Saying i didnt love him anymore was the biggest lie that ever came out of my mouth.....i dont really know why i said it, i think i was trying to convince myself that i didnt anymore, so it would be easier and i wouldnt be hurt as bad...but it didnt work. i ended up feeling so much worse because i know it hurt him to hear that, like i had been lieing to him the whole time or sumthin.... but i never lied about how much i loved him, it was with all my heart, and i have never stoped. he is the one, my everything, and i dont think he truly realizes how much i have fallen for him, i would love to spend the rest of my life with him. even tho i think sometimes he does the stupidest things to make me hate him and wanna whoop his ass, but he always finds away to make me smile or laugh..and i can never stay mad at him. all i really wanna say in this is yes I LOVE YOU, and i will ALWAYS love you. and im sorry i ever said anything that was the oppisit of that feeling.

sorry.

wow so ALOT of things have changed in the past few days and i swear my life has been fliped upside down...everything i ever thought i knew about myself has been thrown out the window...this ISNT who i am...how could everything change SO fast...i mean one night im jus the crazy normal lisa...and the next...i dont even know who ive become. Dont get me wrong some parts of these events were going the way i thought they would and i WAS happy...but then things went down a whole nother road and thats when i became lost.
So all im saying is watch wht u do because everthing u ever knew can change in the blink of an eye.

hi,  im gay. iv been in the closet for a while now but after i have my frist lesbian expierance i knew it was ment to be, and i dont reallly think u should act weird in front of me now or anything, i mean even tho deep down i think all my girl "friends" are hott ,and i would like to tap that.....but besides that, im am just a normal teenager hyped up on prozack and E. but lifes good....when i take the meds ;) i only tryed to kill myself 14 times..idk wht the big deal is, its my body, and if i want to mangel it then so be. i sold my body on e-bay once, and some guy with syph bought it...well  lets just say i didnt know he had syph till after are little s&m event. but yea thats  about it so BE MY FRIEND!

hahaha j/p...scared u for a sec tho right? LAMO

Ok look...if u meet a girl at the club...thats great, but if she has a friend standing there and u just ignore her...well lets just say dont,cause it wont last long.And another thing, if ur all up on a girl and you see her mouthing things to her friends or makeing weird faces,get off her. And if she says "oh ill brb, or i gotta go see my friend" dont ask if u can come...if she wanted you to come, she would have asked u. And if it gets to the point were her friend has to put her in a frickin head-lock and drag her away just so u leave her alone..LET GO OF HER HAND! believe me, considering this actuly happend to me the other night...i would know, the guy was draging behind me like a little kid, i mean i felt bad...but get the hint. And worst of all, guys we know its hard "Literally" But try not to get Hard when ur danceing up on a girl...its kinda weird....and unless ur like frickin gorgeous then keep all the blood in ur head,and i mean the one on ur sholders ...got it.

So i just realized that i like ALL types of guys....
preppy,skater,ghetto,
black,white,hispanic...
alll kinds im mean in every culture a guy is a guy and if there is love then go for it
True Love is exactly that...true, so it dosent matter who they are or what they look like, all that matters is if the feelings are true.

 Luv,Lisa