Well I made it to Florida not bad so far my buddy Luke drove down with me had a blast while he was here.  Im sort of homesick a lil bit but I really do like Florida I need to start making friends not used to having no one around that I can go see or just hang out with.  Im sure with time will get better.

After worrying for weeks and about making myself sick with work.  I took back today what was rightfully mine and that is the power and control I have over myself.  I let my supervisor take this away without even realizing it and then cried and whined to everyone when it was gone.  What I didnt know was it was there all the time I just had to tell myself if I wanted it take it back.  So this morning after getting out of bed not sleeping at all last night.  I looked myself in the mirror and asked myself why are you letting yourself be manipulated and controlled this is going to stop right now.  If I didnt go to work I was letting her win and I wasn't going to let that happen.  So I got my ass ready for work took a shower put on an outfit that made me feel good about myself marched in their with my head high and like I owned the place.  She didnt say a word, actually I think it surprised her hopefully it made her feel uncomfortable.  So tomorrow it will more of the same I am not backing down....to be continued. 

I never write anything here except for when I go to Florida. ...lol. Well this trip to Florida was amazing.  I went there thinking I was going to just hang out with friends and see Mickey and ride some cool rollercoasters.  I did all that and met someone very special.  When people say you are not looking is when someone comes along they are right.  This guy is really a great guy, my friend that I went to Florida with asked me what I thought of the roommate  (the guy I think is so amazing (not think know)) I was like yeah...whatever ...how was I to know that he would be so adorable. 

We went to Downtown Disney took Dennis’s kids and the roommate came along we talked a little bit but seemed like we were stuck with the kids most of the time so couldnt really have a good conversation.  I dont know how it really happened but we started holding hands under the table while taking a break from video games...lol...he is a big kid like me. 

He later took me on this awesome adventure which consisted of going to Disney but not actually going inside.  We rode the ferry to the main gate and then took the mono rail around the park it was alot of fun and didnt cost a thing.  I love that he could show me a great time with just ourselves and it really is what you make of it.

So for the rest of the week instead of hanging out with Dennis and the kids I spent time with this great guy and it just happened that his parents were in town too.  The parents are really great people remind me alot of my parents and his Aunt Betty was along and she would make me laugh so hard I just love her. 

Some might think this is cheesy but the best moment was after the fireworks and the Fantasmic show I kissed him and felt so romantic.  I know there were others around and Im not so much into public display of affection but I couldnt help myself he makes me feel so good.

I can’t wait to get back to Florida to see him it feels so right I have to know if we were meant for each other and the only way to know is by getting to know each other.   I will keep you posted and just to let you know Dreams Do Come True and I guess I had to go to the land where that happens Disney.

Well it is my 2nd day back in Iowa.  It is freezing here I am starting to wonder why I came back.  I should have waited a few more months at least it would have been a little bit warmer.  It was great relaxing on the beach and the clubs there were awesome alot of fun and many cuties.  It has been awhile since I posted anything maybe I need to do it more often.  I say that now but I know it wont happen.  While I was in Florida I went to Sea World first time I have ever been there my friend told me it was like going with a 12 year old since I was so excited.  The whole day I had this big grin on my face.  I was very happy.  I think every kid should experience it when I was younger my mother could not afford it so there were not many trips to places like that.  Well at least now I can experience it with friends.  Ok that is bout enough for now maybe I will actually put something here more often.  Peace Out.

It is interesting reading peoples personal feelings and thoughts on these blogs.  I was never really interested in them until I read a few.  So I decided maybe I need to at least put a few of my thoughts in here to reflect on at a later date could be quite interesting.  Today I am very mellow...not really sad or happy...just a happy medium.  A few days ago I would have told you Im just tired of it all in general but days changes hopefully they get better.  It seems that when you have put some effort into getting to know somebody and then they tell you they have decided to focus interests else where it sort of puts a dent in your life in general mood.  Normally something like that would not bother me...but when there feels like there are better connections between some guys more then others and I always want to fully explore the better ones you never know what could come of it.  So the last few days my friend had to listen to me whine and complain so in return I have to go with her to purchase tires...should be fun..yeah right!!.  Next time Im just going to find a good therapist...Im sure will not be as boring as tire shopping and might be worth the money...lol.   I had a good conversation last night with a someone...stayed up way to late, but I enjoy a good conversation.  I hope I get to talk to this person more...seems like a good guy.  Well for someone who doesnt like to write..I have filled in alot of text boxes today, but was enjoyable in the most part.  Im out .....for the day.