Merry Christmas first of all. I miss you dearly.

Notice how that isn't addressed? Im not even to sure on why. Maybe so that anyone who reads this feels a little bit loved. You know? I haven't had a too amazing Christmas. And I really was sure I wasn't homesick, That was until I tried calling my Daddy and I couldn't reach him. It made me want to cry. Im Most definately Daddy's little girl and I just wanted a christmas wish, and I was going to ask him to play my song on the guitar cuz I miss hearing it every christmas. I also miss another person. God I miss them. I was talking to my dear friend and I told her how I just wanted one thing. One thing he used to give me all the time, and somehow lost it. And in the end lost me. There was so much that could have been. Honestly I could see myself being happy with him the rest of my life. If he was being himself. The one I love. The one I adore. My little Moo. But I guess it doesn't happen like that does it. You have one christmas wish every year, and although something amazing seems to alway happen, or around the time something really good happens, the one thing you were dyeing for never comes. It always happens. Never got the pony, thats for sure. This year, well Im not sure its still very early christmas here, but I doubt I will get the email, the confession, the need. Hes found someone new anyways. I hope she treats him right, I hope she remembers that he hates ketchup but will let u tease him as long as u never make him taste it, and to always have a big supply of garlic salt, never eat doritos around him, don't beat him at his video games, and no matter how hard it is, tell him u like his music. And just love him please. Love him like I did/do. Keep him Happy.

Well twas that night before christmas,

And I should be in bed,

But my mind was stirring

my keyboard a flowing

Merry Christmas to all and to all a goodnight

Yes my poetry does suck, gimme a break its 5am here and I haven't slept yet.