Life has been on this crazy trip lately.

It's a new dawn

The clock strikes it late
And you're sleep deprived
Keep your eyes open though
You never know when you'll come alive
When something changes
When that smile creeps across your face
But right now you're just a little broken
Lost in your ridiculous state
So confused by how you feel
Nothing like what others think
It's all about what you're afraid to lose
Not what you've already had and lost
This wouldn't be the first time
But you're stronger now
Prepared for the moment when the lights go out
And you feel yourself crashing down
Falling into pieces across the floor
Hoping the convulsions will die out
But this isn't what they think it is
No, not this time it isn't
You've still got a hold of it
That one strong bond that you wish will never fade
It may not be what it used to
It may not be the same
But in the hour of salvation
You're only looking for the hand to help you find your way

Sometimes you just need to say something. You just need to let it out. It's not healthy to keep things bottled up inside. But what if it's a good thing you're hiding? Then, by all means, share it with someone. Share it with the world.

Sometimes people need to know they're loved. It's in our nature. Sometimes they just need to hear something nice about them. It's even so much better when you believe it's actually true. I never hesitate to remind someone I care about, that I care about them. Everyone likes to know that someone out there sees their good deeds, whether they are intentional or not. Someone needs to know they're amazing to someone. And someone needs to know that when they're told they're amazing, it's actually true.

I didn't use names for a reason. If you think I'm talking about you, maybe I am. I refuse to burst your bubble about it. I want you to be happy. But if it's killing you about one you just can't figure out, then ask me who it is. I may just tell you.



One. You are one of the most admirable people I know, whether you know it or not. And whether you believe it or not. Sure, you don't always make the best choices, but you're human. Yeah, I don't always agree with you, but that's what makes us different. And that's why I admire you so much. Because no matter what, you're always going to be yourself. And not matter what, you're always going to do what you feel is right. How could I ever condemn you for that? How could anyone? Some day you'll make a huge difference. You'll change lives. And I know that's really all you need in life to feel like you've lived for a real purpose. That's inspiring.

Two. You deserve more than you've been given, even if I'm the only human being who will ever believe so. You're not always the person I should want to see or hear, but that never stops me. There's just something about you that could change it all in the blink of an eye. I envy that in you. It's a gift, it really is. The power to be so uplifting to someone. You've given me hope that no matter how dark the day is, there will always be blue skies out there somewhere. The grass will always be greener on the other side. And there will be a silver lining. You give me hope like no one else can.

Three. You are not a doormat. You are a human being. You've changed my life. You're like a savior in a life that was in desperate need of guidance. You are a beautiful soul and the way you see the world is admirable in every way. I just hope some day I wont be one of the few that see the real beauty in everything you do, in everything you are. I want to be one of the many. You move me, like beautiful music. I just hope some day, everyone will be able to hear your song.

Four. I want only happiness for you. You give me a reason to keep trusting people, even when I see how many times your own trust has backfired. You give me hope there are more people like you. More people who are honest and good, and deserve truth. You deserve reasons to smile. You never fail to make me smile. I only wish for you to know that. To have joy in life, and to be rid of those who bring you down. You deserve much more than what you've been dealt. Keep smiling for yourself, and know I'll always be smiling for you.

Five. You are the calm surface of the water, and the push that breaks through to the inside. I wish everyone saw what I can see. More than just a mirror of people's words and stories, you're not just the cover of a book, you're a multi-volume text. I wish others could read your story and no there's more than meets the eye. Maybe I've never read the entire book. But I've read enough chapters to know you deserve better. You're a good person, in every bit of the word. Some day the rest of the world will see it too. I miss the way things were, ages ago. When I could still call you close. But who knows if that will happen again? Everything still has an undertermined future.

Six. You are a genuinely good soul. So rare to find, these days. I admire you so much for that. I try to be nice, but it's not a specialty of mine. Something about that for you just comes off so second-nature. I wish for people not to step on you, but to hug you, love you, and appreciate you. For everything you've been for them, for all you are, and for everything I know you will continue to be. You're amazing, in every sense of the word. I hope your ability to be so kind anf sweet and compassionate to so many rubs off on those who aren't like you. You're going to change the world, one stone-cold heart at a time.

Everyone's in bed
And the time hits right
Sneak out the front door
You're quite the sight for sore eyes
Missing all those late night drives
And the laughs and the craziness
Those were the good old days
Boy, we really had something going right
'Upset' wasn't in my vocabulary
And happiness was more than just a myth
Who cares if we wound up tired as hell
All those nights we felt alive
A smile that could save my world
And I could see it all in your eyes
That was all I needed, back then
Just those moments and those nights

Wandering through the sand
Each grain like the time
Slipping from an hour glass
Wondering where the lines fade
From too much to not enough
Or if they even exist at all
It's lonely here, in my barren wasteland
My sea of time and fallen sand
When do the hours slip away
And leave us where we thought we started
A sea of lost, lonely, empty souls
All of whom have soon departed
This is where I stand today
Waiting for my ship to sail
The captain of the crew to take my hand
Pull me aboard and leave time behind
Where there is never too much
Because too much is never enough
But for now I walk this barren wasteland
And I'll take your passing with a grain of sand

I wish I could explain
The hold you have on me
Like a vice grip around my heart
But it's not suffocating, it's electrifying
If I could taste every touch
It'd be like the purest sugar
Sweet and delicious
And mine for the taking
If I could feel every thought
I know you think when our eyes meet
I bet it'd feel like the finest silk
Soft and smooth and beautiful
I lose my mind in those shining eyes
Green, gray, and reflecting it all
Everything you feel
Everything you don't say, I hear
With every beat of your heart
When my head is pressed against your chest
Every breath you take
Breathing so even, in and out
It's all enough to drive me crazy
Like a drug I'm not ashamed of
The one I'd gladly be addicted to
You're my intoxication
I'm hooked on you

That's all you've got
The heat of your anger
Thrashing through your veins
The whiplash of your temper
Tearing through the dirt and rain
All you ever do is drink
Try to drown out all your issues
Waste what you've got on pointless objects
Things that never solve anything
Keep trying though
Someday you might wear down
Someone other than yourself
Just keep yelling and screaming
I hope one day someone puts you in your place
Go back to the boondocks
You do nothing here but take up space

Here I am in this place again
Taking up all this space again
Crawling, breathing into the wind
Searching for a means to an end
Stuck here in this mental prison
A direction I've only led myself in
Mind racing, pulsating again
Thinking hard, decision after decision
I'm at a crossroads, don't like where I'm headed
My world shaking as I try to get steady
Body convulsing and another headache
Set off on foot and hope that I'm ready
Know what I want and I'm trying to take it
But it's increasingly difficult when it's faded
Distraction a blur, and everything's jaded
Headed for salvation, just hope I can make it

Deception in the form
Of some fallen angel's smile
Like the calm before a storm
You wish it'd stay a while
Waiting in the quiet
You're silent through the night
Inside you feel the riot
Of a love that's losing sight
Emotion surges like the sea
Tearing you apart
So many things you want to be
Hope for another start
Your breathing speeds up pace
As your mind begins to think
Of all the lonely, empty space
Different scene in every blink
An image of that angel's face
So genuine it seems
Making your heart pound and race
In more than just your dreams

Tell me what's on your mind when the dark hits
That smile creeps across your face and the mood fits
Everything is feeling right as the room's lit
Don't want to leave yet, just wait a little bit
Hear my heartbeat in my head beating louder
Feels like we're losing every second by the hour
We're radiating all the passion and the power
A life of love so sweet and sour
There's so much time around to waste
When all I wanted was a taste
Our eyes are locked and our fingers laced
While every line and every curve is traced
Don't turn the light on, not just yet
Don't watch the time when the mood is set
Just stay with me, soft silhouette
As wonderful as the day we met
Just laying there beside you in the dark
Something grew from that little spark
You touched my heart and left a mark
A journey waiting to embark

You hide the fear with pretty lies
Behind that little crooked smile
Hoping that the many times
You tell yourself you're fine
That one of these days
You'll actually start to believe it
Deep down we're all terrified
But there's an excitement that shows through
You look so calm on the surface
But inside your nerves are like the stormy sea
Time is running out
So let yourself catch your breath
Nothing has to be forever
So when you get tired of running
When you're tired of searching for yourself
Turn around
One of these days
You'll miss what you left behind

The warmth circled by the ceiling fan
Is almost too familiar in the morning sun
With nothing aloud but the sound of
Your even breathing, in and out
I lay beside you without a sound
You look so peaceful while you sleep
Skin soft and warm and sweet
Fingers gently tracing every line
Watching you wake up to me
Counting down the hours of the days
Until I'm what you wake up to every morning
Waiting so impatiently
To be all you see before you fall asleep
Every touch lingers heavy on my fingers
The texture of your messy hair
The smoothness of your sweetened skin
The taste emanating from delicate lips
Another soft memory to leave on repeat