It’s been a while since my last written blog. I have been thinking about many things since then. I am currently reading a book called “Epicenter: Why the Current Rumblings in the Middle East Will Change Your Future”. So, naturally, I have been thinking about Iran, and Russia, and Islam, and, of course, Israel. I wholeheartedly support Israel’s right to exist UNDIVIDED, but that does not mean that I am anti-Arab. I am not. If you are reading this and you are Jewish or Arab…I love you both. As a result of those ponderings, I have been thinking about the return of my Lord. Am I ready for His return? As far as salvation goes, yes, I am ready. I know where I will spend eternity. But am I ready to stand face to face with Him? If He were to return tonight, would my present conduct and behavior and spiritual state make me ashamed to be seen by Him? Or would I be confident that my life and heart is pleasing to Him? I think that I would be ashamed.
I have also been thinking about the music God has given me. What should I be doing with it? Where should I be taking it? When I am given the opportunity to stand on a stage in front of people, what message does God want me to convey? Have I been wasting time? Taking it too lightly?
On a more positive note, I have been thinking about how blessed I am to have the people in my life that I do. I have thought how wonderful it is to know that everyone in my family knows the Lord, and how horrible it must be to know that someone you love dearly is lost. I have thought about how wonderful my parents are. They have loved me from day one, even when I put them through H- E- double L, and continue to do so. And how wonderful my only sibling, my sister, Allison, is. We were always close growing up…slept in the same bed until she went to college. I remember moving into a house where we finally got our own separate rooms and our own separate beds and tried sleeping apart….but it didn’t last long.
I have been thinking about how it probably isn’t in God’s plan for me to have my own children, and that is why he gave 3 amazing angels to my sister, and in turn, to me. I know, as much as I possibly can, what it feels like to love a child with a mother’s love. I have my sister to thank for that….for letting me experience that with her children. I guess I have to thank my brother-in-law, Shon, as well. He did play a small part in their existence, after all. Shon accepted Christ around the same time I did. He was in the theater with me when I accepted Him. That movie changed more than one life that night. We were even baptized on the same day. I have never told him, but that was a special day for me. We were both raised into newness of life only minutes apart. It was special to share that same experience with someone you care for.
I am also blessed to have such a good friend, which I have discovered are few and far between. Her name is Naomi. She was there the day I was baptized. We had met only a few months before that day. But I remember stepping out of the water and she was there waiting with a towel. I am a blessed woman. An undeserving woman. My life is truly a testament to how gracious and forgiving God is. His name is Faithful and True. Do you know Him?
And these are just a few of my ponderings…..
Thanks for reading.
Joy