Friedrich Nietzsche.

One of the most influential philosophers in ..Germany.. and ..Europe... He had many theories and beliefs that were somewhat offensive, helpful, and powerful. Nietzsche introduced the idea of “god is dead”; meaning that we produced our own powers, that in fact we are gods. He believed that humans had the ability to change evolution to perfection but in order to do that we need to get rid of religion, morals, and even common laws. Nietzsche also introduce the idea of Übermensch, meaning the Superman, a man indestructible, almost beast, but a god, with tremendous power, a perfect being.

Though he criticized religion a lot and might have influenced Hitler in his works, sadly due to the fact that it is said that he liked geniuses over dictators, he had wonderful ideas and beliefs such as art being a way to confront your inner emotions and to create something beautiful out of your even darkest feelings. Also, if you confront a beast make sure that in the process you don’t become one yourself, if you look down on the abyss, the abyss looks back at you. He also stated that the human strength is the most valuable thing in life. He stated morals are for the weak as well as religion. Simply, in my opinion he preached atheism, existentialism, and being your own god. As Stanton LaVey clearly stated in his version of the Satanic bible: heaven and hell won’t be waiting at the end, there is only now. Be your own god. This is what Nietzsche believed though he was no Satanist. It’s clear that Nietzsche is an immortal being, so many years have past and his legacy still seems to live and grow strong.

Park, forest, oceans, and just simply nature, I just love these places so much. I can stay for an eternity if possible. It’s so magical and beautiful I always find it so difficult to leave for I always find myself in nature. I must say I had never noticed how beautiful even simple grass was. It just looks like a velvet carpet so glamorous. I always feel like lying there just looking at the sky and wishing. The mountains to are just so beautiful, the way the clouds hit them, the way it all divides into perfect colors, lines, and the positive and negative shades and spaces all compiled to make this perfect view. The birds, they too are so majestic! I can hear each and every one of them. I begin to understand their beautiful melodies.

The weather was just so perfect today; it’s perfect because the heavens just stopped crying. Oh I just love the smell there is, there is nothing more that I love than rain and the smell produced by it. It just smells so good, you just feel like closing your eyes and intake the smell and at last smile because you know that rain can be so beautiful. Another thing that I love is the sound of birds singing it’s just so stunning. Stunning, just like that place downtown El Paso, that Café alongside the Plaza Theater. In the Café’s side there is a street filled with trees and when the sun starts going down the community the trees behold in their branches come alive, with such wonder and magic, as if they were spellbound by a god. Or when you awake and birds greed you with their little songs and ever changing tones of happiness. Or maybe when you sit in front of the ocean and just watch the water move and the waves form, it just never gets tiring for the feelings of calmness and nothing seem so right. You just want to give your soul to the ocean and become one sometimes. I just love this.

            On the other hand, materialism is so vague but nature on the other side is so wonderful and beautiful it’s alive, it feels, and a talk to you and that’s better than any piece of money or electronics, without meaning or heart. I must confess though, I am deeply ashamed for the sound of music doesn’t produce this feeling of complete and utter “high” as strong. Because music doesn’t talk to you in the present, it’s already written and sung. But nature speaks to you right now.  Nature is always happy to see you. And if you ever had wondered why you think it’s beautiful and feels great when you are surrounded by it; well it’s because part of you understands her words of love to you.

            I am beginning to understand the ways of nature and I feel much like a freak or I think damn what am I smoking that’s causing this? Because people often make fun of me because, I am always so gloomy looking, dark, and quote “Goth Barbie living in the darkest place of a black doll house”, but, I must admit I am a total fragile, dark, and mysterious creature who is staring to hear nature talk to me and that for once feels spiritually well and in touch with her cosmic being. And that my dear friend is all this girl ever wanted, it’s all I ever wanted really.  Without materialism and mental slavery we are our true self, we can evolve, we can truly love and see clear, and most importantly we can be in touch with our inner self and other people.

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 always knew that you weren’t the one,
I always knew that you weren’t the all that I had expected.
Such a shame, such a shame that you had to play me that way,
You are nothing but a sick fucking lie,
And you, you, you, are going to burn…
For every feeling you injected into me,
Ill let you rotten and burn.
For every word you ever said, ill bite your tongue till it detaches itself.
For every inch of my decaying heart that you saved and loved,
Ill have to let you go and slowly die,
You are a lie and nothing more!
You were a desire
You were like one of my crystal castles in the air
You came crashing down.
And as the fragments hit me,
I shall feel no pain,
For lust isn’t love
Lust isn’t love
You were just like one of my crystals castles that came crashing down….
Goodbye my love
It was heaven while it lasted.
Crystal castle is falling down.
For lust isn’t love.






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It’s sad that many writers end up committing suicide, have alcoholism problems, or drug issues, and/or present symptoms of insanity or a mental illness.

Well it is sad I believe this happens because as a writer you find out many things, you think more than the usual people would, feel more, see more, you reflectionise more than the average human does, and you find out the truth about a lot of things. And, well sometimes this is bad. There are a lot of things that you shouldn’t know or maybe things that are best if we leave them in the forgotten. Sometimes the truth hurts just way too much and sometimes we realize our own faults or become to obsess with a certain something which drives to insanity and maybe death. An artist is like a different type of human being. We have developed and live in a different perspective, we see things that others can’t, we feel things differently, read people different, we are different and sometimes this can kill. Other people can’t truly understand us, they can relate to us, I mean maybe a phrase or two or a piece or more strike them and they feel a certain way, but, they can’t understand unless they become us.

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Many great writers have fallen in this mess. Like Hemingway or like Tennessee Williams. Mr. Williams’s story is just such a sad tragedy, his beloved mentally ill sister, his alcoholism, the death of his one true love, among other events. It’s a shame that many artists end like this! Not just writers but painters as well and musicians. For example, Stephen King, who has been in mental hospitals and F. Nietzsche who had also ended up there as well. So many artists so many wonderful talented people have had so many misfortunes and even though they had most of what we desire their lives were just not that pleasant. These artists are some examples of some who ended up committing suicide, had an addiction, or a tragedy. Janis Joplin, Jimmy Hendrix, Kurt Cobain, Edith Piaf, Pedro Armendariz, Vincent Van Gogh, Marilyn Monroe, Frida Kahlo……

Sometimes as an artist, writer, musician, etc. you can think more or see beyond more than the needed sometimes this is good and sometimes bad. You can become wiser than others and find the truth which is not always pleasant.

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Is it better to know or to not to know? Or to pretend you didn’t go beyond that thin transparent line?

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