Everybody always wonders

If I don't believe in God

How is it I find my way through this crushing fog

If I don't rely on Jesus

To guide me through this life

How do I avoid the sharp edge of the knife

Why doesn't apathy

Cut right to the bone

And leave me feling all but meaningless

Well I guess

Chorus

I find meaning

In everything and everyone

I see truth

In the raising and the setting of the sun

I find hope

And it don't wear no disguise

I see God when I look into my lovers eyes

So I've no need for myth or for theology

I have found my heaven living right here in reality

What if God was just a dream

To help us sleep on through the night

A bedtime story told to keep us tucked in tight

Why does it matter

Who is right and who is wrong

Can't we live together singing different songs?

We might not reach agreement

We may not see eye to eye

But we could still love each other

Be sister and brothers

Chorus

I find meaning

In everything and everyone

I see truth

In the raising and the setting of the sun

I find hope

And it don't wear no disguise

I see God when I look into my lovers eyes

Bridge

And as for me that's enough

It's not just enough it's everything

Don't ask me what happens when we die I don't know

But until then I will have this song to sing

Chorus

I find meaning

In everything and everyone

I see truth

In the raising and the setting of the sun

I find hope

And it don't wear no disguise

I see God when I look into my lovers eyes

So I've no need for myth or for theology

I have found my heaven living right here in reality

Water Cure

Here comes the water…..

You got me lying here
You got me where you wanted me
You've got me bound and tied
Pried my soul open wide

I cannot help but stare
Force feed and choke it out of me
 You strip me of my pride
You'll flush me out inside

And here it comes
Ohhhh (here comes the water)

Feel it pushing down
I have to swallow or else I'll drown
I have to endure
Your water cure

Can feel my insides swell
I'm living in my own personal hell
I have to endure
This water cure (here comes the water)

As I begin to gag
On all the lies you told to me
Intoxicate my will
Will you stop short of kill-ing me

Feel it pushing down
I have to swallow it or else I'll drown
I have to endure
Your water cure

Can feel my insides swell
I am living in my own private hell
I have to endure
This water cure (here comes the water)

Here comes the water
I'm going under
Here comes the water
I'm torn asunder

Feel it pushing down
I have to swallow it or else I'll drown
I have to endure
Your water cure

Can feel my insides swell
I am living in my own private hell
I have to endure
This water cure (here comes the water)

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The inspiration for this. Water Cure is an old time torture and interrigation technique. Basically the victem is tied or held down and their jaw is pried open and water is forced down their throat which causes multple issues like stomache distension and water intoxication. I thought it would be a good metaphore for the feeling of being trapped in a bad relationship. It describes how I felt in my first marrige and that's where I came from for this lyric.

Lemme know what you think

My cousin Jared just shot himself Thursday night. He was seemingly a happy person but obviously something was terribly wrong. This is written from his point of view simply me trying to figure out what he was feeling and going through when he decided to leave us all behind.

I miss you Jared

"The Secret"

I've got a secret

That I will never share

There is a reason

For my empty stare

They never notice

They only see me smile

But that's just how I want it for now

Maybe if I opened up and shared what's on my heart

Maybe if I talked about my pain it'd be a start

Maybe if I told someone

Why my whole world's falling a part,,,,,

But I'm not ever gonna tell anybody

I'm not ever gonna say a word

I'm just gonna keep a hold of my secret

it won't be heard

I've got some big plans

That I've been working on

I've got purpose

It won't take too long

I've got a promise

That I intend to keep

I've got a date with destiny

Maybe I should think this out at least a little more

Maybe I should call someone cause that's what families for

Maybe I'll just wait to do this and just pick up the phone

But I don't think anyone's at home,,,,,,,,,,

So I'm not ever gonna tell anybody

I'm not ever gonna say a word

I'm just gonna keep a hold of my secret

It won't be heard

Maybe I'll just pray to God so he might bring me peace

Maybe I'll just read some words and then I'll feel release

Maybe I'll just lay her in my bathtub all alone

Maybe I should check to see if anyone has phoned

Maybe I'll just close my eyes and take a deeper breath

Maybe I'll just teach someone a lesson with my death

Maybe I'll just rest my chin against my loaded gun,,,,,,,

And I won't ever have to tell anybody

There be no need to say a single word

I'm not ever gonna have to share my secret

I'll still be ,,,,,, heard

New song is DONE! I busted ass for almost 3 1/2 hours with the lovely Victoria on this one and in my humble opinon IT KICKS ASS!!!!!

Addable

Downloadable

Rateable

lets get this son g out there let everyone know about it and we'll set myspace on fire with this shit!! Victoria's a member of the band so give her a warm welcome and check out her music page out too!!

M

You know folks there is a really good reason as to why this page has not been updated in a long time. Because literally nothing has been happening. No really No new songs have been written or anything since I left Colorado. Oh sure I've written somelyrics but I don't wanna post those until they're all ready. Oh I did write a fake bio that makes me sound all important and shit. Pretty impressive huh? Anyway you go on back to looking at porn on the internet and I'll keep uhhhhh,,,,,,,,,,, what was I doing? Hell I don't know but I am sure to find something to do.

As sooon as we update though you'll be the first to know I promise

M

On a whim we decided to try She's Never out on a crowd we hadn't played it live yet. At first it seemed that the responce was pretty lackluster but as I wandered around after we played it I got quite a few compliments on the song and our performance. The new picture is from us playing the song thanks to Tina Pelshaw for snappin the pic for us. We got togeather and worked on some idea's for another song which I penned called "Everybody Knows" which is about my ex wife. It's taking a life of it's own for sure. Michael Pelshaw also penned a couple he is interested in me singing they fall in the same vein as the other stuff we are doing. Overall I think we are off to a great start. More to come soon

Mike

Well I've posted the first collaboration between me and Michael Pelshaw it's titled "She's Never". This is just a demo version of it the guitar is great I'mreally lucky to have found a writing partner who can really bring out the vision I have in the lyrics I write. Feel free to add this song to your profile get people talking about it. Get your friends to listen and add it as well. If you do add it please let me know so I can thank you.

This is just the beginning

Mike

I have promised updates for quite awhile and haven't really delivered. I think as you can tell by the sampling of lyrics I shared that things are moving in the right direction. I have a couple things I want to address

FIRST AND FOREMOST

Without further ado I'd like to introduce my coll;aborator and guitar player Michael Pelshaw. I'll be giving him access to this LJ so he can write to you guys as welkl as upload stuff music wise and such. I have known Mike for sevral years and have worked for along time to get him in on this project and he has finally relented to my constant badgering and has agreed to write songs with me.  The stuff he is writing is amazing you will not believe it. We should have rough demo's up within the month. One song is written already it is called "She's Never" It's a song about knowing exactly who it is you want to spend the rest of your life with, and not being able to do anything about it. It's a lyric spurred from the doubt of having to put your trust in another person and hpping that they truly have your best intrests in mind. It is one of many songs that when strung togeather will tell the love story between he that dwells in shadows and she who's eyes shine like the sun. Anima and Animus, The CD, when finished will be loosely conceptual but all the songs will be able to stand on their own. THe original concept and ideas for this CD have been 6 years in the making. More on that to follow

Does anyone have any talent with creating logo's? I need a kick ass logo for Gnosis that we can use for promotional stuff. If you do let me know.

Put us on your top 8 and help us spread the word. Things are going to be happening fast I do not think that the two songs that are on this page will be used in the CD but I have enabled the option to add them anyway.I may very well work on two different CD's cause there are some things that don't fit into the concept that I'd like to also get out there(August, Pax, etc)

I now have a personal myspace page for friends and family to contact me at as to keep this page project related. If you'd like the other myspace page email me and ask for it.  

Stay tuned to this space as things are coming very quickly Let us know what you want to see here

M.

Here are some samples of the lyrics I've been working on currently

How do you fill a big gaping hole

One that nobody can see

Those are good questions but offer no guidance

The answers aren't coming to me

I guess it's what I have to be

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It's not hard to capture each small imperfection
Connecting the dots will I pass inspection?
It all comes to focus each issue each failure
But then something else has come
To light

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But she's never gonna find me
She's never gonna understand
She's never gonna save me
She's following her own plan

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But you turn away leave me here
In the darkness of my fears
Leaving me with solitude
As my only present peer

You can't seem to finish
What you wish to start
I don't think you're good for
My mercurial heart

Just lil bits of my brain my thought process. pinpoints of emotion