someone sent me this email a few days ago...and mother FUCKER i want everyone to read this shit. i could NOT say this shit any fkn better if i tried. high fkn five to Andy fkn Rooney for takin the words right out of my fkn mouth............... Right on, Andy Rooney! Andy Rooney said on "60 Minutes" a few weeks back: I don't think being a minority makes you a victim of anything except numbers. The only things I can think of that are truly discriminatory are things like the United Negro College Fund, Jet Magazine, Black Entertainment Television, and Miss Black America. Try to have things like the United Caucasian College Fund, Cloud Magazine, White Entertainment Television, or Miss White America; and see what happens...Jesse Jackson will be knocking down your door. Guns do not make you a killer. I think killing makes you a killer. You can kill someone with a baseball bat or a car, but no one is trying to ban you from driving to the ball game. I believe they are called the Boy Scouts for a reason, that is why there are no girls allowed. Girls belong in the Girl Scouts! ARE YOU LISTENING MARTHA BURKE? I think that if you feel homosexuality is wrong, it is not a phobia, it is an opinion. I have the right "NOT" to be tolerant of others because they are different, weird, or tick me off. When 70% of the people who get arrested are black, in cities where 70% of the population is black, that is not racial profiling, it is the Law of Probability. I believe that if you are selling me a milkshake, a pack of cigarettes, a newspaper or a hotel room, you must do it in English! As a matter of fact, if you want to be an American citizen, you should have to speak English! My father and grandfather didn't die in vain so you can leave the countries you were born in to come over and disrespect ours. I think the police should have every right to shoot your sorry ass if you threaten them after they tell you to stop. If you can't understand the word "freeze" or "stop" in English, see the above lines. I don't think just because you were not born in this country, you are qualified for any special loan programs, government sponsored bank loans or tax breaks, etc., so you can open a hotel, coffee shop, trinket store, or any other business. We did not go to the aid of certain foreign countries and risk our lives in wars to defend their freedoms, so that decades later they could come over here and tell us our constitution is a living document; and open to their interpretations. I don't hate the rich. I don't pity the poor. I know pro wrestling is fake, but so are movies and television. That doesn't stop you from watching them. I think Bill Gates has every right to keep every penny he made and continue to make more. If it ticks you off, go and invent the next operating system that's better, and put your name on the building. It doesn't take a whole village to raise a child right, but it does take a parent to stand up to the kid; and smack their little behinds when necessary, and say "NO!" I think tattoos and piercing are fine if you want them, but please don't pretend they are a political statement. And, please, stay home until that new lip ring heals. I don't want to look at your ugly infected mouth as you serve me French fries! I am sick of "Political Correctness." I know a lot of black people, and not a single one of them was born in Africa; so how can they be "African-Americans"? Besides, Africa is a continent. I don't go around saying I am a European-American because my great, great, great, great, great, great grandfather was from Europe. I am proud to be from America and nowhere else. And if you don't like my point of view, tough... DON'T PASS IT ON!!

okay, so here's the scoop. me n jen were lowly biitChes on "the day of love" so we went to meijers, stole a camera, and wasted the film there. (for those of you who lack the knowledge as to what meijers is...its like walmart. but way better. michigan people get bored and go to meijers. meijers fucking rocks my socks. high five to meijers. the really funny thing is...we weren't even high. and here is the outcome....

aw. how sweet. ::gag:: michael vick is fkn SEXY. and I tongued him. haha ...now stop lookin at my ass. Jen the mother fkn SUPERSTAR me gusta el futbol! Jen, the perfect housewife. jungle safari's r fun! Jen of the jungle. rawR. these. weights. are. so. HEAVYYYYYYYYY! Flaver FLAVE! touchdown! my little artist. i'm so proud! ::tear:: i'm getting veklamped! talk amongst yourselves... YES!!! he's OUT!!!! hahaha thousand points to ME for creativity, fuck, i rock. fuck u ump, he was SAFE! haha mannn we're fkn REtards. i fkn LOVE it. and i saved the best for last. i call this one the "Paris" THAT'S HOT! ::loves it::

A mother fucking MARINE killed this guy. And three others. And injured more. What the FUCK is this world God damn coming to when you can't even enjoy a fucking concert in peace????!?!?! And how much worse can it fucking get than ex-MARINES killing people???!?!?! Aren't they supposed to PROTECT the people in this fucking piece of shit country?! FUCK AMERICA, FUCK BUSH, AND FUCK THE CRAZY MOTHER FUCKERS THAT COME FROM THE MARINES. AND MOST OF ALL, FUCK THE PIECES OF SHIT THAT THINK THEY RESERVE THE FUCKING RIGHT TO TAKE INNOCENT PEOPLE'S LIVES. FUCK YOU. R.I.P. Dimebag Darrell . "Here we are In a world of corruption Human nature is Of violent Breed Who cares if there's no tomorrow When I die for my future's Laid out for me Can't you see? Rise above the lies Morals on a backwards globe..." -Heresy. "Reverend reverend is this some conspiracy? Crucified for no sins An image beneath me Whats within our plans for life It all seems so unreal I'm a man cut in half in this world Left in my misery..." -Cemetary Gates. "Understanding what has Happened before us We are confined to a Darkened hidden tomb The conquering of our world As we knew it Rise above this pit Of sorrow and pain Among the few We are the avant leaders We've got to live Through this trouble and decay This question haunts my mind Will we survive this night? We're harboring the meek Will we survive the sleep? Unsure and scared We are planning our reprise Revolves around this world We don't know anymore The odds against us Yet we're stronger and prevailing Learn from mistakes Counting souls for sale This question haunts my mind Will we survive this night? We're harboring the meek Will we survive the sleep?" -The Sleep

Guys are stupid and make no sense. I hate them. I'm a lesbian now. So don't hit on me if you have a penis. I don't like penis. Actually, I love penis. But despise what they grow off of. Just a tidbit of information for all you fellers that believe you may have a chance. Don't fucking bother. But LADIES on the other hand... haha

» my gift of self is raped
my privacy is raked
and yet i find
and yet i find
repeating in my head
if i can't be my own
i'd feel better dead...

» hate
i'm your hate
i'm your hate when you want love
pay
pay the price
pay, for nothing's fair...

» you used to beg me,
to take,
care of things,
and smile at the thoughts,
of me failing...

» lay beside me
under wicked sky
the black of day
dark of night
we share this paralyze
the door cracks open
but there's no sun shining through
black heart scarring darker still...

» face i am nothing face
complete by sarcastic tastes
what a waste i think i'd rather die
wanting never gaining i find myself pondering life
always situations i can never hide
crying tears of anger, hate
depressed i never know the me, never know what to do
slit pour out the life a bottle of the "vive"
a desperate cry for something else to justify
i'm in a daze caused by pain
a failing force that wants to change
painting the white to grey
numb body shivering
blood dripping from the skin
painting the white to grey...

» loneliness is not a phase
field of pain is where i graze
serenity is far away...

» fake smiles surround me all day
no more can i tolerate
these excuses or all this
constant pressure overloading
make it stop the fire's always burning...

» i fall
i fall face down at the sight of myself
no one to pick me up
look what our lives have become...

» i hate the way
you have no shame
you act like nothing's happened
it's time to rise
the final fight
this is the last time...

» when you are this way you think you're God
but the people around you are destroyed
coming home getting off by killing who you love
i hope you end up in a body bag...........................

      † d † e † a † t † h †
† b † e † c † o † m † e † s †
           † y † o † u †

sad and confused
she lay amongst
Weeping stars
asking the Moon for guidance
breathing crisp night air
that sighed
as if to feel her Angst
Pondering life
As all emotion Fades to
Black.
Death knocks
if only She realized
Her Beauty
outside and in
Was as wonderous
as the Evening Sky
Her life, her soul, her entire being may have been
Spared.
As yet another lifeless body
lay amongst a sea of unhealed Wounds
the Sky drowns the world
as if to Punish the lively
For another lost soul, gone unnoticed
And to beg for Forgiveness
for being only Moments too late
As yet another body lay lifeless
In the Arms of the earth.  ©

« I'm alive and well yet completely dead inside. »
« I appear to be in one piece but I'm really torn apart. »
« I breathe in and I breathe out yet I feel as if I'm gasping for air. »
« I wake up every day but I stay stuck inside this nightmare. »
« I smile and I laugh yet I feel no joy at all. »
« I peer thru the rain for a rainbow but all I see is shades of gray. »
« I bandage my wounds yet I still bleed. »
« I try to stand tall but I keep falling face first. »
« I drop the knife to the floor yet I keep getting stabbed. »
« I've killed you inside my head a thousand times yet you continue to make me suffer. »   ©

how will I heal if you keep pouring salt on my wounds.....
and how do I stay alive when you make me want to die?

...isn't that what you want?
...January 25th, 2004.

...live to ride, ride to live.......some die 'living'......but die doing what they live for.
*R.I.P.*

"And if I'm called away and it's my turn to go,
Should the blood run cold in my veins,
Just one favor I'll be asking you,
Don't bury me where it's too cold,
Take me back,
Carry me back,
Down to Gasoline Alley where I started from"
-Indian Larry

*BAD M-EFFER*.............................


..Gone but not forgotten...........

I am sHELTERED By this apathy
NOTHING LEFT to do but torch the DAY
rETREATING deePER INTo mY MINd
what is it that I HOpe to fIND?

THIS Is thE AFTERMAth in ME
tENDENCY to keep it aLL INSIDe
a FOOLs diSGUise

I am stranGLED BY THIS SymPATHY
empty words wiTH No MEANING
must release myself into the void
all illusions must be deSTROYED

THIS Is thE AFTERMAth in ME
tENDENCY to keep it aLL...

hoW DARe you cOMPROMIse
the baLANCe of our LIVES
EXcuses YOU DEvise
an internal SUICIDE
I STRuggle to SURVIVE
a PERFECT GoAL for whicH TO STrive
ignorANCE Cannot diSGUIse

the baLANCE OF our LIVES
HIDIng thE MEANing OF
hiding the MEANING OF.............................................................................




°‡°THE ART OF BALANCE--SHADOWS FALL.°‡°

He handed me what looked like the key to a diary.
He said it was the key to his heart.
But when I tried to use that very key...
It broke right off in the lock.
And love dies again.  ©