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Kristina Edwards


Last Updated: 12/21/2009

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Gender: Female
Status: Single
Age: 25
Sign: Gemini

City: chamber of funny secrets......
State: Ohio
Country: US
Signup Date: 9/27/2005

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Tuesday, January 13, 2009 

Current mood:  awake
im one freaky hatchet bitch..

you think I dont know this shit.

Give your life to me and loose it.....

ill bust your face so face the music.

Im not nice or itchy yo...

Im a fucking criminal.

I bust caps and I break faces...

leave body parts in real strange places.

I like movies... I love fun...

I like raping hoes with guns.

Beat them down all choked and stuff...

then cover her mouth and fuck her butt!!!

Ew, Im sick a nasty girl....

brought up wrong in this nasty world.

Peace put that shit away...

we smoke weed like everyday.

Green shit sticky icky smoke....

hit that shit until you choke.

Little baby jugga girl

Im the shit to half the world.

im like  a shiney brand new toy...

ill corrupt little girls and boys.

What do you say about that....

you can go to the store and give me back.

So think twice on money spent...

do you wanna a bitch thats bent.

Cause I bend and they cant break me.

after all they cant hate me.

so ill end this here and now....

they hate us juggalos so TAKE A BOW>..

mission accomplished....

they cant stop this juggalo nonsense.!!!

Currently listening:
Carnival of Carnage
By Insane Clown Posse
Release date: 1998-08-25
2:49 PM 
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Tuesday, January 13, 2009 

So I'm usually not a blogger, but I have some things on my mind and I need to let them out.  You would think I can just write this shit down on one of the many notebooks lieing around my room, but then I thought to myself... yo I am awake so why dont I just put the shit somewhere that the rest of the world can see it and they can feel my pain. 
My life is honestly, a traggedy b/c I have lost hope of all reality and I know it is my time to start life over again.  Just like changing from a child to an adult there are certain aspects that come with change.  Aspects consisting of moving and going opposite directions than most your friends.. ha if any of your friends are real I give you props in the first place.  I have been on a long journey my whole life but nothing has really mattered enough not to turn away from whatever situation I am currently in.  I just have to make sure my son is good to go and then I am on the move.  I find myself in any prediciment really.  I have been in dangerous situations like any other person and I have been in some pretty funny situations..
Now I am a strong believer in karma so how you react to the situation you are in tells people a lot about who you are. I used to complain a lot when things werent going my way,.. but these days I have learned to sit back and enjoy the ride b/c the tables will turn one day.  I have met many interesting people along the way by just going on with the show and being there to take the ride with everyone else.  I am the type of person that will stand up and tell you when enough is enough b/c I am a leader not a follower. 
I have been brought down as a person in life... and the people that have waltz in and out of my life have molded and shaped me into the emotionless person I am..... If you have seen me cry I bet no one would believe b/c I have become stone cold as a statue and the virgin mary cries more tears than I do... I have a lot of shit riding on the line right now and I am fighting for absolutely none of it b/c I have been debating whether or not I should hit up rehab just to have some alone time to reconsider the way my life is going....
It's a big year for psychopathic and my son is starting school in about 6 months so I figure if I go now I will be out for the first day of school and the tenth annual gathering and all that shit.... but either way its still something Im not sure about... Im strong enough to help myself but I doubt the court system will let me do that... its either jail or rehab and I think I will pick the later one....
I have been broken down in the last three months... I have lost control of what I want in life and its becuase I have dedicated myself to not being alone.... FUCK that I will go it alone from now on b/c that is the only way I am gonna make it out this shit alive and its time to make a change and be a better person.... Im ready to get this shit right for real....
and what is with juggalos these days... I was dating this LO who has been down for years and this mug cheats on me with his preppy ass ex girlfriend that says "thw whole juggalo thing is just ignorant... i dont understand why you even care about that shit..."  who would pick that over a lette that never bitches...?  I mean honestly... we were not unhappy at all we just lived 3 hours away from each other. but there was no time lost... we seen each other at least 18 days outta each month... thats well over half.... so WtF.... Juggalos are supposed to love one another and shit, but this mutha facko straight dissed me and lied on me and everything yo.... that's a shame in itself... he's one of those disrespectful ninjas tho... the kind that take prozak and catch shit on fire at shows... and throw trashcans at people... thats not kewl... his homies are the ones that stole shags golf cart and they was burning trees at hallowicked in columbus... he talked shit on all these two-faced juggalos but he turned out to be the kind of people he was hatin on... I cant deal with that kinda mess... there are no two-faced juggalos... my friend thems is called JUFFALOS and they are of the worst kind.  Violent J worked his ass off so we could be a family and families come together in times of struggle... they do not betow hatred and fakeness upon one another... they give showers and love and energy and acceptance and shit,.. thats whats up ,,,,
I have been strung out on drugs. I have been sober,... I have been a loser... I have been a hard worker... I have been a convict and I have been a dreamer... I have been a lover and fighter and a friend and an enemy... yo I have been all these things in life but I have never felt like I am where I belong.. so what the fuck??? I just wanna know that I am doing what is right for once... god this was a bunch of random babble and I appreciate any friend who was bored enough to take their time to read this... maybe it dont make sense to you but to me this is everything.... the drain of confusion about my pathetic life..... damn I hate it some times.
Currently listening:
Krimson Creek
By Boondox
Release date: 2008-05-13
10:05 AM 
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Wednesday, December 10, 2008 

Current mood:  high

Whatsoever in life could compare to the chill?? The chill of making your way from the middle of the moshpit (enduring the most exciting ass kicking of your life) to the front rail? Aw, the baracade, where you are pushed, smashed, kicked, and paraded.  The heavenly placed where you can rest your fears away for those few hours of your life.  The hours where its nothing but you and your music.  The shit that gets you through your general every day life.  Yea, when its over your back to reality but shit for those few hours of time we juggalos are at peace for once.  When nothing else in the world is going right and show comes around and you know you will have at least one last moment of freedom.  One last chnace to get it right and just fucking relax.  The thought of the music, the screams, the chants and woop woops, it makes me chringe... and get the most unexpected amount of cold chills imaginable. Forget that work sucked and the bills are due!! Forget the fact that your car blew up on the way to get your tickets.  Forget that you may have had to hitch hike to make it to the gathering and you have no ride back.  This my friends is what life is all about. The stream of melody that hits your eardrum in that instant makes you forget that the world is a shame and all the love in that one venue or on that one stage is enough to move a mountain of people into one family and make us all part of each other.  The more I think about it the better I feel about life.  Knowing that no matter what I have people who love me and would die for me simply becuase I am not ashamed of who I am or what I have done in my life.  I am grown and I represent what I am.  When people ask me "what is a juggalo or a juggalette?" I just tell them... we are a family.  They never understand and I go into and get carried away.  I talk about the music and the shows and the gathering and I just get so excited and carried away.  People are just like NO WAY and its just amazing that people are so interested.. haha like we're of a different breed or species.. LmAo.  There will always be plenty of juggalos in the world for us to stay alive forever and keep rocking the shows and throwing faygo and keepin' it old skool!!! I love my family I just want you guys to know that!!! I will always have a place in my heart for any member of the underground... its a fantastic way of life!! 
Currently listening:
Cracked Tiles
By Zug Izland
Release date: 2003-01-28
3:22 PM 
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Wednesday, October 29, 2008 

http://www.checkoutmyink.com/tattoos/tattedbatman/67813

 

http://www.checkoutmyink.com/tattoos/tripa/koi-24

 

just some random shit... I need ideas for some fillers on my butterfly sleeve... I gotta figure this shit out so I can get it finished

9:47 AM 
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Thursday, August 14, 2008 
a lot of things are going good in life for me... right now its all okay.... but it isnt... I performed main stage at the gathering with my homies from underworld assassins and that was great although there was behind the scenes drama that went down... if you were there you know what it was if you werent there you dont deserve to know anyway... my life is out of order... money is ridiculous to get  ahold of right now and I have ben working my ass off to get it... it seems like nothing I do is good enough for the people I work for and I have to satisfy those people becuase thats how we get paid I wish I could have a different profession right now but life wont let me do that .. I am praying to god that I can get my job back at the vu because I was so much happier when I was there and life wasnt such a mess so pray with me please let the spirits or shang ri la guide me into the glory of living a happy life again and if you have any advice please let me know butDO NOT SAY ITS GOING TO BE OKAY so Im so tired of hearing that shit 
3:36 AM 
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Monday, May 26, 2008 

U got no idea where I been - what Ive seen

What it feels like to live in the merciless shame

Then one day I learned theres no shame at all

Only shame in not changing until I took a couple falls.

Tell me how me how you struggle and repeat the same shit

A dollar from nothing but a simple little hit..

Sold to a junkie and now you got money

And aint broke no more so eat it you alive…

Never had shit so thrill made you thrive

You say you been there but you aint been this..

Until you grow up molested or always get hit

And then for some reason no one really cares

You take a fall and your friends disappear.

One by one theres no escaping the question but

Worse than death they's an answer besides living in fear…

don't run from the chances just look for whats clear

It may not be clear but foggy is fine cuase half of the time

when u decide you gone wait

You find out some times that Clear falls in line too late

Make your mind up to kinda get yourself straight.

At least walk a path you know you can live…

Choose your own journey and fuck the dumb shit..

No one is perfect but don't feel deserted

It's a bottomless pit.. When those friends turned against you "wat'd u expect?"

They said stupid shit and turned you away

U turned up the music and what did it say…

It told me what I could do

Or who I could be

That music just reached

right the fuck out to me…

And it grip from the jump 

Its easy to see

That music said I got JUGGALO FAMILY…

And no im not lonely imperfect or scared…

I have my sisters my brothers

The strange and the weird

Abandoned abused and just plane confused

Now were together and we'll stay  forever

To stay as one

A family not judged not jaded but fun…..

And Like twiztid said it don't matter

If ya painted or not

Cause to the real homies were down

And were all that we got.

1:29 AM 
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Friday, December 07, 2007 

Take these letters and see what ur name means

A: YOU LIKE TO DRINK.
B:YOU LIKE PEOPLE.
C: YOU ARE REALLY SILLY
D: YOU ARE GREAT IN BED.
E: AWESOME IN BED
F: YOU ARE DEAD SEXY.
G: YOU NEVER LET PEOPLE TELL YOU WHAT TO DO
H: YOU HAVE A VERY GOOD PERSONALITY AND GOOD LOOKS.
I: YOU ARE GREAT IN BED.
J: PEOPLE ADORE YOU.
K: YOUR WILD AND CRAZY
L: YOU ARE GREAT IN BED.
M: GREAT KISSER.
N: YOU LIKE TO DRINK.
O: YOUR A GREAT KISSER
P: YOU ARE POPULAR WITH ALL TYPES OF PEOPLE
Q: YOU ARE A HYPOCRITE.
R: EASY TO FALL IN LOVE WITH.
S: FUCKING CRAZY.
T: YOUR LOYAL TO THOSE YOU LOVE.
U: YOU REALLY LIKE TO CHILL.
V: YOU ARE NOT JUDGEMENTAL.
W: YOU ARE VERY BROAD MINDED.
X: YOU NEVER LET PEOPLE TELL YOU WHAT TO DO.
Y: BEST BF/GF ANYONE COULD ASK FOR.
Z: ALWAYS REMEMBERED

12:31 AM 
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Wednesday, February 07, 2007 

Current mood:  nervous
Category: Life

I made some mistakes a while back and now I am paying for them.  Just when I straightened  my life out and started doing good it all blows up in my face.  I now have everything I need to suceed in life.  I have found the most important things that I need in life are all right here in front of my face but I have to go away for a lil while.  I will be leaving on FEBRUARY 21st to serve two months in jail.  60 days to be exact.  Jail is a lonely place so I am posting the address so all my TRUE friends can be here for me.  im not asking anyone to send me money or anything.  Just keep in touch and let me know you will be
here for me when I get out and you are thinking about me while Im away.  After this is over everything in my life will be right and I will be squared away on my path to happieness and true well-being,,, so here's the address to the jail but I wont be there until FEBRUARY 21st...
Marion County Detention Center 
201 Warehouse RD.                    
Lebanon, KY 40033                    
If anyone decides they want to come visit me you just have to call and make an appointment,,
the phone number to do that is  270-692-5802            
I will miss everyone and I love you all. 
This is where I will discover who is real in my life and who isnt so I guess this is goodbye
until I come home!!

12:20 PM 
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Sunday, January 21, 2007 

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TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Kristina Annette Edwards aka BuTtErS
Birthday: 6-7-85               
Birthplace: Louisville, KY 
Current Location: Campbellsville respresent
Eye Color: dark blue w/lite blue crystals
Hair Color: auburn with bloinde highlights on top and black on the bottom layer
Height: 5'1"                
Right Handed or Left Handed: both
Your Heritage: caucasian baby          
The Shoes You Wore Today: Orange and white Dc's
Your Weakness: my son's smile        
Your Fears: being alone in this could dark world 
Your Perfect Pizza: pepperoni and sausage w/parmessian cheese 
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: STAY THE FUCK OUTTA TROUBLE 
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: I dont do IM I think its gay
Thoughts First Waking Up: Im fucking hungry
Your Best Physical Feature: eyes and hair
Your Bedtime: who the fuck sleeps
Your Most Missed Memory: walking into the club w/a gang of people and walking out with stacks of cash
Pepsi or Coke: pepsi
MacDonalds or Burger King: McDonalds
Single or Group Dates: FUCK DATING,, lets have a party.. and when its time to be alone will send the bitches home... 
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: lipton ice tea
Chocolate or Vanilla: Choc-o-Lot
Cappuccino or Coffee: cappuccino (french vanilla)
Do you Smoke: yes
Do you Swear: fuck yea
Do you Sing: I write music and scream my words of love
Do you Shower Daily: In the invent that I cant shower I try not to go anywhere... haha 
Have you Been in Love: yes and i still am
Do you want to go to College: I do go to college 
Do you want to get Married: No one will ever own me... 
Do you belive in yourself: I believe Im the only one I can trust and the only one who can do shit the way its supposed to be done
Do you get Motion Sickness: some times
Do you think you are Attractive: so many ppl tell me Im beautiful that it'd be hard not to believe it.
Are you a Health Freak: health my ass I love tater tots
Do you get along with your Parents: DADDY is my best friend 
Do you like Thunderstorms: yes.. lighting is amazing and rain is all the angels' tears 
Do you play an Instrument: bass, and accustic
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yes.. (GIN, Vodka, crown royal and beer) ewwww
In the past month have you Smoked: yes (fat ass blunts haha)
In the past month have you been on Drugs: Ive been under the influence but not hooked-on
In the past month have you gone on a Date: yes.. more than a few of 'em
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: yes (etown and BG)
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: no
In the past month have you been on Stage: yes
In the past month have you been Dumped: hells NO
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: yes in an indoor pool
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: a cigarillo... ask cheeto about it haha
Ever been Drunk: yes
Ever been called a Tease: yes
Ever been Beaten up: not since me and hood broke up!!!!
Ever Shoplifted: yes
How do you want to Die: quick, quiet and painlessly
Where do you want to be when you Grow Up: BAAAAALLINNNNN
What country would you most like to Visit: amsterdam
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: BLUE like my baby boy's
Favourite Hair Color: light brown almost dirty blonde
Short or Long Hair: I love long hair too too much 
Height: bout 5' 10"-ish
Weight: I like big boys and lil girls
Best Clothing Style: ripped jeans, band tees, arm warmers, wrist bands, homemade bleached clothes and anything that's fucking original
Number of Drugs I have taken: It would be easier to count the holes in my brain.. everyone makes mistakes in life.. why not fix them?
Number of CDs I own: over 100 plus I own an Ipod (thanks to sean estes,, that was a wonderful christmas present) and an MP3 player... 
Number of Piercings: 4 gages in my ears. 2 in my lip. 1 in my belly 
Number of Tattoos: 5 nice ones
Number of things in my Past I Regret: you cant regret the past you can learn from it and move on... any regret is really just shame...
8:40 AM 
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Monday, September 04, 2006 
    I;m tired of being unstable and Im tired of all the lies.
    If god gave me the chance to turn around
    would it fee like I died?
    If I played on forever with a deathly silent tune,  
    Would you give up on me or put me back in the womb?  
7:36 AM 
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