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Gender: Female
Status: In a Relationship
Age: 21
Sign: Scorpio

City: GARDEN GROVE
State: CALIFORNIA
Country: US
Signup Date: 8/18/2004

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Thursday, December 10, 2009 

Current mood:  sad
Category: Life
Rosa Your death still hurts me like it did the day I saw you laying lifeless at UCI!!!! It

 was unbelievable then and its unbelievable now!! It was as someone stuck their hands

inside my chest and yank my heart out with all their strength! I remember that day was

different then any other!! All day I was home sad because it was COLD & WET!! Little

did I know that, that night my mom would receive that call at around 8pm that would

change the lives of everyone that knew you!! The voice of your mother telling mine you

had been in a car accident with your bf and didn't know what hospital you were in!! So

my mom called your bf and we found out you were at UCI!! =(!! My mom and I rushed

there!! When we got there they didn't want to give us any information until your mom

got there!! We waited and waited for about an hour and a half and finally your mom,

dad, and two bros got there!! One doctor came out with a nurse and a translator they

told your mom to have a seat actually they told all of us to have a seat!! your mom had

a seat next to the doctor your dad right next to your mom my mom right by your dad I

sat across the doctor while your bros right next to me!! And your mom asked "how is

Rosa doing?" He said "twenty to thirty doctors and nurses helped give Rosa CPR, we did

everything we could" and your mom yelled "but how is she!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" with a long

pause he said " she didn't make it, we couldn't bring her back!!" my aunt threw herself

to the floor and cried and yelled!! She thought it was a joke at first though!! I ran

outside and screamed and almost threw myself on my knees of how weak my legs

were!! I didn't believe it!! I had to see you so I did and it still didn't hit me, I thought

you were going to wake up and tell us you were jk!! Until the day of your viewing that's

when it hit me!! You were gone it was true!! Once I walked into the chapel and saw you

in their I couldn't hold back the tears and I let it all out!! The hardest was the next day

at your funeral when we all listened to your favorite song the one you played over and

over again!! Our family is not the same without you there is always that empty spot

when we get together!! There isn't a day or night I don't think about you!! You are the

last person I think about before going to sleep and the first I think about after waking

up!! I wonder how you are if you are ok!! I wish you could come into my dreams once

again like you did right after we buried you!! You told me "Porque lloras Amy ya no

llores ya no estes triste" but I can't help it!!


I hate how we wont be able to talk about our bf's and how they make us mad!! How you

wont leave me voicemails anymore say "hola Amy soy tu prima Roas" or how you wont

call me to wish me a happy birthday anymore!! I didn't even get to spend a last xmas

with you!! I love you Rosa!! & I miss you with all my heart and soul!! I know these days

are going to be hard!! The holidays are here and a new year is about to start & it is


rainy and cold like that day back in Feb 8th, 2009!!

"It's almost a year since you've gone... They say time heals all wounds but in my case, I'm feeling more pain as days pass by...just the thought that you won't be coming back anymore makes me sick, half of me died with you. You will always be in my heart."

"They say memories are golden, well maybe that is true. I never wanted memories, I only wanted you. A million times I needed you, a million times I cried. If love alone could have saved you, you never would have died. In life I loved you dearly, in death I love you still. In my heart you hold a place no one could ever fill. If tears could build a stairway, and heartache make a lane. I'd walk that path to heaven, and bring you home again. Our family chain is broken, and nothing seems the same. But as God calls us one by one, the chain will link again."


 


Tuesday, May 19, 2009 

Current mood:  melancholy
Hey Rosa!! I miss you soooooooo much. I think about you when I wake up, while I'm laying down, before I go to bed. I can't help it. But everytime I look at your picture I can't help but think of all the good times we had together. Some people think I should just take you're pictures down. I know I shouldn't cry, well thats what people say. But I'm only human. I think of all the things we didn't get to do together. Such as going to a club or a theme park. How your death brought all the family together!! You definitley taught us a lesson. Your death brought a couple of together again and I know for a fact you're HAPPY!! Thank you Rosa, for coming into my dreams and letting me see you were ok where you are now. There is a heaven and you're in it!! You gave me the biggest smile that day and told me not to CRY anymore, not to be sad. I still CRY and I still get sad.
I LOVE YOU and I MISS YOU ROSA!!

Nov 17th, 1988 - Feb 8th, 2009
Sunday, February 15, 2009 

Current mood:  depressed


Life is so short!! It can be taken away from you in a blink of an eye. I know from now on I will appreciate life more!! Without any drama! I cant believe my cousin is gone already she was only 21!! So young so full of life!! I cant believe she isn't here anymore. Its so hard to accept it!! I miss you Rosa!! I know you are in heaven now!! Just give me and everyone else the strength to let you go on Thursday!! =(
                              
                           R.I.P Rosa Gomez
         November 17th, 1987~ February 8th, 2009



Thursday, September 18, 2008 

Current mood:  melancholy

We started out as just good friends, but thats not where this story ends.
My heart was still healing from the one before you, and then when you asked me I wasnt sure what to do.

Then after a while it occurred to me that you my cure, from the hard breakup I had to endure.
His face would sometimes appear in my head, but it slowly became you instead.
I convinced myself that you were different and took a chance, and at first it went smoothly like perfect romance.
I couldnt have asked for anything more...everything was fun; it wasnt long after you started all the lying.
When we ended I was so confused, till it came clear to me that I had been used.
If I would have listened to my friends from the start you might not have left with half of my heart!


Tuesday, June 24, 2008 

Current mood:  pissed off
WorldVision

Stop Human Trafficking!! We might not be able to stop it on our own but we can definitely TRY!! This is not right. Its unbelievable that we still have modern slavery in 2008!! This does not only exist in foreign countries is happens in the U.S as well!! Children shouldn't be sex slaves!! They should be going to school and playing!! Men & women should not either!! Let's get together and pray that this ends soon!!
Wednesday, May 07, 2008 

Current mood:  discontent

people tend to judge me because of how i walk or because of how i look. they say i always give mean looks and that i walk around thinking im "all that". like if i own this world.

i just have one thing to say just because i like to do my make up and dress nice doesnt make me a horrible person or a person without feelings. yeah maybe my parents have given me everything i need but that doesnt mean i am the happiest person alive. i also hurt and have problems. nobody takes the time to stop and ask me how im doing?  they assume that i dont have problems. just because they say im a "bitch".

many ppl judge me without getting to know me. thinking that by giving me a good look they know who i am inside out. i dont go around judging ppl by their looks or the way they walk or just because they dont hold a smile throughout the day!! we all have bad days some more than others. but if you take one second out o your day to talk to someone you will know a lot.

its hard for me to get along with most ppl bcuz they judge me b4 getting to know me. maybe thats y i have more guy friends than girl friends cuz guys are haters but not as bad as girls. we r all humans and i guess that is just part of life.

but dont judge and expect not to be judged. cuz that wouldnt be fair.

Tuesday, April 26, 2005 

Current mood:  curious
WOULD U GO OUT WITH ME? WOULD U WANT TO MAKE LOVE TO ME? WOULD U KISS ME? WOULD U HOLD MY HAND? WOULD U HUG ME? AM I BEAUTIFUL, PRETTY, OR JUST AVERAGE? BY JUST LOOKING AT MY PICTURE DO U THINK IM A GREAT LOVER? (THANKS 4 ANSWERING THESE ?'S)