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LaVar Banks


Last Updated: 12/22/2009

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Gender: Male
Status: Single
Age: 19
Sign: Scorpio

City: WEST CHESTER
State: Pennsylvania
Country: US
Signup Date: 10/23/2005

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July 31, 2009 - Friday 

Current mood:  confident
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes





 


I am 18
and I know
that if I just pray
God will stop me from being gay
 
I go to church
and I know
 that if I put my hands together,
cross my fingers
and just pray
God will stop me from being gay
 
I received the blessing
so I know
that if I put my hands together,
cross my fingers,
click my heels together three times
and pray
God will stop me from being gay



I am 18
and I know
that if I just say
that I am healed
no-one will know that I am gay


 
I go to church
and I know
that if I just say
the Holy Spirit took my guilt away
no-one will know that I am gay
 



I tell my parents
and I know
they think it's their lucky day
They cross their fingers,
kneel and pray
yet deep down they know
their son is gay -
but it's okay
 

"I have no reason to be afraid
In God's image I am made"


July 12, 2009 - Sunday 

Current mood:HUNGRY
Category: Writing and Poetry




Awaken to darkness on this place we call Earth,
One vampire's bite brings another one's birth.

A vampire wakes with blood thirsty needs
On the warm rich sensation he feels when he feeds.

He stalks in the night like a disatrous beast,
And what once was alive will soon be deceased.

So when the last bit of sunlight disappears from the sky,
You better watch out unless you want to die.
Currently watching:
The Little Vampire
Release date: 2001-03-06
July 9, 2009 - Thursday 

Current mood:  cold
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes
But i can't =[






if feel trapped...

I just wanna be my self.

Can you let me be me?

Unfortunately, there is no easy way to determine whats going on in my head.

Do I prefer ...
Am I physically attracted...
Do I feel an emotional bond...
Would I consider an intimate relationship...

I can really say what i'm trying to say, I guess it takes time (or just a really good guess, lol)

HELP ME OUT HERE!

i can't help how I feel, I GUess thats me, how i am, how i'll be....
Currently listening:
I'm Yours
By Jason Mraz
Release date: 2008-12-16
June 25, 2009 - Thursday 

Current mood:  cold
Category: Life
I'm here checkin' it out, guess i might as well
Gonna make the most of this before i hear the bell
Always been the one in the spotlight
Workin out and havin' a good time
Now my worlds turned u


pside down


Here i go,
Gonna work it out somehow
Walkin tall but i hope you know
Got both feet on the ground
It's okay, i know that i will find a way
To make this world my own
So here i go
Here i go
See your face in a magazine with the stories that they tell
Your picture on my wall, your ringtone on my cell
Got used to living the good-life, in class with everything just right
Now my worlds turned upside down
ha
So here i go
Currently listening:
We Started Nothing
By The Ting Tings
Release date: 2008-06-03
June 3, 2009 - Wednesday 

Current mood:  excited
Category: Music


The Broken Poetics is a group of several musicians which rotate from show to show! We keep it clean!

The Music that is Now playing on our Page is not our own, but the bands that are listed. These are what OUR band songs are made up of, So if you like the music or think it's funny than you'll LOVE our Band/Group.

*We are currently having practice whenever is best for the members!

If you would like to join our band/group hit me up with a message OR email me at

BROKEN_POETICS@YAHOO.COM

THANKS,THE BROKEN POETICS


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Currently listening:
Cheeses...
By Five Iron Frenzy
Release date: 2003-04-22
June 3, 2009 - Wednesday 

Current mood:  bummed
Category: Life
well it may be just another day, but remember those who may have lost someone in past.

Today I remember My Poppy. One AWESOME man. His joy still lives on today.

Just thinking of him fills my heart with JOY, and makes me sing!




"I sing because I’m happy,
I sing because I’m free,
For His eye is on the sparrow,
And I know He watches me."
Currently listening:
I'm Yours
By Jason Mraz
Release date: 2008-12-16
June 3, 2009 - Wednesday 

Current mood:  adventurous
Category: Life
I play it safe, or maybe I’m controlling?

Whoa, there-- control freak much? You're totally familiar with the ''my way or the highway'' approach to life, in fact, you practically invented it। You're the kind of person who thinks s/he is always right and though it's great that you're so strong in your convictions, this could lead you to focus too much on you and not enough on your partner. Compromise is key when it comes to dating-- it's time you do some of it if you want to be in healthy relationship.

So dating was really not my thing but I guess I’m gonna just have to step out of MY box, my safety zone. So yeah whatever happens , happens…
Currently listening:
Departure "Recharged"
By Jesse McCartney
Release date: 2009-04-07
January 7, 2009 - Wednesday 

Current mood:  adventurous
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes
Hosted By:
World Vision's 30 Hour Famine

When:
Friday, February 27, 2009

Where:

Description:
TO EVERYONE WHO WANTS TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE BY STARVING FOR FOOD... Feb. 27-28 is the National Date for the 30 Hour Famine in 2009, and you can be part of the difference, even if you're not in a group participating this year!

Click Here To View Event
Currently listening:
Everything Glorious
By Passion
Release date: 2006-04-04
January 2, 2009 - Friday 

Current mood:  anxious
Category: Parties and Nightlife
!!!!!!!
 
Well , well , well....What's Up Dude!
Okay.. Yes I'm A Jesus Freak but.. I WONT "Hound" you or BEAT you with the Bible...Every One is a Friend to me!
Yeah yeah, people do drugs, have sex before marriage, Steal and Lie...I do to; well minus the first Two... We were made that way.. We will sin; we're HUMAN.!.!.!
SOooO  .. I sin , You Sin, We ALL Sin...
So Why Not be Friends...
Whoa Whoa WHoa...
Sining is NOT Right!!!
So  just DO Your Personal BEST NOT TO...

Wait!! YOu Need Help???
Well there's Project-X!!!
Project-X is Here to help.
You Can talk  with Teens just like You...
DOnt Sugar Coat It! Be Truthful! Straight Forward!!
If You want to talk about normal teens stuff and get help from God and Bible AND other Teens... JUst Come Every THURSDAY @ 6PM
200 S. Church St.
West Chester PA,19382

Message Me If you want to hear more before you come, You Just to get A heads Up!
*WE are currently  Bribing Teens with Guitar Hero..If that Will get You To Come And Talk/Read about what the Bible says about Life!!!

Currently listening:
Labyrinth: From The Original Soundtrack Of The Jim Henson Film
By David Bowie
Release date: 2007-05-21
September 18, 2008 - Thursday 

Current mood:  betrayed
Category: Friends
Why must people be such jerks!
I do my best to be their friends and it seems like no one even cares...
A little effort never 'killed' anyone or maybe it stabs at you every time you "try".
Whatever....
I don't have time for all this crap an BS, Just tell me Now.
Should I stay or should I go?

Sometimes I get so mad I could just *bang* right in the head....only if I had the guts, but will you give the guts???

gezs....I'll just wait a little bit longer , but i don't think I can wait too much longer......

But does anyone care?
Currently listening:
I Brought You My Bullets, You Brought Me Your Love
By My Chemical Romance
Release date: 2002-07-23