Well, where do I begin??? College is beginning to get to me, I almost fell asleep  in biology, one of my favorite subjects. I'm really moody  and bitchy  and I don't know why  , I should be happy, I'm in college, I have a beautiful son, whom I just love, and I have a boyfriend who is so sweet I don't deserve him. I miss working for money and having a sense of pride knowing I was providing for my son myself without the help of the state, now I don't even get enough money to cover my rent. I get so frustrated at the end of the month when I don't have money to even buy diapers and wipes or other essential things, I miss my friends that I went to school with and my "mcfamily" the people i worked with at McDonald's, I mean the beach wasn't all bad, but I like going to school and getting my degree.

What do I do, stay on TANF and be a WorkFirst puppet or close my case at DSHS and hope to God that BIlly gets a job soon?

I'm so tired I can barely stand it! I get up for school with Billy so we can have a little extra time together, but he sleeps in while i get up and get ready for another day.  Then I get William ready for daycare, he's my little teenager, he falls back to sleep after I wake him. 

After a grueling walk in the freezing morning air, William's at daycare and I head to the bus station to go to school. Monday and Wednesday, I have two classes one at 9 then one at 10. Tuesday and Thursday classes start at 8, and Thursday and Friday classes don't get out until noon. Friday i also work from 1 to 6, I don't even get paid for it.

I can't wait to start taking classes that actually pertain to my career. Which will probably never as long as I'm on welfare. It's like I'm their little puppet. I have to get these stupid forms signed EVERY class! what they can't look up attendance records? Then if I miss a class I have to make up the time. I have to bring in an excuse from a doctor or call, it's like I'm in high scool again, but with fewer people I know. I HATE it! 

I had it all planned out with the nursing department director, I was going to take psychology, chemistry, and english, but no I was screwed over!!!! I have to take this class that is like doing a whole quarter of making a senior project! We even have to present a project at the end of the quarter. I didn't sign up to be back in high school. I'm in basic algebra, I mean come the fuck on people the shit I'm learning I learned in middle school and it stuck in my head, i'm ahead of my class, i was in pre-calculus for goodness sake! i get an assignment that's due a week later and do it in one night.

The cool thing is I made a friend who's in three of my classes.

My favorite time of day is when Billy gets home because we get to talk and eat dinner. (and I feel loved!) 

well, i moved back to the grays harbor area. billy, baby and i will be gone for thanksgiving, and i'm quitting my job so i can go to k-falls. f--- mcdonald's anyway, (not LB mcd's though.) everyone there are a bunch of over weight bitches!!!!! ~loves!

p.s. i found a new hobby, playing god of war.

i miss my man. he was mean, now he's on time out.  <----- that's all the baby does, and what i wanna do, but i can't cause i work.

today, 4/14/08, was very gay, william jr was supposed to get circumcised today, the docters can't do that until he's a little older, but it will be a medical procedure, so the state will pay for it. so thinking i have $200 to spend william sr and i go out shopping and find out that the money hasn't been put back yet, i'm sooooo pissed off.

wow, i can't wait for william to arrive, it's been a long wait, but it will all be over in March, i was sent on leave of abscense at work so i play the full time housegirlfriend ( we aren't married yet) and do all the cooking and cleaning. my window is still broken, its been that way since march, it's almost december, my oven went out the night before thanksgiving, i'll be 19 in 2 weeks and 5 days. billy still gets on my nerves, but i love him any way. i could go on for days... but i won't. ? megan

WOW!  Senior year is almost over!!!! yay!then we'll all be adults, contributing to society. some will go to college, and some will work, i don't know which i will be doing, yet. i have been through a lot this year, this was the first year of high school i failed any of my classes. i can't wait to graduate i'm excited.

WOW! Summer is almost over. how sad.........NOT!  I can't wait for school to start...YAY!  SENIOR POWER! though I've experianced a lot! except the feeling of winning class president! thanks to everyone that did vote for me though. I thought that if I won it wouldn't be such a populrity contest anymore! I'm still a little upset b/c i really wanted to win over the other person. Sure she's pretty and smart, but pretty people aren't supposed to be class presidents, just the wierd people, like me anyway just needed to vent a little.