Well, i was up with Serenity until about 7-7:30 and i was laying down in bed after she went to sleep i was just about to fall asleep around8 i think when the power went out for a litte bit then came back on well i had a fan on the floor blowing at me and i am just laying there fixing to sleep when all of a sudden my fan starts blowing water at me!!!!!! So i turn the light on and there is water everywhere so i wake cody up and we go get my mom up, the water was up to about my calf amd it was pouring in the back door so we called my sister and her and her husband came down and got me and Serenity just in case it got worse, and later cody came down my mom is still there trying to clean up all the water is out of the house now and the yard is not flooded anymore, fox 23 came down and interviewed my mom about it. i have never seen it that bad as long as we have lived there it is insane most of elliott was flooded people had to abadon there cars a mustang had water all the way up to the windows. Well. i will write more later

So i am 4 months as of monday and Oct 24th i will get to find out if i am having a boy or girl!!I am so excited!! I have 5 months left, i still need help with some names so here is an updated list:

Girls: Baylee, Braylin Grace, Brayden, Brooke, Carabella, Cassie, Catalina, Mariah, Sarafina Rayne, Serenity Faith, Emily Faye

Boys: Aden, Bryce, Bryson, Caleb, Cameron, Cayden, Chance, Christopher Scott, Colton Lee, Connor, Zac, Kristopher Kade.

These are the names i like, so far my top two fav for a girl is Sarafina Rayne, and Serenity Faith, tell me which ones you like and if u have any to add leave a comment still not sure on a boy name yet need help with middle names there so let me know wat u think k thank you!! i will let u know what i am having when i find out!! Talk to you later!!

AMANDA!!!!

So i am sitting here its 5 in the morning i cant sleep at all cause i cant stop thinking about the greatest guy ever! He gave me another chance and i know i didnt deserve it after the way i treated him and wat i did but the past couple of days i realized how much i needed him in my life and how much i love him and i dont want to live without him i told him that and he gave me another chance and i am so grateful that he did i dont know wat i will do if i lose him again which i hope that dosent happen ever... thats all for now

love always

amanda bertrand

so im sitting here and thinking i graduate in 3 months and i dont know wat im going to do after that my cousin wants me to live with him in tulsa and i have someone else wanting me to move to arizona with him, i dont know what to do im so confused and i have so much going through my head.....maybe its because i can never really trust guys cause of everything that has happened and im scared of what might happen.............it scares me alot when i think about it you know its just diffrent. If you didnt know i got a new baby nephew he is a cutie, and then there is Libby and Chase i love them all......gosh im so confused about all of this i want to do one thing but then i dont....and sometimes i think i have it all figured out and then i realize i dont.....and i dont always turn to God with it either. which brings me to something else i want to apologize to all the guys i have ever hurt and didnt mean to i played with your emotions and im sorry (Chris, Khyle) i am sorry you guys are great and i know Khyle you cheated on me but i didnt have to say the things i did and Chris i broke up with you because i was confused and didnt know what i wanted and i still dont but i realized how much i hurt you all. thanks to alan i read his blog and he was apologizing to all the girls he had hurt and it got me thinking we all hurt ppl in our life and may never see them again and we are not promised our next minute of life so why go threw life tearing ppl down when we should lift them up like God wants us to if any of you guys dont forgive me i understand...........

thanks

amanda bertrand!!