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Saturday, August 08, 2009
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Thursday, July 23, 2009
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Current mood:I want to burn something!
You know why? I work hard every fuckin day! I got to work on time I do what I'm suppose to do and more! Even though I don't make a lot of money somehow I still manage to give it to other ppl. I pay for my sister and I rent every month even tho its suppose to be split between us! I pay for my sister to go to the movies or out to eat..etc! I put gas in her car and I buy some groceries! I overdraw my account just so on some crappy months we don't have enough for rent! I sent my friends money b/c for some reason I feel like they need it more than I do...even though I can't pay my cell phone bill, I can't get my stuff out of storage b/c I;m behind on the payments, I can't pay my credit card bill..all b/c I dish out my hard earned money to help out friends and Ashley...just hoping that one day it will all work out...b/c "what goes around, comes around" ...right? WRONG! Thats bull shit! You know why...well what good has happened to me since I think of others around me before me. HHMMMM.....I've been robbed at gun point and they stole $200. hard earned money, We've almost been evicted, I lost my car ...twice, I work hard at all my jobs hoping that i might get a promotion sooner or later..but never happens, I can never get money for college b/c..oh lets see.....somehow I make too much money..ha...thats shit! Everytime I've come into some cash I end up having to pay rent or something like that b/c ashley can't, I get screwed by the IRS almost everytime....seriously they took more than half my money and I just do the easy form, and now the best one of all......today I was called to the managers office b/c I've been accused of stealing! Yeah..thats right steal my FRIENDS tip money! I DON"T STILL AND I"M NOT STUPID! they have cameras...I know they do and on the camera it shows my friend lay her deposit bag on the counter next to my book I'm studing..I go over there to get my pen ( which just so happens to be next to her bag) and it looks like her bag is unzipped so I go to zip it back only I unzzipped it..I quickly realize that so I zipp it back! From the crappy camera and the angle u can tell what I did only that I touched it so now I'm suspended..pending an investigation and I'll now Sunday if I'm fired! So yeppy for fucking me! So now that i've told u this..lets look at a nice example of someone who is opposite of me and gets the better fucking luck. My sister...now I love my sister but this just pisses me off! Everywhere she works somehow she gets promoted to a manager position in a rapid pace, she's lazy a lot and always blows her money and never pays anything she's suppose to, She can get all the money in the world to go to school..ya know why? B/c she went and made a mistake and got pregnant and b/c of that she gets free college education! Everything gets paid for her either by me or my parents! She always gets a shit load of cash back from the IRS and we do ours at the same fucking place! So these are just some of the things that tell me that
KARMA IS A LOAD OF FUCKING HORSE SHIT!
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Saturday, May 30, 2009
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Ok...so I was lazy and didn't want to type my blog so i did a video. Its a little shaking in some parts and its a little long than i wanted it to be so next time will be shorter! Oh and stupid myspace when i uploaded the video made it sound horrible..so sorry! Progress on going to College :o)
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Wednesday, May 20, 2009
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Current mood:motivated
Yes..I actually have an Assignment..given to me by my admissions counslor at Full Sail. I have to write about the process and what I have to do to go to Full Sail and email him the same info..not only that I also have to put post it notes all over my apartment telling me different things I should do today, things I need to do to make going to this school a reality, then I have to take pictures and email him all that. This is an effort to irradicate my procrastination that I let run my life. It has been the cause of not going to school for 5 years so if I don't change my habits I'm never going to get to the place I wanna be! I understand this is a long road ahead, but I'm welling to go the distance! One issue thats screwed my chances is finding the money to go. Yes I know, this has been my biggest excuse and I refuse to use it ever again! So in order for me to go I have to get the money anyway I know how. So I've started to fill out a lot..I mean..A LOT of paperwork for finacial aid and scholarships.....thats work in itself....thats the hardest for me I think. I hate doin paper work so thats when my whole procrastination issue comes to play. My counslor also informed me that if I have to resort to loans then for me to be approved without a co-signer ( which it will have to be without one b/c i don't have anybody that can or will do that for me) my credit score must be at least a 700...that would have been fine last year but unfortuntly things have come to be that has screwed my score..so the 2nd thing I have to work on is getting it back up to what it was before! Easier said than done! So far tho at an emotional stand point I'm tring to keep my momentum going. Its easy to get discourge when you start to realize the amount of obstacles standing in your way. Its easy when you have someone helping you , but when you have rent, utilities, water, gas, credit cards, car loans, cel phone bill, storage unit bill and a hospital bill its hard to stay positive that somehow you will get the money. I want to go so badly! This college can help me turn my dream into a reality.....my big dream i've had since i was 7! So I have to stay focused and say FUCK IT...I'm doing it no matter! So thats what I have so far. I have to post this like every freakin week so lets see what I've doing a week from now!
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Saturday, May 09, 2009
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We look at the night sky in the quiet of Darkness, and they are never far. Those we have loved and cherished, those who have changed our lives in some small or profound way are closer than we know, because it is their light that shines on our world. It is the brillance of their souls that makes our night sky glow. ~For Chico~
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