1. Where did you meet your boyfriend/girlfriend/husband/wife?
I got into his car is the short version.

2. What was the first thought that went through your head when you met?
My tights are ripped, is this sexy or trashy?

3. Do you remember what you or they were wearing?
Yes, my tights were ripped. I had a hoodie and a jean mini on.

4. Where was the first time you kissed this person?
On my couch, and I believe he asked first.

5. How did they ask you out (or you ask them out)?
I asked.

6. Where did you go for your first date?
The Field. I have been on three first dates there.

7. How long did you know this person before you became a couple?
Three weeks? Maybe two.

8. Has this person ever proposed to you? If so, how?
If by proposed you mean went down on me then yes. By going down on me. EWWWW.

9. Do you and this person have kids together?
No. Well, we have a no baby rule thus far. Maybe it's a policy. But we do have Gus. And I'm pretty sure he's just as needy as a 7 year old.

10. Have you ever broken the law with this person?
Yup.

11. When was the first time you realized that you loved this person?
The Druid. I wrote it down to remember it.

12. Who said I love you first?
Uh oh. Me. I'm an emotional drunk.

13. Do you get along with any of the exes of your boyfriend/girlfriend?
I haven't really met any. But I think somehow we don't get along. There was this New York incident.

16. What is the best thing this person ever gave you?
Flowers and letters.


18. What is the one thing this person does that gets on your nerves?
Argues.

19. What is the one thing you do that gets on their nerves?
I insist on talking about things he doesn't want to talk about.

20. Where do you see each other 15 years from now?
He says on the run from the law. I say on a tropical beach, with Gus. He says, can't it be both? I say okay. We go to bed and make out now.

1. The next person you'll hold hands with, will it mean anything?
i would imagine so. when does it lose meaning? i don't want it to lose meaning.

2. Do you sleep with the TV on?
only if i fall asleep on the couch.

3. Have you ever drank alcohol straight from the bottle?
sure.

4. Do you think you're old?
i have grey hairs. several. more than several.

5. Are you afraid of the dark?
if i let myself.

6. Do you like your life right now?
i like 85% of my life right now.

7. When's the last time you chose a bath over a shower?
not for a while. i don't have a "bath" tub. my dad does. it has jets.

8. Do you knock on wood?
rarely.

9. Do you have good vision?
terrible.

10. Can you hula hoop?
a little.

11. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
no. you get one chance and i'm it.

12. Do you have a job?
sigh* i don't like it right now, but it pays.

13. Are you friends with your last ex?
NO. but i am friends with ex's.

14. What are you wearing?
undies. i'm in my bed debating.

15. Have you ever been suspended or expelled from school?
no

16. Have you ever crawled through a window?
i lock myself out a lot.

17. Bitch?
very rarely intentionally. i realize i sometimes say things that don't come out right even though i mean them in an endearing way.

18. Can you handle the truth?
i don't know. i'm wondering that lately.

19. What was the most recent thing you bought?
a greek salad.

20. Are you listening to music?
nope. i don't listen to enough recently.

21. Where are you?
bed.

22. How often do you talk on the phone?
ha.

23. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
i do.

25. Are you in a complicated relationship?
i don't know. no. yes. it can be.

26. Do you hate more than 3 people?
probably not.

27. Have you ever tripped someone?
i really don't think intentionally.

28. Name one thing that is always on your mind?
just one?

32. Have you made a prank phone call?
oh susie.

33. Are you sarcastic?
yes

34. Have you ever slapped someone?
i've sure wanted to.

35. Do looks matter?
sure. i need to get butterflies.

36. Do you use chapstick?
yes

37. Are you too forgiving?
i think so. i used to be. i'm actually trying not to be so forgiving.

38.Do you own something from Hot Topic?
not since like 8th grade.

39. Do you own a gun?
no

41. Name something blue near you.
blanket on my bed.

42. Olive Garden?
i loathe you.

43. Have you ever been in a castle?
yes. ireland.

44. Are you thinking about somebody right now?
very much so.

45. Do you like your hair?
not right now. i want it to be longer and i need to cut my bangs.

46. Does anyone have a crush on you?
i hope so.

47. Do you like yourself?
right now not so much.

48. Are you closer to your mother or father?
dad

49. Have you ever stripped?
ummm professionally?

50. Are you religious?
no

51. Do you chat on AIM often?
not often

52. Have you ever broken someone's heart?
sure.

53. Full house or Brady Bunch?
i don't want to answer this, i'm bored.

54. Do you like your high school guidance counselor?
no

55. Has anyone ever called you a tease?
:)

56. Do you have any scars, where?
hand. arm. heart... ewwww

57. Relationships or one night stands?
i went through that. i'd like to take things seriously for a while thank you.

58. Have you seen all the Rocky movies?
not ALL

59. Desktop or laptop?
laptop

60. Ever wish upon a star?
yea. i'm dumb.

61. Where is your dad right now?
bartending.

62. Last time you kissed someone? Who?
for real kissed? ted. on a stoop.

63. Name five things you did today.
got coffee. waitressed. finished a book. got stuck on a t. went out with a friend.

64. Last person you text messaged?
mooney eyes. what?

66. Where does your best friend work?
hm.

68. What are you listening to?
nothing

69. What do you smell like?
girl

70. What color are your eyes?
blue

71. Have you ever done a Chinese fire drill?
yes

72. What color is your bedroom floor?
hard wood.

73. Do you have a chair in your room?
no

74. What are you doing tomorrow?
working. dating.

75. Do you know someone named Betsy?
yea.

76. What color is your mom's hair?
it looked blonde on sunday.

78. Do you remember singing any songs as a kid?
i see the moon and the moon see's me. the moon see's somebody i'd like to see. so god bless the moon and god bless me god bless the somebody i'd like to see. it seems to me that god above, created you for me to love. he picked you out from all the rest, because he knew i'd love you best.

79. Are you married?
no. no. no.

80. Last time you talked to your siblings
i'm an only.

81. Do you play an instrument?
no

82. Do you like fire?
um...yes

83. Are you allergic to anything?
gold.

84. Do you have a crush on anyone?
wicked.

85. Best friends?
yes.

86. Have you ever been to a spa?
no. i don't think it's a big priority.

87. Did you take science all four years of high school?
no. and i haven't graduated college. as per recently pointed out. ouch. shannon, watch the bitter pill.

88. Do you like butterflies?
in my tummy

89. Do you miss someone right now?
. yes.

90. Do you think they miss you too?
they are sleeping. maybe they miss me in their dreams.

91. Have you ever seen your school counselor?
yes

92. Have you ever wanted to be a teacher?
yes.

94. Whats your favorite color?
you.

95. Is anyone jealous of you?
in strange ways maybe.

96. Ever been stuck in an elevator?
no

97. What does your mom call you?
Gert (?) Shanny

98. What does you hair look like right now?
pony tail

99. Has anyone told you that they like you more than a friend?
haha yes.

100. What have you eaten today?
coffee. greek salad wrap. i'm not that healthy trust me.

101. Is your hair naturally curly or straight?
gay.

102. Who was the last person you drove with?
ted.

103. What are you looking forward to?
smooching. surpirse date.

104. How are you today?
lonely.

105. Are you interested in anyone right now?
tons of people. i had a nice night out with one.

I cry. I'm used to not crying, but lately I've become someone who cries. I get sad and I now emote.

I want to be stereotypical.
I want to talk about my period for a second. Hey this is my blog I can talk about menstruation.

Everytime I get my period I discover something new about myself.
I blame this emotional surge on it. It's like the tides. All the stuff is there all along, but you know when the tide goes out, and you see all the stuff just lying there on the beach? The sticks, seaweed, and clams and all that good stuff?

Well it's exposed and raw. That stuff has been there all along, it's just out there right now.

Like my emotions.

I'm super gushy right now.
I miss Genevieve.
I miss Ted, and I just saw him.
I miss how my friends used to be.


I miss.

I'm stalling. See.


1. Name one important person who made you smile today.
This is gonna be gross... but Ted. I had a terrible day, and I don't think I've smiled since sleepy goodbyes.

2. What were you doing at 8:00 AM this morning?
NOT sleeping because the street cleaning truck was making a series of loud "move your car" announcements.

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Watching a show online.

4. What is something that happened to you in 1994?
I got glasses.

5. What is the last thing you said aloud?
"I don't wanna go."

6. How many different things did you drink today?
Iced coffee, diet coke, water.

7. What color is your hairbrush(comb)?
Black.

8. What was the last thing you bought?
Coffee.

12. What was the weather like today?
Warm with some crazy little showers.

13. What is the best ice cream flavor?
Ugh, I just had some ice cream (thanks for leaving that ice cream in the freezer)

14. What are you excited about?
Getting my act together. Smooching.

15. Say something about the person who last posted this..
Vagina.

16. What size shoe do you wear?
6

18. Are you very random?
Probably.

19. Do you want to cut your hair?
No! Grow!

20. Are you over the age of 25?
Nope nope.

21. Do you talk a lot?
I don't actually.

23. Does your screen name have an "x" in it?
No. Silly.

24. Do you know anyone named Steven?
Um. A bartender.

25. Do you make up your own words?
Not really. Ok. I didn't know, but I made up the word clapter.

26. Are you ticklish?
If I let myself.

27. Are you typically a jealous person?
I didn't think so, but I find myself kind of jealous lately. Just a little.

28. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter "C":
Char.

29. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter "J":
Jake

32. Do you chew on your straw?
Yes.

33. Do you have curly hair?
No. Very straight.

35. Who is the crappiest person in your life?
Customers.

36. How many times have you swore today?
More than I probably realize.

39. Have you seen the movie 'Donnie Darko'?
What? Yea...


40. Do you have work tomorrow?
Night. Just for a little.

43. What should you be doing right now?
Getting ready for my show.

44. Do you have a nickname?
Tons.

45. Are you a heavy sleeper?
Not last night. That's why I'm tired and cranky right now.

46. When was the last time you used a skateboard?
Last Flaming rehearsal? James?

47. What is the best movie you've seen in the past two weeks?
I dunno. Hitcher was horrible.

48. who lives in a Bodega Under the sea?
King Leer.

49. When was the last time you did the dishes, Honestly?
Yesterday.

50. Did you cry today?
No. I think I only cry when I'm drunk and insecure.

I have a hard time remembering what I did during the summer as a kid. I really can't remember anything before the summer I was at Walnut Hill, and I was 15 then. That was the summer I found Gus. Chris and Jeff still lived down stairs from me. Ben Leavitt was my boyfriend, Elise and Vanessa my best friends. Susie got a crush on Mike that summer. I think that was the summer we discovered Limbo.

Chris and Jeff lived in the apartment downstairs from my mom and I. The house was exactly the same except for the little nook in the kids room that I thought was the coolest thing ever. I think it's because it was bigh enough for me to fit in, but too small for other people. Strange, I know. I spent every day with that family. I was their babysitter, but more like a live in nanny. For a while it was like I had brothers. I watched them grow up for five years. Jeffery must be about to graduate and Chris is probably driving. We used to play pretend and I would tell them stories about Applethoragus and furniture that came alive at night.

Really.

Actually, that was the summer that Christopher choked on a penny and I gave him the himelick (I butchered that spelling and I'm okay with it). Those boys taught me a lot. Jeff was always so honest. I would come down stairs with an outfit I was going to wear out just to ask his opnion. 7 year olds will tell you when you look pretty because they have no reason to lie, they also don't mind telling you when you look ugly.

I have a sunburn, and I'm sleeping naked on my bed that's on the floor which reminds me of that summer. I wish I still lived there.

You know, I don't really mind the rain all that much.

It's surprising how little you have to say when you're happy. I have noticed a strange evolution in me as of late. I suppose it happens to everyone when they enter a new relationship, but I'm only beginning to get used to it. I'm almost annoyed with myself for wanting to spend so much time with him, but it's a simple matter of fact. To be perfectly honest... I like it. A lot.

Today I have to myself. I haven't had a day time alone in quite a while. First on this agenda is to clean the house. It's a disaster.

Anyone know a good idea for a getaway? Relatively priced? I want to leave for a little.

Clearly I'm happy. That's all I have to say. I'm much more interesting when I'm tormented.

I had no idea it was spring until yesterday when I went into Dunkin Donuts to get coffee for everyone at work and they threw free ones at me.

To be honest, spring usually depresses me. Everything looks so dead.  I know, I know... Autumn is when everything dies, but it dies in such a pretty way.  It goes out in a fiery blaze of glory.  Trees lighting up and decorating the ground.  Spring just looks wet.  And soggy.  I wish it would at least rain all the time.  Because a sunny day with wet soggy grounds makes me grumpy.

Okay.

This year is different. I walked down the street and felt so good today. The sun was on my nose, the snow was melting, and I found myself smiling at people like I has some kind of special secret.  I don't smile at strangers.  I do that for a living, so it usually doesn't happen unless there is a 20% tip involved.  Now, it doesn't hurt that I've been having an excellent time in my social life lately.  Improv. is going perfectly well.  I love love love my troop at Improv Boston.  I finally feel like I'm connecting and trusting everyone. I'm learning so much about my strengths and learning more about my weaknesses.  I'm in a good place with my friends. You can't go wrong with old stand byes and I'll stick to that. Plus some new feels goods. And for the first time in a while, I'm dating someone who I still get butterflies about after the 3rd date.  We all know about the terrible May-January stint I went through with men last year, where I found myself unhappy. I never want to let anyone make me feel bad about myself like that again. That constant bookmark feeling.  You know the one, the feeling you get when someone is just holding you in place until something better comes along. Ew.  I don't even like to think about it.
It's just nice to feel wanted.

So here we are.  Of course somethings need to be fixed.  Go back to school (classes start in September).  Find a new cheaper place to live. Maybe find another job.

But for now, I'll be okay with spring cause it leads to summer.  I'll be happy with my friends, and hopeful that these butterflies stick around in my tummy, cause it's nice to have someone on your mind.

Hi, my name is.....Shannon

Never in my life have I... Been to the West Coast.
.
High school...Was alright. I didn't peak in high school which is more than I can say about other people I know.

When I...Wake up my nose is really cold.

The last time I cried was...watching the final 6 Feet Under episode... and I didn't cry... I sobbed. I haven't cried that messy in a while.

If I were to get married right now my wedding would be... Very unexpected.

My hair is...New. I'm still getting used to this cut.

When I was 7... I was just as much of a free spirit as I am now.

Last Christmas... Was wonderful.

I should be... Much busier than I am right now.


The craziest recent event was... About a boy.

If I were a character on... I'd probably be a muppet of a fraggle.

By this time next year... I want to be back in school.

My current gripe is... My cold little fingers.

I have a hard time understanding...Numbers.

There's this girl I know who... Keeps me in check.

You know I like you when... I get quiet. I like it when we can be comfortable.

If I won an award, the first person I would tell would be... Carlton?

My most wanted wish is... Not to have to worry about the small stuff.

If you visited the place I was born... You would get bored in twenty minutes.

I plan to visit... Genevieve.

If you spend the night at my house... We would drink wine and be silly.

I'd stop my wedding if... If I didn't love you.

The world could do without... Homophobia.

I'd rather lick the belly of a cockroach than... Lick the belly of Dick Cheney.

Most recent thing I've bought myself... A beer?
.
Most recent thing someone else bought me... A beer?

My favorite blonde is...Carlton.

My favorite brunette is... Genevieve

My favorite redhead is... Susie.

My middle name is... Fitzgerald.

This morning I... Woke up to the phone ringing. Carlton's sister had her baby.

The animals I would like to see flying besides birds are...Cats. Flying cats..

I'm eating.... Cheese.

Last night I was... Working. Having a glass of wine with Destiny at the Corner.

There's this guy I know who... knows a guy.

I don't know… how to knit.

A better name for me would be...I like me. Maybe clutz.

Tomorrow I am... Going out with a boy.

My birthday is.. January 8th.

What I really want for Valentine's Day is... Too far away. I don't even think I knew it was Valentines day this year...

Every year I stay up until 1:44 am on my Birthday.  Cause that's when I was born.

 

I've lived such a strange life. My parents divorced when I was one.  I'm an only child. In the past three years I've learned more about my upbringing than I was actually aware of.  I'm best friends with my father, though right now we're not talking to each other.  I'm sad about it.  That's my biggest understatement of the year so far.

Ugh.  The year so far. It's only been a week, and I'm not best friends with 2007. I started off the year awkwardly.  I still don't know how to feel about it.  How much can you blame on champange?

 I subconciously made the resolution not to wear make up in 2007.  And so far, I haven't.  Well, a little mascara to feel dressed up but thats it. You have no idea how big of a deal that is.

I just never thought 24 would happen.  I was one when my mom was 24.  I've lost two cell phones in three months. How can someone my age handel a kid?  I find myself so lonely, but also wanting to spend so much time alone. 

This sounds terribly depressing. 

What I haven't mentioned is how content I am.  This past year has proven to be a heartbreaking defining one.  Heartbreaking in the good and bad way.  I've dated more than I ever have. I've even maintained a few good relationships.  A few bad weird ones too. I'm comfortable in my own skin.  I have a job that I love 85% of the time, which is more than I can say for some of my friends.  I've even got a good friend or two out of it. It's nice to care about people.

Right now, I'm moderatly happy.  Sure, I would like a consistant relationship. One that goes from beyond dating for a few months to actual boyfriend level.  Oh, Liz Phair before you sold out.  You had it right. I want all that stupid old shit like letters and flowers.

I'm happy about improv.  IB has been this saving grace, that until now I've been afraid to commit to because of my own insecurities.  Know what?  Fuck insecurities. I have so much to learn and that is what is exciting. I have the potantial and the tools to be *really* good.  I'm gonna rape that shit.

Yes.  I said rape. 

Let's be more honest with ourself this year, shall we Shannon? And let's try to be an adult. I may be passionate and messy... but this year I need to become and adult.

Who wears tutu's.

It's 1:44. I swear I didn't plan this.

It was pitch black when I woke up on the couch this morning.  The drapes had been drawn shut last night, and I could have sworn it was 5:00 am.

It was however, 12:30 instead.  There goes my day.

 

Saturday night I worked, which was crazy busy.  After I met Carlton and Lisa at Whiskey's.  We tried to go to the Common Ground for dancing-alas to no avail.

Where did we end up? 

That's right.  The Kells.  It's a dirty scary place full of critters, bad spiked hair (why is anyone spiking their hair?) and the same shirt that every guy wears-a button down in pastel, or black, or with checks.." The women were all in the same tube tops, and the same pointy shoes.

I have no right to complain about that place.  I'm the one that agreed to go in. And you know what?  I have a great time when I go and dance there with my friends.  Sure, I stick out like a sore thumb in my chucks and leg warmers.  At least it's a good laugh, and uninhibited dancing.

And do you know what I really do like?  The couples that are in love.  I mean if you watch people dance it's hillarious.  But some people just look so in love with each other.

Oh God Shannon, why don't you just throw up every where?

 

But it's that knowing look, or even better that blush because you were caught in a knowing look.

That's what I miss.

The End.