I am so sick and tired of getting my heart broken, I try so hard not to get close, and i still get hurt. Why do i pick guys that dont want to be with me? I have been told by many I am a smart, beautiful, funny, easy going girl, and that i would make a great girlfriend but "there not ready ", or "they are still not over their ex girlfriend", or someother bullshit reason. Even when I say "titles are not important I just want to be with you" thats not even good enough,

I have been trying to do everything right with my life, i quit drinking so much, Im not a party girl anymore. I am trying to put the pieces of my life together, and its not even about finding mr.right ( even though that would be cool too, but not important) I just want some one to want me now, just to be with me.

I know i need to relax, and have patience but i've been trying that and that has bit me in the ass too. I dont want to sit here 3 months from now and being writing another blog on how heartbroken I am and much i hate men.

I just want to be happy.

I just dont understand why bad things keep happening to me!
I try and try to be good person and do the right thing but i just cant seem to have anygood luck.

I dont understand why it always has to be me, why cant people just leave my stuff alone! Seriously the stuff that was taken wasnt worth much and all is replaceable its just a bitch to have to go through all the trouble.

Now my problem with men , i can be a bitch yes, but when i actually do like a guy why does it have to be so freaking complicated. you say your going to do do something fuckin do it. I know i have played some games in my past but thats not right, just be honest even if the honesty hurts there is no need for the bs. Is that to much ask.

i duno even know what i am typing tho, i am pissed off, sick, tired and just plain angry with the world. fuck it