Hello world. It's been a long time last time I wrote down anything. Unlike before my entries, there have been changes in my life. Some were unexpected while others were anticipated. Are they good or bad? Maybe, maybe not. Some perspectives see it as new opportunities while other sees it as down fall. Could it be a gain or loss? Some say it was trapped in a cage but now it obtained wings to fly for the sky. Others say it as if the wings were clipped. Some say everything has reasons according to God. To me, it will reveal itself through time.
While I speak to others about the recent obstacles, I noticed certain elements from each one that stood out the most. I then take them in deep thoughts whether its my negative or positive decisions. I thank everyone for their time to listen and give their words and wisdom to me. Even if it's brief, it's more than nothing at all.
One person mentioned about dependency. The only person who can be trusted is you. You are the only who can inflict the minimal unintentional damage to yourself. This comment is true and common. I took it and thought of it more. There are two opposite side of dependency. First form is loneliness. If it's not the most painful emotion, it is consider as one of the most painful. You typically depend on that person for everything, whether for complaints or compliments, everything is shared through that person. And once that link is cut off, everything is kept within. Since that dependency was so high, standing up was impossible. Darkness lurks within your thoughts and emotions and everything you touch is cold. Second form is independent. Unlike dependency where you lean on someone to stand up, independent allows you to stand up and support on your own. Of course, the help of family and friends are great, but overall, everything is through you. You are able to stand by yourself physically and emotionally.
I recently went berserk on buying music CDs. It has been a while last time I listen to music as much as now. Not sure how to end this, but Joss Stone's album is out. Its her typical soul type vibe music with guest appearances of miss Lauryn Hill and Common.
Spring Break comes to an end and school mentality is in session once again. Many people enjoy this time around since it temporarily relief stresses and gain time qualities to himself/herself. Vocational trips are common but for most students, it's over load of working hours. I'm a victim of this. 50+ hours is probably not much to others, but to full time students, its overload. But the reward is an enormous value of a paycheck. I guess I can not complain much. Through vocational trip or working, either one will benefit something in its on ways. One thing is stress free from school. Even though it's just a short amount of time, it's worth it.
Sports. NFL draft is near (next month) and Final Four is in progress. NBA is close to its post season and MLB is warming up once again. Congrats to Indy Colts for their Superbowl win especially MVP Suberbowl P. Manning for having that "monkey" off his back. A lot of talks that Brady Quinn will be #1 draft but did he prove enough to deserve that title? To me, I can careless. NFL draft is an event to measure how much money they can get, not how much you earn or deserve. Many NFL players that became legends were not drafted in round one and two or to some not drafted at all. Either way, I still think many players are over paid and this system is too much attached to money than the love of the game.
Movies. The TMNT (teenage mutant ninja turtles) film was recently released. Surprisingly, I was impressed. The plot contains more than a cartoon-ish story like the typical Disney films. Comedy was the usually characters but overall, it was a great break through. Other than that, 300 was the most anticipated film yet, until May because that's when Spiderman 3 and Pirates of Caribbean: At World's End are out. Then it's a whole new game.
Not much to say about government but it has been the same. As always, something is always kept in secret from the people and gas is increasing once again. I knew it was too good to be true when we broke $2.oo at one time.
Social system is predictable as ever. Looks are everything. It can deceive you, lead you, gain information or gain nothing at all. Whatever you are looking for, surely it can found if you put much hope, faith and work to it. Or give up and try again later.
People have been asking me "Why the change of name?" Through the story of World of Terah, I was able to develop characters with little information about them. One character is Nero. In ancient times, Nero was a king who did infamous events. In this story, similar events might happen or probably the same line. This is the first time I was able to create a villain character. I have much to write about this one since many ideas just rushed to me. So for now, I will play Nero, until I feel comfortable as how I was back then. Though I might not be as open as before, nevertheless, anything can happen even if it's planned out or not.
Well then, take care as always. I will be surprise if there is one person to read this excluding myself. Much much love and peace.
Signing off,
TRUPER™