And so I'm 40!!!

I thank all my friends for the messages they sent to me in this LOOOONG day!!

A kiss to everyone!!!

 

LILLA

I'M SO SORRY. SO I PRAY EVERYONE TO FORGIVE ME.

I've had some problems. My job, my friends, my relatives.

My dad is still at hospital, from sept, 29. The doctors found a cancer in his brain... now he is better, but not the way he's used to be.

At the same time I have to work for a job that I don't like (in the secret of my soul, I hope it will be ended before the new year), so I'm still loooking for something better. Unfortunately I haven't time enough to plane everything, because I run every moment of the day...

And, like the cherry on the top, I got the flu!!! (this is the reason I found the time to write something....)

But today is a beautiful (glorious!!!) day, with a deep blue sky, no clouds, no wind, no rain even in the distance...no rainbow... but for now it's enough... after a week of rain,I could be glad for the moment and for the rest.

God bless everyone of us. We need...

 

Don't ask me why, I heard this song yesterday, and it was ringing in my head for all the night... So tomorrow I've looked for the lyrics... and here it is... I know, maybe sometimes we feel tha writing this kind of word is stupid.. but sometimes heart bits stronger than your head... I think it's better listening to music that let your heart sing... 

I left too much time passed from my last new, from my last message on the page of some of MY-friends, too much time without writing, sending smiles or just a drop like I use to do.

I've told you I'd have a chance to make my FAVE job... ok, something is changed, not too much, but... I've promised some of you to tell about me just when I'd have had just a little bit of time... tonight it's the best moment...

In order:

I'm working in a stage at the Researchs National Council, studying the case about a bioremediation of a polluted site.... it was my dream for a long time, I was thinking I'd never be able to be involved in a case like this. NEVER GIVE UP!!!

My actual job is  a disaster...  the beatiful feeeling with my manager is broken, every kind of correct way to act is over, they have begun to treat me like a not fave one, they would like to make me sign a real bad agreement... I didn't do it.. I felt strange, really, but I felt I made the right thing. 2 days later a friends of mine tell me about a project of Environmental Communication... he's working at Environmental Ministry (maybe the right word is Department...): he wants to involve me in his project, and I feel too lucky... He's a very special kind of person, he makes my dream find a way to became true... he makes my brain think about how planning everything in a different way, he makes the chaos in me and, when I make clear with my criteria...everything is so... amazing!!!

At the same time I've received a good proposal: I'll change the firm but I'll do the same kind of job I did the last 2 years, with a better salary...

So, what can I think about it? I feel that sometime we can't do anything to change the world and the way we live in but if we keep on trying hard doing the best we can, sooner or later, we find our SUNBOW (even if without a pot full of gold!).

Hold on, keep your hands on that plough and HOLD ON!!

Sometimes I feel like a motherless child
Sometimes I feel like a motherless child
Sometimes I feel like a motherless child
Long way from my home

Sometimes I wish I could fly Like a bird up in the sky
Sometimes I wish I could fly Like a bird up in the sky
Sometimes I wish I could fly Like a bird up in the sky
Little closer to my home

Motherless children have a real hard time
Motherless children have-a real hard time
Motherless children have such a real hard time
A long way from home

Sometimes I feel like freedom is near
Oh, sometimes I feel like freedom is here
Sometimes I feel like freedom is near
But we're so far from home

Sometimes I feel like it's close at hand
And sometimes I feel like it's close at hand
Sometimes I feel like the freedom is so near
But we're so far away from home

Motherless children have a real hard time
Motherless children have-a real a hard time
Motherless children have a really hard time
Sometimes, sometimes, sometimes, sometimes, sometimes
So far, so far, so far, so far, so far, so far, so far
Mama, from you
So far


I know, sooner or later I'll sing this song... And, at last, my heart will tear all its pain... not like today, not like yesterday, steady on the rock of freedom...

Pensa a come sarebbe il futuro se non ci fosse alcun cambiamento! La vita e' come l'acqua: deve scorrere per essere pulita e fonte di altra vita! (mia, chiacchierando, una sera di qualche anno fa, con una vecchia amica: ieri sera, rivendendola, mi ha detto che questa frase ha cambiato il suo modo di affrontare le cose che succedono, gradite o meno.)

Think about a future without any change! Life is like water: it need flowing in order to be clear and to be source of new life! (mine, chatting, a lot of time ago, with an old friend: she said that this sentence has changed her way to face life...)

Ok, It would be better I say anything about this new project, but I'm too excited!!! So I'll only say that I'm going on starting a wonderful thing with a big organization. Not a real job, but a way to reach a new one. And, this time, about my preferred field: ENVIRONMENT!!!

Now I have to start planning the project with my tutor.... I'll give you more infos when the game will be done :D (and I'll be really, really sure to be apart of the project!!!) 

I'll keep in touch!!!

One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people. He said, "My son, the battle is between 2 "wolves" inside us all.

One is Evil. It is anger, envy, jealousy,sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.

The other is Good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith."

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather:

"Which wolf wins?"

The old Cherokee simply replied, "The one you feed."

 

TKX Shari, it's so true!!!

So, Ben Harper is on Myspace... I love his last album, it sounds so "gospel", doesn't it? And I fell in love with this song, in a summer lost in past years... so, I think tonight I've found another joyray...

Waiting on an angel

Waiting on an angel
one to carry me home
hope you come to see me soon
cause I don't want to go alone
I don't want to go alone

Now angel won't you come by me
angel hear my plea
take my hand lift me up
so that I can fly with thee
so that I can fly with thee

And I'm waiting on an angel
and I know it won't be long
to find myself a resting place
in my angel's arms
in my angel's arms

So speak kind to a stranger
cause you'll never know
it just might be an angel come
knockin' at your door
knockin' at your door

And I'm waiting on an angel
and I know it won't be long
to find myself a resting place
in my angel's arms
in my angel's arms

Waiting on an angel
one to carry me home
hope you come to see me soon
cause I don't want to go alone
I don't want to go alone
don't want to go
I don't want to go alone

I know, it won't be easy. I have to fight, I have to scale a highest mountain, I have to cry out all my fears and all my pain... But I'll find my sun.

This is my resolution for the new year: I'll be the most perfect MYSELF I know.

 

This is my fave song over all: everytime I'm listenig to it, I drop all my tears... 'cos I'm feeeling deep inside myself the refrain...

I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For

I  have climbed highest mountain
I have run through the fields
Only to be with you
Only to be with you

I have run
I have crawled
I have scaled these city walls
These city walls
Only to be with you

But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for

I have kissed honey lips
Felt the healing in her (HIS?!)fingertips
It burned like fire
This burning desire

I have spoke with the tongue of angels
I have held the hand of a devil
It was warm in the night
I was cold as a stone

But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for

I believe in the kingdom come
Then all the colors will bleed into one
Bleed into one
Well yes I'm still running

You broke the bonds and you
Loosed the chains
Carried the cross
Of my shame
Of my shame
You know I believed it

But I still haven't found what I'm looking for...

U2: The Joshua tree