Uggggggggness!!!! That is the last time I go swimming!!! >_<

First of all, I was literaly forsed into a damned bikini-tipe thing, which SUCKS because I feel like a whore whenever I wear one, and the perverts at the pool so GLADLY proved my point!!

So my friend since the 4th grade, Brandi, and I went swimming with her neighbors Eddie and Sarah, and her sister Lana.

We were playing "Sharks and Menos" with this big ass group of boys but I had to eventually stop because the damned perverts wouldn't leave us alone...

And then we were just swimming when a dude about 6 years old freaking GROPED my ASS, LAUGHED, and STALKED us for the next 2 HOURS!!! A FLIPPIN 6 YEAR OLD!!!!! WTF?!?!

...That's sereously disterbing!!

And since I haven't been out in the sun for 3 years, I have a huuuuuuuuuudge ass sunburn and it hurts to even move!!!! Man, now I know why I never go out in the sun and when I do I wear long sleeves....THE SUN IS EVIL!!! BELIEVE IT!!!

Speaking of which....I am currently out of ramen.

Now my life is meaningless....  

(Oh and I saw a ghost on Friday the 13th!! (no, sereously!) A HUMAN one this time!! AWESOME!!! X3)

GAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!   >={

Ok, with that said, you can see I'm under alot of stress right now.

Alot.

Now I know most of you are like "Oh shut UP already!!", and I will, eventually, just hear me out for now.

I dunno, I just feel like I have to first apologize to my friends and peers for my odd behaveior, it makes the mood depressing , not like the usual me...

Well, I guess it's all because of the chapter that they won't shut up about in S.S., the Holocaust, and first the Maltz museum, now the movie, then the final exam, ect., ect., ect...it really gets one thinking, not to mention makes the rest of the school year  depressing.....when you have to constantly think about all that happened!!

And it also is just greeeeeaaaat that I also have to think about...what happened in past events, I can't really tell you why I feel so down all of the sudden. (This also explains my currant profile song.)   -_-'

I don't even know...

So, now for those of you who know me, and those of you who would LIKE to get to know me, first you have to understand I don't usually come out and talk about what's bothering me...I usually just keep it all to myself untill it explodes.

Well, *KABOOM!!!*  Too late, because now I feel sad, and I don't like feeling sad.... =:(

SOME ONE MAKE ME SMILE DAMNIT!!!! I don't want to think right now, I want to forget all my promblems for a while!!! Even if it's just a short while, I need to....

...I've never been able to beet depression on my own.....

....so yeah, now that I've left you all on that VERY happy thought, some good news (well to me it is...): 89% DONE WITH LIGHT COSPLAY!!!! YAY!!!

All I need is a death note, which is comeing soon.

And I will dye my wig someime this weekend!!  >XD

Oh, Oh, and we're MOVING FINALLY!!!!!! YES!!!!! (If you knew what conditions I live under at the present, you would be rejoyceing too.....) >////<

YEAH!!!!! Sometime this month, isn't that AWESOME?!?!?!?!?!??!!?!?

....It's the only thing that gives me hope right now....well, that and my word game rematch with (you know who you are)

....Yeah my pride is at stake heehee...gah.......I'm not used to getting pwnd............ >_>   <_<    >_>

(LMAO ok I feel happy now, I'm watching midjets fight!!!!! XD That cracks me up....nothing beets comidy!!!!!! XD)

                      ~Gabbeh

So today...we went to the Holocaust exibit at the Maltz museum, in Cleveland...for a feild trip (we had been studying this period in time in S.S for a while now)......and....it was....THE SADDEST, most DEPRESSING thing I......well, it's just......I don't cry easily....at all....rarely in public....sometimes at home on those emo days.....but that was the most........the........the most devistating thing.....I have ever seen....and that's really saying something, seeing the shit I put up with in my so called "Child Hood" ....see...when they show raw, acctual footage of...the death camps and the killings....the bodies..........and what they did to the bodies....................................this one video....it was.....it....it grabbed at my heart....now, see, I don't mind movies like 300, with all the blood and gore....I don't mind that, I enjoy kick-ass fighting scenes....but...the movie I saw today was so...haunting....it literally ate at my soul.....the prisoners, the innocent Jews, they were....walking skelotons......you think I'm exaturateing? Go to the museum, and see for yourself....they were...burned alive....gassed.....shot......beaten.......and I had succeded to hold back tears until that particular movie...I...couldn't watch it with the other students the first time, I looked away and shut my eyes tightly...but when all the students kinda ran off to do thier own thing.......I went back to watch it alone.........I couldn't make it to the end..........I freaking lost it...and I couldn't stop crying it was........just like...."YOU SEE WHAT YOU DID TO THESE PEOPLE?!?!?! AND FOR WHAT?!?!?! WHAT REASON?!?! THEY WERE DIFFERENT?!?!"

...God I still can't talk about it in person, I...... I tear up when I think...................................I'm......I'm sorry you guys...but.........The hollocost was THAT sad...and, for anyone who came to the feild trip with the rest of my grade and saw me.....lose it like that......sorry for getting so damned emotional in public...........



......I'm sorry....................















R.I.P.