so i do believe it is due time to re-do this entire page with new colors and backround and such. along with new words of wisdom. only problem is, i am completely lost on how to do it so when my sister gets home she can do. until then enjoy my half assed site for a few more weeks. then it will be shiny for all of you lovely ADHD kids out there....oh yea new music up and more comming soon....ttyl

-chris

sorry for all those who may have been over the last month or two tryong to get ahold of me. iv been a bit.....lets say detained. i um.....lost my car and drivers licence.....(it happens) due to irresponcibility. but im workin on it. i have a good job now and im picking up a second hopefully this week. i cut down on all my vices and im looking forward to school in the late summer. i have myself on a good diet and im excercising....yes i said excercising.....no this is not a fucking joke....and fuck you for laughing....seriously....its not that funny. anyway working on being an adult.....oh i had a baby boy on march 12th named sean. hes great....ok now laugh at that, that was complete bullshit. but yea hell knows why im writing on her about this but i guess i feel obligated since i have no cell phone or car and i kinda fell off the planet....my sn is burlypapabear (yea i know its dumb, if i could change it i would but christ then i might as well die cause then there's no way to get ahold of me.) but yea so im alive. its...good i gues... yea this mad queerny so im gonna stop ttyl guys and gals.

so i dont write on this cause im retarted. it took me like 3 weeks lirterally to figure this shit out. sorry i dont put anything here dude to the fact that the label has a message board

<recollectivent.com/forum>

but now i shall do both, tty guys

 

 

i think im right, but please tell me if im wrong.....im sure u will. i believe the key to happiness and comfort is simplicity in certain things. this may only be true for me but i believe it. i don't need a $200,000 ferrari (although i'd love to have one), or a 5 million dollar house (think of the heating expences), or 20 kids. All i want is a nice victorian home in New England, a couple kids a good job, maybe a charger or a cuda to tinker with, and a wife who loves me as much as i love her. WHY IS THIS SUCH A FUCKING SHOCK AND SCARE TO EVERYONE WHO KNOWS ME? it's like i offered my fucking legs to some random parapalegic. why can't someone want a simple life without being cosidered lazy and giving up?.......im not giving up, ithink it's what i want. simple.....i've had caos my whole life, most of with was self induced. i think i would be happy with calmer life style.......i know i could b a new york socialite, i choose not to be. i don't know maybe someday i'll change my mind but as of right now i want to be joe average..................................................wow im really desperately avoiding stress.

if u know me don't give me a cigarette.

beer is welcome.

-chris

interesting thing sucicide is....isn't it?........my best friend john, (or witness as some of u know him), he says at lunch the other day that neither of us would ever commit suicide because we love life too much. it got me thinking at my ass clown of a job the other day about what life is and just exactly what part it is that i love and am living for. Well first off as of right now my life is kinda shitty, between bills, work, the label, writing and putting together the band, and my semi- significant other moving away...im a bit stressed to say the least. so what the hell is there left to "love". then i started thinking, life is that which takes place between the moments that make our lives worth living. that minute, second, fraction of a second, that made getting out of bed that day worth while. carpe diem?.......shouldn't it be capto occasio? The only reason the day exists is to help us differentiate between the moments of pure comfort and that which is purely shit. which brings me to the next thing on my mind....happiness. Happiness does not exist. I am almost entirely sure it doesn't. I feel happiness is word created out of slang to help us as a people heighten the definition of comfortable. no one is "happy". think about it. who do u know who is "happy"......"happiness" is the definition of an emotional reaction due to comfort. Comfort = Happiness. No one is consistently comfortable, it would be impossible. in fact to be brutally honest the only people on the planet who may even come close to astate of "happiness" are those afflicted with autism, due only to the fact that their ceribral make up has, unfourtunately or fourtunately depending on one's view of the world, removed the majority of these people's ability to exist mentally in the known world. most of these beings have a smile on their face all the time due to the fact that they are living in a self-created utopia....NOT that im saying all people with autism are always in a utopia and saying these people have it easy....im sure anyone reading this would be intelligent enough to differentiate my opinon here. hmmm.....just a though layed on screen for future pondering.........here is my plethora of crap thought gift to anyone who reads my page this week. -chris