Well I've been sick (nauseous, weak, dizzy) for going on 5 months now. Lots of doctors visits. Not sure if I'll be going to school in August or not. I've applied for financial aid and such in the meantime. I'm not too proud to make use of government services. Hopefully they'll figure out what is wrong with me and I can get my life moving again.

Well what is there to say..  I updated Myspace finally and I suppose I can give a brief explaination.

I recently found the absolutely best band ever, Muse.  I've PAID for their CDs; if you know me at all you know that's a big deal. Matt (lead/vocals) and Chris (bass) are so hot.  Dom (drummer) isn't bad but not my type : P  If you hit up youtube there's a ton of great footage of them and videos.  My favorites are the ones where they're drunk and pissed and do insanely funny shit on stage.  Now to plug the website ...http://www.muse.mu/index.php

Moving on.  Derek's coming to visit again in July (taking ages to get there!) and *supposedly* moving out here in September.  I keep my self reserved on this one though, I lost that youthful niave hope thing a long time ago. In the meantime I'm probably not taking summer courses.  They aren't offering anything I need for my degree.

Speaking of degree, I changed it.  I'm going for an Education major.  Yea, me, a teacher.  Hide yer kids! AMG!  Going to go for highschool algebra. Just like Mrs. Watson :d

Finally, I'm playing Lord of the Rings Online right now.  I'm on the European servers since Derek had friends there. It's pretty fun I suppose.  Really I'm waiting for Fable 2, Fallout 3, and Spore.

Oh, and Mass Effect = Frickin' Sweet.

Figured it was time for an update.
Currently:

In college, major in Education (teaching) at Lamar Orange
In love, <3 Derek
Lonely, Derek lives in Florida which is 12 hours away and not having any friends in Orange to hang with
Inconvienienced, borrowing mom's car for classes
Distressed, Steven (half brother) is making my and mom's life hell
Ashamed, some of the things my mom believes in are just wrong
Challenged, playing Guitar Hero 2 &3 that I bought for the xbox360 and the controllers
Interested, playing Tabula Rasa FPSMMO
Overweight, yea I gave up trying to be thin, I like food and I'm lazy
Sad, Wrath (cat) had to be put down because he had colon cancer
Annoyed, I have no idea where Dane (husband) is and I need to get the divorce done and finalized
In pain, keep getting headaches that don't seem to want to go away

So how am I?  Kinda depressed. And lonely. But that's the American way, right?

I hated living with Dane, but I hate living alone more.  Sure, mom's here half the time, but that's more of an irritation than anything.

I'm doing pretty well in school, but I don't really have a desire to go.

I'm definitely overweight at this point.  I keep telling myself I'll curb my appetite, but I don't.  Because I like food. Sue me.  Plus I don't have anyone to look good for anyway. 

You might be amazed to know I've started wearing a bra on a consistant basis.  Witht he boob reduction I don't really need to so much, but they do look nice with a V-neck.  I like my boobs.

I've also started wearing eyeliner and lipstick fairly regularly when I go out.  I guess I'm trying to look sort of good in the hopes of attracting a mate. I still refuse to wear foundation or anything else. Too much work, too fake.

I've been playing games like mad lately to keep myself occupied.  I can't wait for Mass Effect to come out on Nov 21st, likely won't leave my xbox screen other than for class. Sucks that Fallout 3 and Fable 2 aren't due till Fall '08.

I'm starting to feel old.  Maybe it's because I'm in classes with highschool age kids? I'm not sure.  I am sure however that if I don't start having kids or adopting soon I'll get too old to do it right.  I want atleast 2 kids relatively close together.  But I also want to date someone for 2 years before I get married and wait 2 years after that before bringing kids in.  So that's putting me at 28.

Bleh.

Long time no update so here goes.  I'm going to school at Lamar Orange currently which bites.  Waking up at 7am is not my thing.  Currently playing Star Wars Galaxies again and having an absolute blast.  The roleplay is awesome there.

I'm on Sunrunner server as: Zokushi, Reikkoku, Shinjin, and Dorei

I have a huge crush on someone, I won't name who, and I feel like I'm back in highschool ARGH!

Well that's about it.  Isn't my life thrilling? <3

Well .. I had my surgery yesterday.  The doctor said my gallbladder was the longest he'd ever removed. Yay?  I'm in a ton of pain oh my god. I had to stay overnight because my bladder refused to wake up like always with general anesthesia.  It hurts to move right now. Hell it hurts to sit still or lay down. So I'm screwed no matter what.  Also, mom forgot to fill my pain killer prescription so I'm trying to survive on extra strength tylenol. P.S. It isn't working. Ow goddamit.

Ok so a few days ago Jeff messaged me about this cover of Hallelujah by Jeff Buckley. It was ok but it reminded of one of my favorite singers, Rufus Wainwright. If you've never heard him.. he's amazing. Youtube has a lot of his music videos and live performances. Not only is he hot (unforunately he's gay : ( .. ) but he has a beautiful voice. My favorite songs by him are Crumb by Crumb, Hallelujah, Across the Universe, One You Love, and Art Teacher.

Well it's here. I've enrolled in college at Devry in Houston and my classes (online) start Monday. I'll be taking English and Computer Applications, neither of which will provide a challenge.  I had to take a basic skills test before orientation. I knew I would mess up on the algebra but god I really did bad. Well my scores were Reading 117, Arithmatic 93, Algebra 52, Writing 10/10.  So atleast I did really really well on the reading and writing part. I just can't remember how to do fractions!

Well I wont be starting actual onsite classes till probably August, which means a move to Houston. That's a long ways off though.

Well.. I'm back from Japan. Dane and I are getting divorced once I have gallbalder surgery. Good news, the disease was probably what was causing my severe motion sickness and even some of my weight gain. yay. I'm too lazy to diet so maybe this will work o.O;

Uhm .. I still have asthma and allergies and I have two cats. One is mine (Wrath) though technically he's half Danes. We brought him back from Japan. Then the other is moms (Peaches). Probably nto smart to own two animals that make me sneeze. Ofcourse I smoke too and that can't help : )

What else .. I've been playing my ps2 non stop since there's nothing else to do. Finally got the internet back today not that I can think of anything to do. Mom let me get it because I need to use it for Online courses from Devry until August. Yes, I'm going to college. Somewhere pigs are flying. I'm enrolled for CIS classes until the Gaming courses come to Houston, but I might not switch majors. Not really certain about it yet.

Ok .. that's about it. I probably will never check this again!

P.S. Jeff paid half for me to buy Neverwinter Nights 2 .. it are teh bomb .. yes it warrented my horrible butchering of the english language to say that. It's just that awesome.