So. Where shall I begin__

Life.. Is really something. I love it. I am so blessed. I have a wonderful family, great friends, goals, the means for an education and every other need, good head on my shoulders. All the hype. I have everything I could want at this point in my life. But, I just feel like there is something missing. What? I want the man of my dreams. Haha. I know.. how cliche. Whatever! That't what I want... The sad part about it, is... When I find a potential... I tend to push them away, or run at the first sign of a possibility that I may get hurt. I want a relationship... trust me. But I refuse to let myself get back into one?!?! Maybe it's because I want everything to be perfect? Well.. that will never happen... I don't know what the reason is. Maybe I just truely have not found anyone that lives up to my standards... So I refuse to settle. I date a lot. And I ALWAYS.. i mean always, seem to find s o m e t h i n g wrong with a person. I don't know if I intentionally look for things or what. I don't have a trust issue. That's not it... I think I just may be a little too picky. Before I use to settle for everyone, Now, I won't settle for anyone. =/

Help. Haha