I've always had bad feelings towards summer, I don't know why.
It's like summer isn't the sun, or the heat, or the people, it's just a feeling.
A feeling that I shouldn't have bad feelings towards, but I do anyway.

Maybe it's something to do with memoris.
I've never liked memories, even the happy ones make me feel miserable, my childhood wasn't the best.
I could talk about it if you want, but only in person.
(but no one wants to hear me moan anyway)

The winter has always seemed so welcoming, and so comforting, I feel like I can concentrate on things then.
Maybe I'm very susceptible to heat, because I never get cold, at least not when other people start to.

I'm not generally a happy person, but I try pretty hard to be happy.
I don't enjoy being unhappy, any chance to amuse myself I'll take it.
There are things that make me feel shit and have done for a while, but then again so does everyone else because no one's perfect and that's not an excuse to whine about everything.

I don't know why the fuck I'm saying all this on MYSPACE of all places.
Maybe because I'm tired and have nothing else to do.

Dunno.

I need more damn friends.

I like to laught at whatever I can, I don't give a shit about myself, FUCK MYSELF.

Here are my thoughts on valentines day:
(because I feel like typing for a abit)

It's absolutely pointless, here's why:

You don't need just ONE day of the year to begin and explore relationships, it doesn't make it any more romantic, in fact it makes it less because it means that YOU have to be reminded to do these things.

If you seriously loved someone you would would tell them that or take them out on a date as soon as possible.

And because of this people start to form more casual relationships because they feel they HAVE to have a boyfriend or a girlfriend, which is not love.

Love is when you admire all the small details about a person, their habits, their humor, ETC.

As for physical attraction, it has more to do with love than you think, you see I believe that there is no 'love at first sight' and that there is only fancying people at first sight, you can admire a certain personally type all you want, but you cant see that in an ugly person, so naturally you become attracted to better looking people and it's from their that love forms.

Some people think that they are entirely different but they actually work toghether by developiing a relationship and starting.

I forgot what the fuck I was talking about after the first paragraph.

Basically, it shouldn't mean anything to you.

I'm getting tired.

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If anyone can downlaod the full version of 'the swarn' by rebelski, and send it to me.
I will do fucking anything and be grateful for a million fucking years.