, I feel pissy.  I wish I hadn't set the damn alarm.

http://www.classifieds.myspace.com/bounce_redir/?l...

If you know anyone who would be interested, please pass this on.

I re-re-re-recorded "My Heart".  I put a lot of myself into that song, and what it means to me was too much to have a crappy version up for the public and especially for the person who it's dedicated to but will most likely never hear.  It's pitch has been brought down two notches and the vocals are a tad bit more deciferable.

Also, I will be recruiting one guitarist, a button-pusher, and maybe a drummer.  I like doing the electronic stuff, but I definately want more substance.  Plus, doing a "one-lady" show would be boring for the audience, even though I'll only have 3 people there most likely (love my optimism, right?)  I have the upper hand over a one-man show because more people would usually rather look at hot girl on stage than moderately attractive guy (and don't you love my ego?) but still.  So before I put the ads up on myspace, facebook, and craigslist, if anyone plays instruments, please send me a message and let me know if you are interested.  For my potential guitarist, you will have a large portion of creative control of you instrument considering I aprove.  If you don't suck, I'll probably aprove.  Drums, almost the same deal.  Got to work out the electronic kits though. 

Anyway, leave feedback if you wish.  I'll try not to do anything too crazy over the next couple of weeks, like take a lethal dose of narcotics and alcohol and slit my wrists in a bathtub without taking a picture to use for an album cover.

That was a joke by the way.  One in poor taste, but a joke none the less.

Much Love,
Me