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Gender: Female
Status: Single
Age: 30
Sign: Capricorn

State: Ohio
Country: US
Signup Date: 9/23/2005

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Friday, June 26, 2009 

Current mood:  frustrated
Do you ever feel scattered?  Like you can not focus?  Like your mind won't shut up?  I feel like that all the time.  Every time I try to concentrate I feel distracted.  I could be in a room completely silent and bare and still be distracted.  I have no ability to concentrate.  It is getting worse. 

I am a writer, so most of my day is spent focusing and writing, but with this damn concentration issue I can barely get anything done.  It takes me 12 hours to write things that should take me 3 hours.  It is crazy.

Not sure what to do.  It may be the constant Pepsi feeding into my blood stream.  I keep saying I am switching to caffeine free.  I should give it a try. 

I really should be working.  Perhaps it is the topics I have to write about.  They are boring.  I really have a hard time when there is not a lot of research information to go off.  When I have to come up with stuff all on my own I'd rather play a game online or just stare into space instead of write the damn article. 

I am frustrated.  Work sucks! 
5:51 PM 
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Tuesday, January 20, 2009 
I was not an Obama supporter, but I am a firm believer in backing the president no matter whether you voted for him or not.  It is a difficult job and anyone who takes it on is a strong person.  That includes George W Bush.  I was pretty horrified to hear the crowds at the white house today were booing him as he showed up at the inauguration.
 
Thank God those ignorant people will never be president and thank God that Obama is not ignorant like them.  Maybe he put on a show for the cameras so not to seem like an ass, but my gut tells me he despite the riff with the ex-president, Obama is a sincere guy and when hugged him I do not doubt it was real. 
It is sad that Hollywood and the media have to keep bringing Bush down.  He did, after all, deal with the largest terrorist attack this country had seen not even a year into his presidency.  The president does not run the country alone.  Obama, Clinton and all the others in Washington held power these last 8 years, too.
 
We, the people, really had no clue what was really happening.  We didn't have the same information they did and so we CAN NOT judge the decisions made.
As for the economy - if you care to listen to all the sides of the story it was already tanking before Bush took office and a terrorist attack is not exactly a good thing for the economy. 
So, hate Bush, blame Bush, boo him if you will, but in the end your ignorant ass is never going to be president.  At least Obama has a good head on his shoulders.
I don't think he will be the savior all his "people" see him to be and I will not join the Obama cult following.  However, I will be respectful because he is my president too now.  I will watch his mistakes and I may say I told you so, but I won't boo him or be ignorant about my viewpoints.
The one thing I hate most about people is ignorance.  I am hopeful that with Obama's presidency that some of the ignorance in this damn country may be wiped out.
 
I wish President Obama all the luck and I hope he doesn't turn out like all the other presidents and at the end of his term look like hell warmed over -lol. 
 
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Saturday, January 10, 2009 

Current mood:  bummed
Category: Life

I’m a writer so it is natural that when I am feeling something or I need to deal with something that I write about it.  I do it all the time on here and this blog has become my place to share my thoughts and just be me.  I am pretty thankful for it because sometimes I have no other way to express myself.  I am alone most of the time without adults to converse with.  My friends have their own lives and their own problems to deal with so going to them is not always an option.  However, my computer is always here and always willing to let me spill my guts.

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Turning 30 is not the end of the world, but it sure feels like it.  It seems every year my life gets worse.  After 30 years I feel like I’ve lived through so much already that I dread what it is to come.  Granted that the first 18 years of life are pretty much about learning and in looking back I shouldn’t count all the shit from those years.  Actually my childhood wasn’t terribly bad.  My parents got divorced, but that is common and something the majority of people go through.  It was when I turned 19 that my life officially went to shit.

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I just hope the next 30 years are something I enjoy.  I think it is about damn time I get some luck that is good.  This bad luck streak is killing me.  I just want things to go my way for once.  I want to spend a day without worrying.  I want to be happy, really happy.  I haven’t been happy for so long that I think I am forgetting what it feels like.  I am a pessimist by nature, so I am not sure I would know how to handle a good life. 

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Anyway, I am not happy about getting older.  If anyone asks I am 29.  I think I’ll just hold there for a while or at least until the wrinkles get so bad nobody will believe me.

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..Oh, and thanks to my awesome friends and loving family who tried their best to bring some light to my day.  Love y'all!..

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Saturday, December 13, 2008 
I have the Stumble Upon tool bar and I use it a lot.  More than I should probably. Anyway, I came across this website that I guess posts random quotes from the Bible and here is what it quoted:

Ezekiel 23:20 (New International Version)

20 There she lusted after her lovers, whose genitals were like those of donkeys and whose emission was like that of horses.


Now, I do not happen to have a Bible handy so if anyone would like to verify if this is true or not then please do.  I am very curious.  If this is in the Bible than that is just, well...nice writing and I may need to read it from cover to cover to see what other gems I can find.


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Saturday, November 29, 2008 

Current mood:  ashamed
am addicted to soda pop.  Everyone that knows me knows that I am super addicted to pop and it goes beyond just drinking a couple Pepsi's a day.  I drink about a 12 pack a day and in addition I usually stop by McD's and add a large Coke to that.  For those of you who do not know that is about 2100 a day in pop alone.  Even if I ate nothing every day I would still be consuming more calories that I should. 

So this is the dirty little secret behind why I do not lose weight despite my 80 minutes of cardio exercise every day. 

This is also something I struggle with.  It may seem easy to just stop drinking so much pop, but it is not.  It is truly an addiction.  I cannot kick the habit over night.  So, I figured I need help.  I thought if I came out on here about my horrible problem that maybe I could somehow feel like I have to quit.

I know that completely kicking pop is not going to happen.  However, I am afraid because I am very much like an alcoholic.  If it is in my house I will have a very hard time not drinking it.  Also, like an alcoholic, if I don't get it I get cranky and also get a splitting headache that prevents me from doing anything.  So, I figure I will start small.

I am making a commitment to cut it down to 6 Pepsi's a day for the first two weeks and then I will cut it even more until I am only having one a day and then hopefully one every once in a while.  I need to stop being dependent on this shit.  Really it is probably killing my kidney's. 

So, there you have it - I have made my commitment and I have all of you to kick my ass should I not stick to it. 

I have to think about the added perk.  With only 6 Pepsi's a day I will be cutting out over 1000 calories a day.  I should lose a few pounds from this. 

There is my secret all out in the open.  Hate me if you must.  Be shocked at my lack of self control.  Call me names.  Do what you must to help me stick to my goal of cutting this pop addiction.  Please y'all!  I need serious help.
6:41 AM 
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Saturday, November 22, 2008 

Current mood:  amused

I found a website that proves just how dumb people are and justifies my feeling of hating people :)  Here is a sample from the site (notalwaysright.com):


The Trouble With Seeing In Black And White

Video Rental | Halifax, NS, Canada

Caller: "I need to exchange this movie. It's the wrong one."

Me: "Which movie were you looking for?"

Caller: "Big Momma's House."

Me: "Um, what does it say on the case?"

Caller: "Big Momma's House."

Me: "What does it say on the video cassette itself?"

Caller: "Big Momma's House."

Me: "I'm thinking you have Big Momma's House there, Ma'am."

Caller: "But…"

Me: "Yes?"

Caller: "But… there's white people in it."

Me: "There are a few of us about, ma'am. We do sneak into the odd movie here and there."

Caller: *click*

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Cry Me a River
By Justin Timberlake
Release date: 2003-02-18
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Monday, November 17, 2008 
I have this quiz app thingy and I am seriously thinking about just taking it off because they really should not let people who have no idea what English grammar is make quizzes.  My God people! 

Your - to possess, like That is your sheep.
You're - short for you are

I see this mistakes so often I want to scream.  Come on people!  This is elementary.  There are so many more that if I wrote them all here it would be pages and pages long.  Just be smart and think before you type.  People with bad grammar look ignorant and there is nothing I hate more than an ignorant person. 

I may have some spelling issues from time to time.  I may not use commas the way I always should.  However, I do use grammar correctly.  Sorry, it is a writer thing. 

I know English is hard and I know that grammar is hard, but please learn some of the basics.

Thank you!
3:05 AM 
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Thursday, November 06, 2008 

Current mood:  argumentative
Okay, now after sharing how stupid I am I need to bitch about how stupid other people are.  In this great (and I say that with a slight air of sarcasm) country of ours there is a little known freedom we have to speak our minds.  It seems that like many other freedoms there is always someone out there who likes to shit all over it.

I am speaking to whoever is marking the bumper stickers as inappropriate.  I had about four on my board that were taken off due to this and I know damn well none of them were inappropriate. 

GROW THE FUCK UP!!!  If you do not like something then do not look at it.  Please, there are a lot of people with a lot of different view points. Don't fuck up someone else's day because you don't like something.  Move the fuck on and let it be. 

The problem is that people think they need to monitor the world for everyone else.  I know how to figure out if something is right or wrong.  Maybe it is because I parent my own children and do not expect the world to do it for me.  Yeah, that's probably right.  Some know-it-all Bible thumper probably spends their day marking bumper stickers that offend them or that they think are bad for children.  I hate these people!

11:36 PM 
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Thursday, November 06, 2008 

Current mood:  pirate
I locked my dumb ass out of my house this morning.  It sucked.  My house was locked up tighter than Fort Knox.  I could not figure a way in without braking a window.  I was about to lose it when my neighbor offered a ladder.  She even came over and helped.  My bathroom window was open because I smoke in the bathroom sometimes when it is late or too cold to go outside.  (I am trying to be a good mom and not smoke in the house with the kids).  Anyway, my bathroom is on the second floor.  So I had to climb this ladder, which was shaking the whole time, up to the window - open the screen and climb in.  I made it and was scared to death the whole time.  I scraped my leg but it could have been much worse :)
11:32 PM 
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Thursday, November 06, 2008 

Current mood:  bitchy
Had a day that just kept getting more shitty?  Today has been a rather jem of a damn day.  I would like to thank the fucking idiot that dried a paper towel in the dryer at Duds and Suds because they fucked up my jeans.  I didn't have the time to waste rewashing and drying them to fix the problem.  If people were a little more considerate it would help.  When a washer or dryer doesn't work or craps out on me I am nice enough to put up an out of order sign.  I would say if your laundry leaves shit in the dryer when you are done then clean the damn thing out!

Oh, and I think people suck for other reasons.   The damn school bus that pulled out in front of me.  The moron at the drive thru who was practically on my bumper.  The dumb ass who was turning across the road from me, instead of going so I could go too waited so I had to wait on them when I had already sat there forever waiting on the long lines of traffic.  I could go on, but I digress. 

I also swear voting is rigged.  Next time I am voting for the opposite of what I want because this year everything I voted for went the opposite.  Maybe my machine was fuckered up.  Oh well, I don't give a shit I more important problems in my life.

Now as I sit here I must listen to the screams of a spoiled 6 year old who doesn't want to do her homework.  She claims to have no idea of what plus 3 equals 5.  Mind you this is a girl who brings home A+ on every paper.  Tell me she doens't know the answer - yeah, right.  So, I must stop for now and handle the screaming before I get a headache. 
4:18 AM 
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